Education Teacher & Student

 

In this blog, i am looking at my elementary and high school points - forgiving myself and writing commitment for correction

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe my teacher has more power than me - since she is older and has more knowledge than me because she gives me assignments 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my teacher believing that because she can give me a failing grade, she has more power than me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear i will not be able to do the assignment my teacher gave me because i do not know how to apply it in real life

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think of a picture of my teacher standing in front of the class with a stick on her right hand

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a backchat of 

"When will recess be? I am bored".

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my creativity by following the teacher's commands even if i do not agree to all of them

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see the school as an institution that has more value than me and within that, see myself as inferior

I forgive myself that i  have accepted and allowed myself to believe that knowledge given to me by others  who have more credentials than me are all valid - so i do not challenge them

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that education is about teachers or people transferring knowledge to me and me accepting them

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that high school is about having a relationship partner that will provide me with assistance in all aspects of my life

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my high school classmates think highly of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be attracted to some of my male classmates in elementary and high school

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to attract my male classmates to me through the way i dress and the way i present myself - within self-interest

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as inferior to my teachers to the point that i lost myself and suppress myself.

Commitment to Correction

When and as i see myself believing that my teacher has more power than me, i stop - i breathe. I realize that the teacher and the student is being perceived and given a value  that is not real

Rather than see both are equal in value.

I commit myself to see the student and the teacher as equals