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Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Where am I? Day 206: In The Mind or Here as the Physical?



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In this blog, i am looking at me as the mind thinking, analyzing etc. as a character i created within my mind separate from all - writing self-forgiveness and commitment to correct myself within that mind awareness to birth me as the real physical me within a real awareness as here, referenced as the moment in this real physical existence.

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Self-forgiveness


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself 

to think that who i am exist in the mind 

defined by memories of where i am within space and time 

as i act out characters i created in an alternate reality 

within and as my mind

in a place somewhere out there 

other than HERE

not realizing who i am is here

moment by moment 

breath by breath
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Commitment to Correction:

 I commit myself to when and as i see myself

thinking who i am exist in the mind

thinking, analyzing etc.

I stop

I breathe

I realize that it is who i have become

as the alternate version of me 

within a mind awareness 

of where i am defined by

experiences within space and time

So, i am assisting myself 

to accept and allow me 

to see who i really am 

as the real me 

as the breath in every moment HERE 

within a real awareness of me 

as the physical/body/substance 

equal to all that is HERE

referencing the moment 

within this real physical existence
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Note: This blog was done inside the airplane before the airplane flew to Dallas, Texas where i stay - from Los Angeles, California


The Word LIFE: Word Connection Mathematics Day 205




  
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In this blog, i am releasing myself from separating myself from the word Life within and as my mind as I charged the word with positive (+) and negative (-) mind values and will redefine it in the coming blogs and use it as equal to my written and spoken expression.
I am using self-forgiveness and commitment to correct myself breath by breath moment by moment in my living application.
Self-forgiveness
Separation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word Life through giving it a positive value

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word Life through giving it a negative value

Charging The Word with a Positive and a Negative Value
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word Life with a positive value
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word Life with a negative value

POSITIVE Values (+)
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word movement
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word movement

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word speaking
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word speaking

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word breathing
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word breathing

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word writing
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word writing

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word reading
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word life within the word reading

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word communication
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word communication

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word food
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word food

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word love
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word love

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word happiness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word happiness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word nature
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word nature

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word water
I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word water

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word life to the word birth
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word life within the word birth

NEGATIVE Values (-)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word survival
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word survival

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word suffering
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word suffering

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word work
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word money
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Life to the word poverty
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Life within the word poverty

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Commitment to Correction

I commit myself to when and as I see myself separating myself from the word Life through charging it with a positive or a negative value

as in

Positive Mind Values (+)

Word Connections/Definitions:

water
nature
love
movement
speaking
breathing
food
reading
writing
communication

Negative Mind Values (-)

Word Connections/Definitions

suffering
survival
money
work
poverty
survival


I stop

I breathe

I correct my starting point

Instead of charging the word Life with a positive  or negative mind value

I redefine the word

giving it a value equal to Life

equal to who I am

as Life

and use the word Life

as equal to my expression

Friday, November 16, 2012

Mathematics of Falling In Love: 'My Type of Guy' Day 204 Marriage and Relationships': ''Happiness' Use of Mathematics In This World




 

My Food and Nutrition Blogs:
This Blog Is A Continuation of These Blogs:
The Word 'Mathematics'
Mathematics: Numbers as Me
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In this blog, i am writing some self-forgiveness for creating a fear of mathematics within seeing that i was attracted to DSS because he's good at Math - then started to see what 'falling in love' is all about - which is where the 'Mathematics of Falling In Love' started.

At the end of this blog, i am writing some commitment statements to correct myself and do self-corrective application in my living to rather than be directed by my fear direct me here as who i am and use mathematics as equal to my expression.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that  i have accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship of fear to mathematics

to  instead of  studying it 

seek the 'moreness' of me 

within liking DSS 

because he is a 'genius' at Mathematics/Trigonometry/Algebra 

to instead of studying Math

give up on studying mathematics 

to instead of  seeing

 how i can use it as equal to my expression 

i took the easy way out
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take the easy way out

within fear of difficulty

and imagine DSS as my boyfriend 

and superimposing this illusion on reality

to then manifesting that by manipulating what is here

 into marrying him for real

believing he is a genius in Mathematics

so i can

instead of studying Math have a relationship with him 

believing it will give me 'happiness' to be with him

as i connected that to having studied mathematics

directed by 'fuzzy logic'

within/as the mind
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think that i will be happy when i enter a relationship with DSS

within fear of being alone

believing that he complements me as i am good in science and he is good at mathematics

and within this relationship evolve me as the mind

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone so desires to have a 'relationship' with DSS

 as the evil me 

NOT wanting to face me and my fears

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have internal conversations within my mind when i see DSS knowing how to solve mathematical problemsthat i cannot solve, having the following backchats :

'he is handsome and intelligent'
'how can he solve those problems when no one in the class can solve it? He is a genius in math, he is my kind of guy'

where within this i am abusing words by using them separate from me within my mind

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the mind to manipulate the body - to justify my fears  

where when i fear,  i feel my head spinning when presented with mathematical problems i cannot solve 

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to mathematics within anxiety and stress

as i believed it was difficult to understand
connecting it to a 'negative energy experience'
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create this fear of mathematics in my 'within' as the mind and create as a consequence,

 this world as my 'without' 

that  employs mathematics geniuses to manipulate numbers in the stock market, in business etc. 

that has gurus who judge mathematics, money and anything quantifiable as mundane and not spiritual

that has people who use mathematics yet not see the inequality in the elite having more money than the poor - and not caring about this unequal distribution of money

to  survive within self-interest

in a world of inequality

where mathematics is being used to abuse life

giving  of positive and negative mind values

rather than real values 

based on our equal and one 

relationship to the physical which is LIFE
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself

by running away from facing me as who i am - as equal to - mathematics - 

as numbers - as symbols

 as equal to all manifestations as life 

desiring to have a 'positive energy experience'  

by having a relationship with someone who i believed was a 'genius' in Math 

 giving up on myself within mot wanting to face me and my fears

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear failure, suffering and difficulty

within studying mathematics

as i saw myself as 'inferior'

believing that those who does not understand math is stupid, therefore, 'inferior'
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge me as inferior and DSS as superior

believing that he knows mathematics and i don't

existing as the alternate version of me

in my mind

as the evil me 

designing competition in my mind

rather that face my fears

as who i have become within my fear of studying mathematics 

running away from a part of myself that i separated myself from

 to one day take self-responsibility and embrace it as me

within 'too lateness'
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to 

accumulate consequence first

before i take self-responsibility

to face my fear of mathematics

within my 'fear of failure, suffering and fear of being inferior'

believing that if i study something i do not like to study

 i will 'fail and suffer'   and equated it to 'not existing' as who i believed i am

as the mind defined by positive and negative energetic experiences
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i study something i don't like i will fail and suffer 

desiring to study only to have a 'positive energy experience'

within self-interest and fear of survival

to when i finish studying the course 

earn money to survive

in this world  - of inequality

believing that studying Mathematics will give me a 

'negative energy experience'

believing i will get bored and become uninterested

then fail


not seeing and realizing that it is what i fear that i have to embrace 

as equal to who i am as life

as it is what i separated myself from

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Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Mind Values
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Giving a Value Equal to Life

DSS understands complex equations in Mathematics 
= positive experience
 = +10

I do not understand  complex equations in Mathematics 
= negative experience
= -10

The Mind Understanding of Attraction:

'Falling in love with someone who can complete me'
means

'completing me as the mind
within
positive and negative experiences
with no negative energy experience

 -10 +10 = 0 negative experience

DSS = someone who can remove my negative experience

not realizing that DSS = Life
Who i am = Life

not realizing that i only have to look at my fear of Mathematics 
and do some self-forgiveness
for the fear and the different dimensions of the point
correct myself in my living application
and 

simply live as who i am as equal to all that is here

and looking at
having an Agreement 
with someone
taking him as an equal
where i can assist another
as self

where
the agreement is not based on completing each other
within positive and negative energy experiences
but rather
birthing self as life
so Life can be birthed in this Physical Existence

1(me) +1 (my agreement partner) =2 (people birthing self as life)
1+1=2

where the symbols as numbers and signs and people = Life
1 = Life
+ = Life
= = Life
2 = Life
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Commitment to Correct Myself

I commit myself to when and as i see myself fearing failure and suffering

within studying mathematics etc.

believing it is difficult/will not make me earn money 

and taking the easy way out to instead of studying 

marry someone who did study mathematics

within who i have become 

as the 'lazy', 'inferior', 'easy go lucky', 'giving up', fearing being alone', 'fearing difficulty', 'fearing failure', desiring happiness' characters etc.

I stop - I Breathe

I realize that i cannot run away from me because i am here 

as breath in every moment

so instead of running away from my fears as in studying mathematics etc.

and taking someone as my boyfriend and marrying him

to cover up my fears

I stop being directed by my fears

and start directing me

to embrace my fears as me

redefine the word mathematics etc. 

and use it as equal to my expression

within writing and speaking

and see how i can use it to express me here as - all life

and take directive authority over my life
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I commit myself to assist in establishing a world that truly honors life 






Wednesday, November 14, 2012

'Mathematics: Numbers as Me : Day 203 'I Don't Care About Mathematics'



 
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This Blog Is A Continuation of These Blogs:
The Word 'Mathematics'
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/the-word-mathematics-day-202.html

He's Good At Mathematics
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/mathematics-hes-good-at-mathematics-my.html



In this blog, i am doing self-forgiveness for not being aware of what math is - as the mind,  believing it is not easy/difficult and my desire to study subjects  that will eventually give me a lot of money to survive in this world -running away from studying mathematics - fearing it is too difficult for me to understand, and fearing to not get a high earning job if i learn mathematics - thus not caring about who i am as equal to mathematics - as numbers - as symbols - as manifestations that is equal to all that is here.

'I Do Not Care' About Math: Money: Blame
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not care to study mathematics believing it will not give me money to survive later on in life  - as who i have become as the mind within self-interest and survival - thus, it is the evil me,  not deciding from a point of what is best for all, but what is best for me, i and myself - blaming the physical universe for not giving me opportunity to have enough money to learn what i need to learn (like learning mathematics) - making the excuse that i cannot study math because i have to survive in this world - justifying that by saying i need to focus more on spirituality so i can be liberated from the ego - so i can be whole - believing that focusing on math is mundane and will not give me liberation from the ego - not seeing and realizing that i am here as equal to the numbers and mathematical symbols, equations etc. as manifestations - that is part of life - as who i am as all life.



Not Being Aware of The Use of What  Mathematics is
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i do not know what math is - as i exist within/as mind awareness of what i can see within what my eyes allow me to see, limited by my definition of words based on polarity as i connect and defined the word mathematics to/within other words separating from it through charging it with a positive or a negative value - not seeing and realizing and understanding what real awareness is - as who i am as all that is here as equal to/as all life - as all manifestations - equal to who i am.

Judging Math as Difficult
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge mathematics as difficult - believing that those subjects that are difficult for me to understand will give me suffering - fearing suffering, believing that it takes too much time and effort to understand it - fearing losing time as it is also losing money - within me trying to survive - not seeing and realizing that that is me as the mind within fear of suffering and fear of death - believing that if i continue being stupid and not understanding math i will not exist and survive as the 'happy' character that i desire to become.




Science as 'Better Than' Math
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to compare math to science - judging science as more interesting than math - believing that flowers grow and animals move - while numbers do not move - so defined it within a 'negative energy experience' - judging numbers as boring as they cannot give me a 'positive energetic experience' similar to when i see a flower grow - similar to the 'positive energy experience' i get when i smell the flowers like rose and jasmine- as numbers do not grow nor do they have a smell - as i have judged those manifestations that move as better than those that does not move - as who i have become as the mind defined by 'positive energetic experiences'.



'I Don't Care' as Laziness 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be lazy  to learn to study mathematics and  not care about mathematics - as numbers - as symbols and not seeing and realizing how these symbols are equal to all the manifestations - as who i am - as all  life

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Commitments
Correcting Myself

I commit myself to when and as i see myself fearing studying mathematics - believing it is difficult - and fearing/avoiding  the 'negative energy experience' of when i study math - i stop - i breathe.

I realize that mathematics as numbers as symbols - is a tool for me to use in my living expression - so instead of fearing looking at mathematics, as numbers as symbols, to redefine it - so i can use it as equal to my expression - as a part of/as  the whole - as all life

I assist myself to accept and allow myself to instead of having an 'energetic relationship' with mathematics - as numbers - as symbols - separate from me - charging it with a positive and a negative value - perceived as more than or less than who i am - i assist myself to accept and allow myself to establish an equal and one relationship with mathematics - as numbers - as symbols - equal to/as all manifestations that is here - as all life - equal to who i am.

I commit myself to when and as i see myself comparing  those manifestations that move with those manifestations that does not move - i stop - i breathe - to instead of comparing those manifestations that move to those that does not move - i assist myself to see that i am designing competition within comparison, judgment and jealousy - within me wanting to make sense of what i see as the mind - with a limited awareness as mind awareness - separate from all that is here - i assist myself to forgive the limitations i imposed on myself and correct myself in my living application - to accept and allow myself to have a real awareness of who i am as equal to manifestations that move and does not move - as all manifestations - moving or not moving are parts of this one life - and to simply live as who i am as equal to all that is here.

I commit myself to when and as i see myself believing that mathematics is mundane and spirituality as something that can liberate me from my ego - and so being lazy to study mathematics - i stop - i breathe

I realized that as i run away from my fear of suffering/death/not existing  - i desire the easy way out - through spirituality and the 'promise of divine bliss' - which one day - i have to face and take self-responsibility for - rather, take self-responsibility at the moment it presents itself so as not to accumulate consequence to a point of 'too lateness' - where the body's role within my accepting and allowing this in my world is not being looked at - as me not caring,  to what happens to the body, as the evil me only interested in my own survival as the mind - 'unaware' that the body is being resourced for energy for the mind to exist- and nutrients being transformed to energy so i can have a 'positive energy experience'

So, i assist myself to look at how i created my mind -so i can forgive and release myself from my desires etc. and birth myself here using self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - and as i do that birth a world that truly honors life based on equality

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