LEARNING CENTER IN THE VILLAGE

LEARNING CENTER IN THE VILLAGE

In this blog, i am looking at a learning center that i built in the Village and how and what to do to be able for that to be a place where all can be assisted in many ways to survive and express to their optimum potential

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i have a learning center built, that someone will give me a learning software that i can put there

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others are automatically going to be attracted to my pilot projects in the community

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i start a pilot project that will give  poor people a little bit of food and money i will be supported by the people

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the agencies in the government will automatically support my projects

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people are giving by heart

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that some people are going to sabotage my pilot projects

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself that my family will automatically support my pilot projects because they are about helping the poor

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to give up my pilot projects for lack of support

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a backchat of

"What's the use of doing this - when everyone is stopping me from getting what i need to proceed and get this done?"

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this is not going anywhere because my funds will run out soon and the pilot projects will die a natural death

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think of a picture of me with no money in the bank

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine a movie of me talking and carrying on about my pilot projects but no one is listening

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the physical for creating a world where people are apathetic 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the excuse that i am not responsible if my pilot projects fail because i did my best and my best isn't good enough

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people do not care and because i am alone in this,  if i stop this, no one will care anyway -  so i can just stop everything and go back to what i normally do - not realizing that what i normally do is meaningless anyway because that is not what is commonsensical to do - and because i know that it is based on fuzzy logic and i am still doing it, i will suppress myself in the process and feel like a victim - with no solution in sight

Commitment to Correction

When and as i see myself believing that if i build a learning center, someone will give me a learning software to put there, i stop - i breathe.

I realize this is a belief that i have to release and see that i cannot just be hoping for something to happen based on a belief but rather use commonsense - realizing that i need to continue on and see opportunities along the way - taking responsibility and correcting as i go without any preconceived idea of what is right or wrong

I commit myself to test different ways of getting a natural learning tool in that learning center that i built in the village for the purpose of identifying some problems and seeing solutions that is best for everyone - that people can practically use to survive and express to their optimum potential 

Knowing Money & Unnatural Learning

 

Knowing, Money & Unnatural Learning

In this blog, i am looking at who i really am and the role of money & information in learning 

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that learning is about knowing 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that knowing equals spending money

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without money i cannot learn

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not question the way things are being taught and how much they cost

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear the high cost of learning 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry that the poor cannot go to school

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be born to another set of parents with a lot more money than my mom and dad so i can enroll in a better school or institution

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself by not standing up and challenging the way information is being transferred from one person to another based on separation 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think that the quality of education depends upon the amount of money i pay for the course - the higher the better, and feel sorry i cannot pay the high fees, where the real meaning of who i am, money & information is lost

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i i finish a course  and passed that course i have truly learnt the subject matter

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to lose my commonsense while being taught in a course by someone else who tells me what to do, where and when to do it

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to learn in an unnatural setting and suppress myself in the process

Commitment to Correction

When and as i see myself believing that learning is about knowing, i stop - i breathe. I realize this is me trying to get something  that will increase my value based on how much knowledge i have and how much money i have 

Rather than see that learning is about practical application and commonsense

I commit myself to see what learning really is 

I commit myself to see what practical application really is and how commonsense plays a role in that in my life and in this world

Education Teacher & Student

 

In this blog, i am looking at my elementary and high school points - forgiving myself and writing commitment for correction

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe my teacher has more power than me - since she is older and has more knowledge than me because she gives me assignments 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my teacher believing that because she can give me a failing grade, she has more power than me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear i will not be able to do the assignment my teacher gave me because i do not know how to apply it in real life

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think of a picture of my teacher standing in front of the class with a stick on her right hand

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a backchat of 

"When will recess be? I am bored".

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my creativity by following the teacher's commands even if i do not agree to all of them

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see the school as an institution that has more value than me and within that, see myself as inferior

I forgive myself that i  have accepted and allowed myself to believe that knowledge given to me by others  who have more credentials than me are all valid - so i do not challenge them

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that education is about teachers or people transferring knowledge to me and me accepting them

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that high school is about having a relationship partner that will provide me with assistance in all aspects of my life

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my high school classmates think highly of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be attracted to some of my male classmates in elementary and high school

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to attract my male classmates to me through the way i dress and the way i present myself - within self-interest

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as inferior to my teachers to the point that i lost myself and suppress myself.

Commitment to Correction

When and as i see myself believing that my teacher has more power than me, i stop - i breathe. I realize that the teacher and the student is being perceived and given a value  that is not real

Rather than see both are equal in value.

I commit myself to see the student and the teacher as equals

The Cat Abortion & Sex

 

The Cat Abortion & Sex

I saw this cat's picture (above) in  one of the social media platforms which was taken by a friend.  When i looked into its eyes, i experienced a sharp pain on my chest. I did some self-forgiveness and it subsided. So, in this blog i would like to look at some points that i saw that i connected to this picture in my mind. 

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to - as aa parent, aborted my child when i was married with a guy and i did that because i was struggling then and we were in a very small apartment, so it was my fear that i cannot raise my kid properly without enough money plus other factors around that that drove me to do that.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to marry a guy because he was good in bed - meaning he can give me pleasure and that is because i find the world so cruel but i dare not talk about it - within dishonesty

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge a guy that gives me pleasure in bed as superior - charging that with a positive energy experience

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge guys that do not give me pleasure in bed as inferior - charging that with a negative energy experience

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to stop myself from touching myself having judged myself as weird if i do that

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself within sexual expression blaming my culture and then use men to experience pleasure 

Commitment To Correction

When and as i see myself abort a child - fearing not being able to raise it because i did not have money, i stop - i breathe. I realize i saw relationships as having someone to give me pleasure 

Rather than see  that the basis of relationships is self-relationship and that sex is having physical interaction with someone as an equal 

I commit myself to see relationships as what it really is. 

I commit myself to see sex as what it really is