Why do self-forgiveness?
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Self-forgiveness Statements:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in the design of
'fear of survival - as negative energy'
fear that I will not have photos and videos
to remember information and knowledge
given by others
desiring to remember
information and knowledge given to me
instead of seeing and realizing
I stand as self-remembrance
Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
doubt who i am
uncertain of whether i am
the one existing within memories
defining oneself within positive and negative experiences
or
who i really am as equal to self-remembrance
Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
blame the physical for creating videos and cameras
believing that this is here for us to remember positive energy experiences
instead of realizing it is here for us to use for what is best for all
Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to have the excuse that
i have to survive - taking photos and videos
to remember positive energy experiences
Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
react by suppressing my anger when someone calls me out
or makes me wrong
compounding the anger within myself
believing that i have to be right
believing that i have to prove myself
believing i have to be right to be able to prove myself
believing that when i prove myself as right
i am successful in what i do
instead of realizing that i have to look at and face the fear
where this all started
self-forgive and do self-correction in my living application
Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
regret deleting the photos and videos i took
instead of realizing that i am here
as the breath in every moment
developing an equal and one relationship with
all that is here as the physical within self-remembrance
Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior
when someone calls me out for something that i did
believing that i have to be right
believing i should be superior
beliving i have to be the best
believing i have to succeed
believing my purpose in life is to succeed
in whatever i do
believing that i have to know everything
believing that when i know - i can be right - and never be wrong
believing that when i do that which is right, people will like me
believing that the more people like me
the more success i have
Instead of realizing that who i am is not defined by
the number of people who likes me
Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
feel shame for doing what i did
believing the shame that i feel
is who i am - feeling shame
instead of realizing that
that is who i have become as the personality
interpreting reality
reacting to things, people etc.
then impulsed to feel shame
within my mind
Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to justify the excuse that i have to survive
taking pictures and videos
remembering positive energy experiences
believing i cannot be wrong
believing that when i am wrong i am not whole
believing that i need to be whole
believing i need to be right to be whole
within balance in polarity
not seeing and realizing that wholeness does not need to separate from the source
Topic:
Me as The Female Personality
Relationships and Sexual Programming:
>Fear of loss/not surviving as a female personality
>>Desire to be attracted to a male ormales be attracted to me
>>>Desire to have a relationship with a male
>>>>Desire to have sex with a male
>>>>>Satisfaction, i am complete as a female
>>>>>>Excuse: I have to survive as a female
Note: The fear of losing the female personality comes up when one does not have a relationship (or when one is dissatisfied with a partner etc.) which fuels the desire to be attracted to a male or desire for males to be attracted to me.
One then extends this desire by desiring a relationship with a male and then desiring to have sex with a male.
One gets a positive experience from this.
The question is : Is this who i really am?
That, i did not ask myself. I forgot that the positive came from a negative - a fear.
I did not investigate where that fear originated.
I did not see the pattern (part of my female programming)
I accepted and allowed it.
Then, i gave an excuse why it is okay for me to participate in this mind pattern.
I lived like a female being directed by the mind, rather than a self-directive human female expressing
oneself here
The starting point of this is self-interest and not what is best for all life.
In this blog, i am writing self-forgiveness for having this excuse as part of my process of self-perfection
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I am using self-forgiveness and writing a correction script to follow and correct myself in my living participation
Why am I Using Mathematics?
I
am using mathematical symbols at the end of this post to show that the
MIND values i have given are NOT REAL, showing the real value of ALL
is/as Life.
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Self-forgiveness Statement:
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to participate in the design of fear of survival - as sex
have the excuse that
i have to survive as a female
desiring attraction to a male
desiring males to be attracted to me
desiring relationship with a male
desiring having good sex with a male
believing that I will lose my female identity/personality
If i do not desire attraction to a male/males being attracted to me
If i do not desire relationship with a male
If i do not desire having good sex with a male
If i do not desire getting married with a male
If i do not have a baby with the male i am married to
believing I will not survive as a female
not seeing and realizing that
I am here as breath in every moment
as presence, as movement, as sensation
and that i can express myself as a female equal to the male expression
Realizing
that i do not really need to have an excuse
that i can take self-responsibility
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Commitment:
Self-Correction Script:
I commit myself to when and as I see myself having the excuse
that I will lose my female personality/not survive as a female
I stop
I breathe
I realize that
I defined myself into creation
I defined myself within birth and death as the beginning and the end
I defined myself as a female separate from a male
defining myself within a polarity equation
so forgive myself for my acceptances and allowances
and correct myself breath by breath
moment by moment
Realizing that
the fear of losing the female identity/personality
is fueling
the desire for having a female identity/personality
I assist myself to
face that fear
walk back and look at the problem, provide a solution
redefine words
see that there is a reward in transcending my fear
birthing me here as who i really am
not directed by the mind
self-directive
I assist myself to see that there is nothing to lose
as there was nothing real gained
for having a female personality
I imagined it in my mind
I assist myself to
write a self-correction script
and live that
taking myself by the hand
assist myself to 'walk out of the mind'
moment by moment
breath by breath
Realize that I am here as breathe in every moment
I am that beingness/ awareness
that is merged with the body and the mind
so I forgive myself for mind participation
correct myself in my living participation
and release my beingness
to through writing, self-forgiveness and self - corrective applicatrion
birth me here as life
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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values
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Giving Values Equal To Life
I realized i had given mind values and formed mind equations
'as in
female + male =complete/whole = +100
female - male = incomplete/ half complete = -100
complete female = attraction with a male+ relationship with a male +good sex with a male = security = eternal happiness =eternal survival as a female personality = +1000
where
eternal happiness = eternal survival as a female personality= +1000'
I realized that
I had given words such as ''male', 'female', complete', 'incomplete', 'half,' 'whole' etc.
mind values that are not real
I made up a mind equation within my mind that is not real
it has no real physical existence
Realizing that i can rewrite the book i have written within myself
I can rescript the movie within my mind
from the starting point of self-interest
to a starting point of what is best for all life
to through writing, self-forgiveness and self correction birth me here as life
Realizing that
the value of a female body = Life
the value of a male body = Life
the value of all that is here = Life
Realizing that
The body of the female
and the body of the male
consist of cells which consist of atoms
consisting substance
that ALL consist of
All = Life
