Topic: Sex
In my previous post i laid out what i will be working on in my blogs
I am including a brief outline here for reference.
I will do self-forgiveness for
accepting and allowing myself to be directed
by the mind rather than being self-directive here as who i am
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BRIEF OUTLINE:
The Dimensions of My Mind
Fear: The platform of the mind
The Conscious Mind:
Thought: me being touched by the male who i am in a relationship with, in the nipple
Imagination: the nipple hardening and my jade gate secreting fluid with the hard jade stalk inside my jade gate going in and out in a slow but firm motion alternating with deep thrusts and shallow thrusts that drives me to a point of orgasm
The Subconscious Mind:
Backchat: (I decided to keep this in my private blog)
Reaction: me satisfied and happy feeling ecstatic- like a complete woman
The Unconscious Mind:
Body Movement: :my head turning right and left, screaming intermittently, gasping for my breath
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In this blog, I will be looking at the FEAR Dimension:
Self-forgiveness Statements:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
to participate in the design of fear of survival - as sex
fear not being able to have a positive energy experience
within sex
believing that If I do not have
a positive energy experience
- within sex
with a man
I will be less of a woman
believing that I am complete when I am in a relationship
'loving' a man
and being loved in return
believing that the measure of
the quality of love in a relationship
is in the quality of sex I have
with that man
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Commitment: Correction Script:
I commit myself to when and as I see myself
fearing not having a positive energy experience
-within having sex with a man
I stop
I breathe
I realize that it is me as the mind
defining myself within positive and negative
energy
believing that the positive energy experience
as the happy me
is who I really am
instead of realizing
that it is me as the mind cycling through
the negative and the positive energies
believing that is who I really am
and that without that
I will cease to exist
so desire to always be happy
believing that if I am in a relationship
that lasts I will be
able to have someone who desires me
someone who desires to have sex with me
that someone will be able to
give me happiness always
believing that if I have happiness always
I will survive more
instead of realizing that I am here as breath
in every moment
moving me
expressing me
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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Value
Vs Giving Value Equal To Life
I realized that I have given the words 'man' and 'woman'
these mind values:
'man = half of the whole = 50
woman = half of the whole =50
man + woman = relationship = sex = whole = 100
I realized that the values I have given
the words man and woman
are not real
as I made them up in my mind
they have no real physical existence
I realized that I made a mind equation
that looks like this:
1. man + woman = relationship with a man = love = sex = happiness = positive energy experience = me surviving as who I am ( survival).
2. woman - man = no relationship with a man = no love = no sex = no happiness = negative energy experience = me not surviving as who I am (death)'
I realized that the mind equation is not real
as I made them up in my mind
therefore they have no real physical existence
It is to realize that
the real value of the body of a woman is equal to Life
the real value of the body of a man = Life
Realizing that All = Life
Stopping mind participation is the key
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