This is a Continuation of This Blog
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/05/having-sex-day-292-i-do-not-love-him-dmc.html
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In this blog i will be working with FEAR
(highlighted with the brown color)
In the next blogs, i will be working with the rest of the dimensions - thought, backchat etc.
Brief Outline:
Fear: the base platform of the mind
Fear of not having a good sex life
The Conscious Mind:
Design of the Conscious Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5mMguKZT8VY
Thought: picture of having sex with DMC
Imagination: ''not enjoying having sex with someone i am not attracted to physically, and assuring myself that this suffering will end.'
The Subconscious Mind:
Design of the Subconscious Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_AoGjglQ94A
Backchats:
1.'I do not like him because his body is thin'
2. 'I do not like the moles in his back'
3.'he does not make me feel happy'
4.'he's stingy and that means he does not really love me
5. 'he's not good in bed, so it is a mismatch'
6.'but he always take me to his guest house, he said he loves me, he did yoga because i am doing yoga, very entertaining, introduced me to his mom and teaches me to draw aboriginal paintings, made this big canvas for us to draw into which no man did for me in the past'
7. 'I do not love him, I am not attracted to him'
8. 'he does not have that naughty look
faking it, feeling of loss
The Unconscious Mind:
Design of the Unconscious Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pc4h8SQxsLI
Body Movement:
withdrawing touch, smiles halfway
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Self-forgiveness Statements
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to participate in the design of
fear of survival - as sex - as energy
fear that i will not have a good sex life
fear that i will not have a positive energy experience
when i have sex with DMC
liking a man who has
all the characteristics that i like
projecting this idea
projecting this image to DMC
having a relationship of fear
with not having good sex
where i do not see DMC
for who he really is
seeing the alternate version of him
which i created in my mind
interpreting reality
and defining what i see
according to
positive and negative values
i have given words
Not seeing and realizing that
my body is composed of cells
consisting of atoms
the same atoms
the body of DMC consist of
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Commitments:
Self-Correction Script:
I commit myself to when and as i see myself
fear not having good sex
I stop
I breathe
I realized this is me as the mind
having a relationship with fear
running away from what i fear
and desiring that which is the polarity opposite
of what i fear
fearing not having a good sex life
and desiring good sex
within my mind
I assist myself to face my fear
and develop and equal and one relationship with the body
to through writing, self-forgiveness and self correction
in my practical living
birth me here as who i really am
I commit myself to stabilize me as breath
and breathe through the fear
breathe through the desire
release the positive and the negative connection
to other words, people, memories etc.
and birth me here as equal to all parts of me as life
redefine words
and live the redefined meaning of these words
as i realize the definition i give words
is how i see myself,
DMC
others
and this world
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Realization:
It is to realize that
when i participate in positive and negative energy experiences
i am in a state of instability
where i change
from being sad
when i do not get what i like
to happiness
when i get what i like
and cycle through
positive and negative energy experiences
all throughout my life
directed by the mind
instead of me being self-directive
so i assist myself to be self-directive
I assist myself to release the positive and negative values
i had given people, words etc.
and stabilize me as breathe here
expressing me as who i am
in 'relationships'/agreements
where instead of finding a man
who fits
what i like within my mind
walk with someone as an equal
seeing him as me
assisting each other to birth self here
enrolling in a free course
to know oneself intimately
knowing what my thoughts are
what my emotions and feelings are
and how to forgive myself and correct myself
so when i am walking with another as me
i can assist effectively
see the body/physical
as what it is
and enjoy my expression
within physical interaction
as the breathe here
staying with the pulse of my heart
until i become the pulse of life
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