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Friday, November 16, 2012

Mathematics of Falling In Love: 'My Type of Guy' Day 204 Marriage and Relationships': ''Happiness' Use of Mathematics In This World


My Food and Nutrition Blogs:
This Blog Is A Continuation of These Blogs:
The Word 'Mathematics'
Mathematics: Numbers as Me

In this blog, i am writing some self-forgiveness for creating a fear of mathematics within seeing that i was attracted to DSS because he's good at Math - then started to see what 'falling in love' is all about - which is where the 'Mathematics of Falling In Love' started.

At the end of this blog, i am writing some commitment statements to correct myself and do self-corrective application in my living to rather than be directed by my fear direct me here as who i am and use mathematics as equal to my expression.


I forgive myself that  i have accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship of fear to mathematics

to  instead of  studying it 

seek the 'moreness' of me 

within liking DSS 

because he is a 'genius' at Mathematics/Trigonometry/Algebra 

to instead of studying Math

give up on studying mathematics 

to instead of  seeing

 how i can use it as equal to my expression 

i took the easy way out

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take the easy way out

within fear of difficulty

and imagine DSS as my boyfriend 

and superimposing this illusion on reality

to then manifesting that by manipulating what is here

 into marrying him for real

believing he is a genius in Mathematics

so i can

instead of studying Math have a relationship with him 

believing it will give me 'happiness' to be with him

as i connected that to having studied mathematics

directed by 'fuzzy logic'

within/as the mind

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think that i will be happy when i enter a relationship with DSS

within fear of being alone

believing that he complements me as i am good in science and he is good at mathematics

and within this relationship evolve me as the mind


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone so desires to have a 'relationship' with DSS

 as the evil me 

NOT wanting to face me and my fears


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have internal conversations within my mind when i see DSS knowing how to solve mathematical problemsthat i cannot solve, having the following backchats :

'he is handsome and intelligent'
'how can he solve those problems when no one in the class can solve it? He is a genius in math, he is my kind of guy'

where within this i am abusing words by using them separate from me within my mind


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the mind to manipulate the body - to justify my fears  

where when i fear,  i feel my head spinning when presented with mathematical problems i cannot solve 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to mathematics within anxiety and stress

as i believed it was difficult to understand
connecting it to a 'negative energy experience'
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create this fear of mathematics in my 'within' as the mind and create as a consequence,

 this world as my 'without' 

that  employs mathematics geniuses to manipulate numbers in the stock market, in business etc. 

that has gurus who judge mathematics, money and anything quantifiable as mundane and not spiritual

that has people who use mathematics yet not see the inequality in the elite having more money than the poor - and not caring about this unequal distribution of money

to  survive within self-interest

in a world of inequality

where mathematics is being used to abuse life

giving  of positive and negative mind values

rather than real values 

based on our equal and one 

relationship to the physical which is LIFE

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself

by running away from facing me as who i am - as equal to - mathematics - 

as numbers - as symbols

 as equal to all manifestations as life 

desiring to have a 'positive energy experience'  

by having a relationship with someone who i believed was a 'genius' in Math 

 giving up on myself within mot wanting to face me and my fears


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear failure, suffering and difficulty

within studying mathematics

as i saw myself as 'inferior'

believing that those who does not understand math is stupid, therefore, 'inferior'

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge me as inferior and DSS as superior

believing that he knows mathematics and i don't

existing as the alternate version of me

in my mind

as the evil me 

designing competition in my mind

rather that face my fears

as who i have become within my fear of studying mathematics 

running away from a part of myself that i separated myself from

 to one day take self-responsibility and embrace it as me

within 'too lateness'
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to 

accumulate consequence first

before i take self-responsibility

to face my fear of mathematics

within my 'fear of failure, suffering and fear of being inferior'

believing that if i study something i do not like to study

 i will 'fail and suffer'   and equated it to 'not existing' as who i believed i am

as the mind defined by positive and negative energetic experiences

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i study something i don't like i will fail and suffer 

desiring to study only to have a 'positive energy experience'

within self-interest and fear of survival

to when i finish studying the course 

earn money to survive

in this world  - of inequality

believing that studying Mathematics will give me a 

'negative energy experience'

believing i will get bored and become uninterested

then fail

not seeing and realizing that it is what i fear that i have to embrace 

as equal to who i am as life

as it is what i separated myself from

Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Mind Values
Giving a Value Equal to Life

DSS understands complex equations in Mathematics 
= positive experience
 = +10

I do not understand  complex equations in Mathematics 
= negative experience
= -10

The Mind Understanding of Attraction:

'Falling in love with someone who can complete me'

'completing me as the mind
positive and negative experiences
with no negative energy experience

 -10 +10 = 0 negative experience

DSS = someone who can remove my negative experience

not realizing that DSS = Life
Who i am = Life

not realizing that i only have to look at my fear of Mathematics 
and do some self-forgiveness
for the fear and the different dimensions of the point
correct myself in my living application

simply live as who i am as equal to all that is here

and looking at
having an Agreement 
with someone
taking him as an equal
where i can assist another
as self

the agreement is not based on completing each other
within positive and negative energy experiences
but rather
birthing self as life
so Life can be birthed in this Physical Existence

1(me) +1 (my agreement partner) =2 (people birthing self as life)

where the symbols as numbers and signs and people = Life
1 = Life
+ = Life
= = Life
2 = Life

Commitment to Correct Myself

I commit myself to when and as i see myself fearing failure and suffering

within studying mathematics etc.

believing it is difficult/will not make me earn money 

and taking the easy way out to instead of studying 

marry someone who did study mathematics

within who i have become 

as the 'lazy', 'inferior', 'easy go lucky', 'giving up', fearing being alone', 'fearing difficulty', 'fearing failure', desiring happiness' characters etc.

I stop - I Breathe

I realize that i cannot run away from me because i am here 

as breath in every moment

so instead of running away from my fears as in studying mathematics etc.

and taking someone as my boyfriend and marrying him

to cover up my fears

I stop being directed by my fears

and start directing me

to embrace my fears as me

redefine the word mathematics etc. 

and use it as equal to my expression

within writing and speaking

and see how i can use it to express me here as - all life

and take directive authority over my life

I commit myself to assist in establishing a world that truly honors life 

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