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In this blog, l am looking at who i am in relation to 'When am i?'
where i exist as a personality within dimensional shifts within compartments in my mind
I am using self-forgiveness, writing a self-correction script and committing myself to apply me in my practical living application
Self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to define myself within time
thinking within the
past, present and future
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where my memory of me
in the past
as the mind character
as happy/successful
or sad/failure
influence the way i see myself, others and this world
seeing through the mind's eyes
time travelling
as i jump within the compartments of my mind
as i think, imagine, have internal conversations/backchat
within my mind
viewing myself, others and this world
at this moment
based on the past
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Present
where i see myself
through my mind eyes
as who i have become
as the mind character/personality
within the 'present'
as i define myself within time
as to my state of mind
whether i am 'happy or sad'
whether i am 'peaceful or stressed'
whether i am 'good or not'
whether i have 'money or not'
whether i am 'successful or not'
etc.
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Future
where i see myself evolving
as a self-realized mind character/personality
like the gurus
who are mind characters
projecting an evolution
that is only possible through the mind
as
the world is devolving
considering the abuse of nature, plants, animals and humans etc.
not seeing the common sense
that i create my 'within' and 'without'
and to self-realize as myself separate from all parts of me as Life
is self-interest
self-interest being the opposite of
real self-realization
as Self is all Life
and that
to self-realize in a world of inequality
where some self-realize and some don't
is contrary to
the real meaning of Self as all Life
where the essential/basic requirement
of self-realization is
the equal and one living of all
in this one LIFE
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Commitment to Correction
I commit myself to when and as i see myself defining myself within time
as the past, present and future
I stop
I breathe
Realization
I realize that i am
defining myself within
and as who i have become as the mind
imprisoned within different compartments of/as the mind
where when i see a person etc.
i time travel to different compartments
as personality manifestation
within my mind
creating a mind character/personality within myself
in who i have become
as the different characters/personalities
i activate when with family, friends etc.
as in
my character/personality with family
as my character/personality with friends
as my character/personality with school
as my character/personality with the environment
as my character/personality with the external environment
my friend's mother/father
my teacher
extending to
the first time i was introduced to money
etc.
where
i accepted and allowed
for the DNA of my parents to be downloaded into my physical form
as my parents mind
and so the generation before them
copying they way they speak
copying the way they move etc.
turning out exactly like my parents
where i accepted and allowed me
to personalize the mind
giving the illusion of uniqueness
when in the background
interacting in the different compartments of the mind
as i think, imagine, have back chats
as i react and behave
as the different characters/personality that i have become
influenced by a person, event etc.
making sure i develop this personality
so that in my living of this personality throughout my life
i will be always locked into/connected and aligned
to this person/type of person with this environment/type of environment
with this activity/type of activity
at a young age
already existing in a DNA mind pre- programmed design
pre-programmed into my life experiences
which is why i prefer/like certain places/type of places or not
which is why i prefer/like certain person/type of person or not
which is why i prefer/like certain things and other things not
limiting myself totally or entirely to certain people
certain environment
certain activities
certain direction
because they are all personalities
that is in fact existent within myself
and through the 18 years of my life
i develop these personalities
and as i participate more and more with a particular human being
a particular environment
particular frames
particular activities
the personality development can go both ways
developing a 'good relationship'
or 'bad relationship'
where when i develop good relationships
it will facilitate my pre - programmed dna mind design
always aligning to human beings
with the same personality, behavior, communication
the same everything
because my own internal personality is now aligned
with this type of person
where i do not interact with certain kinds of people
preventing myself to
go out of alignment with my pre- programmed DNA mind design
developing a kind of personality that will resist
these kind of people or activity
defining them as wrong/negative/scary/bad
and throughout my life make sure i do not participate in it
where i did not investigate my reactions
not realizing my reactions towards others
because that's what people's always known
so my interaction with people, activities, manifestations, corporations etc.
has been defined from the context of time travelling
within myself in all of my interactions
where thoughts are like keys and dates i put in
and my back chats/internal conversations
becoming the actual travelling
i am doing
through my subconscious mind
travelling
and my personality emerge in my time dimension
interacting with a human being in the past
recreating the past
over and over and over again
manifesting the past in this existence
where i haven't been going anywhere but backwards
seeing through the mind's eyes
that humanity is evolving
when there's poverty, murder, rape, abuse etc.
everything is getting worse but not seeing that reality
as i am looking through my mind's eyes
doing yoga, meditation,
trying to become blissful everyday within my mind
so i will not see what is here
thinking it is too painful to see people suffering, being abused etc.
so created a belief/idea within my mind
and manifested it as if it is real
as i feel blissful when i meditate
forgetting the suffering
telling myself
the opposite of what is real
as the evil me - within self-dishonesty
that this world is a beautiful divine place
an illusion that i have lived
to not see what is here
as the evil me suppressing me
to see all parts of me as life
so i will not birth me as life
within self-sabotage
fearing of suffering, pain and non existing
not wanting to feel helpless, hopeless, valueless and meanigless
not realizing that stopping me as the mind
is embracing all parts of me as Life and living as equal to all that is here
which is really the meaning of real self-realization
redefining difficulty, death, suffering, pain, non existence
redefining hopelessness, uselessness and meanilnglessness
standing tall
pulling myself up
as who i am is here
as breath
slowing myself down
as i breath in, pause, breath out, pause
expressing me as breath here
redefining words and using words as equal to my written and spoken expression
as i assist in establishing a world that is best for all
where i do not need a 'guru or a greater person' to do this for me/us
aware that i create my 'within' as the mind
aware that i create my 'without' as this world system
so it is about me
stopping my mind participation
and correcting myself
in my practical living application
in my 'within and without'
birthing me
birthing Life
Here
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I commit myself to assist myself to look at my own thoughts, backchats etc.
walking back
and look at what relationships i have formed in the past
and see which developed my relationships now
releasing myself from being stuck in different time dimensions
and be here living
realizing that i tried to find myself
in yoga and meditation
but got lost within my mind
'basking in my mind created bliss'
alone in the recesses of my mind
as the evil me
move in different dimensions within my mind as time
where the evil me
as i, me and myself
work for my own survival
within my desire to'self-realize'/liberate the ego
believing the guru will give me liberation from the ego
as i see within my mind's eyes
within separation/mind awareness
only for my own happiness - within self-ineterest
as me, i and myself
with the excuse that i have to liberate myself
blaming this world and seeing it as mundane
and having the idea that there is a place somewhere out there
other than here
where i will go in the future
not realizing
as i am locked in/as my thoughts, imaginations, backchats etc.
imagining the guru on top of my head while meditating
desiring to be blessed by the guru
reciting and singing the mantra
to evolve me as the mind
manipulating my body through sound
and manifesting that as 'feeling of happiness and bliss'
doing yoga exercises to evolve my body and mind
manipulating my body through body postures
and manifesting that as 'feeling of wellness, peace and being stress-free'
to justify my 'desire to self-realize and liberate' within a mind awareness
as i, me and myself
within self-interest
as the evil me thinking i am divine, good etc.
thinking when i help/give to the poor
i will stop poverty and make this world a 'better place'
not realizing that i am supporting this word system of abuse and inequality
as i do that as i still use the electricity, transportation etc. that is the product
of this world system of inequality
having the illusion
i am evolving within all that i do
as i do what the guru said i have to do
not realizing its me as the mind character
fearing suffering/sadness/pain/death/not existing
desiring happiness/bliss/liberation from the ego
which i perceived the guru as able to do
within a promise which i defined as a way out
'a promise of release from my pain, suffering and death'
running away from my fears
looking at the guru through my mind's eyes
animating an illusion
not realizing
who i am
is here
in every moment
moving and expressing me
as who i am as the breath in every moment
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Assisting myself
I commit myself to assist myself to accept and allow me
to stabilize me as breath
finding real physical enjoyment
in who i am as breath here
moving myself in that in breath
practicing becoming aware
of everything of my physical body
and then in the out breath
expressing into the depths of the physical
as the hereness of sound
as silence
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I commit myself to redefine time and use it as equal to my written and spoken expression
From a mind definition of TIME as
TI-e me as the M-ind as positive, neutral and negative E-nergy
perceiving me, others and this world through dimensional shifts
perceiving me, others and this world through dimensional shifts
creating a character/personality where i travel in time within my mind - an alternate reality that i use to evolve me as the character/personality as who i have become
To A Definition I Can Use as an Expression of who i am Here as
T-ranscending the I as the mind as i M-ove me to s-E-lf remembrance
forming an equal and one relationship with/as the physical
as who i am
referencing me as breath here
in this physical existence
forming an equal and one relationship with/as the physical
as who i am
referencing me as breath here
in this physical existence
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I commit myself to redefine the word 'WHEN' and give it a meaning i can live as who i am
from a mind definition as
WH-o i have become as E-nergy expoerie-N-cing me within time
to
W-ho i am as breath HE-re e-N-joying the physical breath
as i reference the moment in this physical existence
as i reference the moment in this physical existence
