This is a Continuation of This Blog
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/05/solution-to-fear-of-not-having-good-sex.html
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In this blog i will be working with the Thought Dimension
(highlighted with the brown color)
In the next blogs, i will be working with the rest of the dimensions - imaginations, backchats, reactions etc.
Brief Outline:
Fear: the base platform of the mind
Fear of not having a good sex life
The Conscious Mind:
Design of the Conscious Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5mMguKZT8VY
Thought: picture of having sex with DMC
Imagination: 'not enjoying having sex with someone i am not attracted to physically, and assuring myself that this suffering will end.'
The Subconscious Mind:
Design of the Subconscious Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_AoGjglQ94A
Backchats:
1.'I do not like him because his body is thin'
2. 'I do not like the moles in his back'
3.'he does not make me feel happy'
4.'he's stingy and that means he does not really love me
5. 'he's not good in bed, so it is a mismatch'
6.'but he always take me to his guest house, he said he loves me, he did yoga because i am doing yoga, very entertaining, introduced me to his mom and teaches me to draw aboriginal paintings, made this big canvas for us to draw into which no man did for me in the past'
7. 'I do not love him, I am not attracted to him'
8. 'he does not have that naughty look
Reaction:
faking it, feeling of loss
The Unconscious Mind:
Design of the Unconscious Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pc4h8SQxsLI
Body Movement:
withdrawing touch, smiles halfway
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Self-forgiveness Statements
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in the design of - fear of survival - as energy
have the thought
or having a picture of me having sex with DMC
within my mind
being unhappy
believing that this is me
as who i am as self
thinking these thoughts
relieving that negative energy experience of
that event which happened in the past
in the present
instead of realizing this is me
as the mind
thinking these thoughts
where i am not aware of how i created
these thoughts
not aware of how i created the mind
not aware of the origin of theses thoughts
not realizing that the body is being resourced
for energy
for the mind to exist
through thinking these thoughts
fearing not having a good satisfying sex life
with DMC
fearing being unhappy with him
for the rest of my life
fearing that i will reduce my experience of life
to a negative energy experience
of pain and suffering
desiring to have a good sex life
believing that it is my right
to experiencing
life to the fullest
with DMC
believing that living life to the fullest mean
i will live a life
of unendless happiness
having a happy sex life
with someone
in a relationship
believing that my life with DMC is
controlled
believing that i am living a controlled life
when i cannot express myself within physical interaction/or sex fully
where within this
i am not aware that
the body is resourced
when i think these thoughts
where natural energy is converted to
unnatural energy
for the mind to think
for the mind to exist
for me to have a negative energy experience
as the 'unhappy me - as the personality
an alternate version of me
within my mind
which i created'
not realizing that in thinking this thought
i am using energy
and that energy has to come from somewhere
and that somewhere
is inside the body
It is being resourced from the body - the energy powerhouse
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
think only of myself - within self-interest
when i get into relationships
when i have sex with a partner
not caring about what happens to the physical body
when i have these thoughts
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to not realize that
when i am thinking
i cannot see DMC
as who he really is
as my beingness is trapped
within my mind
evolving me as the personality
that desires good sex
rather than being here as breath walking with
my partner as myself
as an equal
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see
realize and understand that
the desire comes from a fear
that the positive comes from a negative
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
not see that
when the body is resourced
when thinking thoughts
the body is weakening more
and as i desire to eat 'healthy food'
believing i am assisting my body
i am doing the opposite also
i am accepting and allowing the body to be malnourished
as natural energy from food
gets transformed to unnatural energy
forgetting the commonsense that
its just a matter of time
before it manifests externally as a disease
slowly but surely as i participate in thinking thoughts
of unhappiness as well as bliss
i am resourcing the body for energy
so, stopping mind participation is the key
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Commitment
Self - Correction Script
I commit myself to when and as i see myself
thinking thoughts
of not having good sex with someone
i am in a relationship with
I stop
I breathe
i realized this is me as the mind
fearing losing
seeing good sex as a prize
i win for being with the right man
instead of realizing having physical interaction
is a physical activity
that requires for me to be here
stable
as the breath in every moment
having an equal and one relationship with the body
having physical interaction with someone as me
who is my equal
walking with another as myself
as we birth ourselves as life
assisting each other
and calling each other out
when and as one participate in
thinking thoughts of being unhappy within sex
in fearing negative energy experiences
in desiring a positive energy experience
taking self- responsibility
and correcting oneself
in ones living participation
to through writing
self-forgiveness and self correction in
ones living application
birth oneself
as who one really is
enjoying the physical
within physical interaction
as that primal scream of life
so one can assist oneself and another as self
within a 'relationship'
