2012: : 'I Have To Give Daddy His Slippers To Please Him' - Character: Part 4 Day 82

My Story

Related Blogs:

Part 1 Redefining Character

Part 2 Redefining Character: Word Connections

Part 3 - 'What Does It Mean To Step Out of Character'?

'POSITIVE (+)' Character:

'I have to give daddy slippers to please him' - Character

In one of my blogs, i wrote about how i separated myself from the word character by giving it either a positive or a negative value.

In essence, it is me separating myself from who i am as ALL LIFE - equal to all that exist ( looking at the commonsense - we all come from the same substance - all are made of)

By giving the word a positive or negative value - i am separating from what is here - as the real physical matter which i consist of/as.

I fear losing me as the 'accumulation of my positive experiences' - as the character. This makes me look for something that is 'more than me'  - to ensure my survival within the positive energy experience.

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 In this blog, we will look at my childhood and how i defined myself within a positive energy experience of this word - as  'I have to give  daddy his slippers so that i can please him' - character.

I believed that this will give me a value that is 'more than me', which is a value that is 'more than me - as here' - as the breath - as all life - not realizing that an illusion has no value. The real value is to realize who i am here as equal to all that exist - as Life.

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How I Gave The Word 'Character' a Positive Value

'(+1) POSITIVE Character : Positive Experience'
'I have to give  daddy his slippers so that i can please him'


 Character #1

I have charged this word 'character' a positive value - separating myself from the word. This can be seen in my mom's story:

She said, when i was young i used to find my father's slippers for him and gave it to him when he arrived home. He's pleased that i do that for him.


I cherished the experience of him saying 'you are my palangga' (you are my favorite daughter). I want to keep hearing him say that. That assures my survival (as the 'well - loved character' in the family - just like a beloved actress in a movie).

The memory of that 'comforted me throughout my life.

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Self-forgiveness Statements:

Separation:

(Separating myself from all parts of me as life)

Me Separating Myself from The Word 'Character':

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word character - within my mind - by charging the word character with a positive value - within a positive energy experience as the 'I have to give Daddy his slippers to please him' - character

(Slippers - Low footwear that can be slipped on and off easily; usually worn indoors)

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'i like to give daddy his slippers to please him' character - so he will give me love - so i will be his favorite child - to feel good - as i seek the 'moreness' of me.


When and as i see myself defining myself within the 'i like to give daddy slippers to please him' - character - i stop - i breathe and correct my starting point from a starting point of what is best for me to a starting point of what is best for all - realizing the commonsense that what is best for all is essentially what is best for me. I commit to through blogging and vlogging assist myself to stop the positive and negative energetics existent in the 'i like to give daddy slippers to please him' - character - and through correcting and applying myself here in every breath - i stop.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing the ' i will give daddy his slippers to please him' - character


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within a memory of the 'i will give daddy slippers to please him' - character -  not realizing it is just an illusion - believing that when i lose the  memory of the 'i will give daddy slippers to please him' - character,  i will lose the 'moreness of me' as the accumulated positive energy experiences of the character - believing that - i will become doubtful and uncertain of who i am - spiting the people who remind me the 'lessness of me' - as the negative, in essence spiting the physical - existing in blame with the excuse that i have to survive - looking for the 'moreness' of me by pleasing my dad - to feel good - and justifying my existence by accepting and allowing me as the character to continue existing - as the 'i will give daddy slippers to please him' - character - believing that this will make me whole - not realizing that this is not real - an illusion of the evolution of separation.


I realize that the memory of this character is an illusion - as the character's awareness of itself is a separation awareness -  not real awareness - where the creation of separation comes from the 'there must be more than me, there must be more than me - as here' character. I realize that i am here as breath in every moment.
When and as i see myself defining myself within the memory of the 'i will give daddy slippers to please him' - character - i stop and breathe and change my starting point. I commit myself to apply myself in the physical using all the tools available in every breath - correcting me in every breath - where the reality of me in the physical - as who i am - as all life can be cross-referenced by all.

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Quote:

This ‘character-creation’ of ourselves originated from and of the moment we as substance separated ourselves into and as an innumerable amounts of manifested-singularities, where substance took on the character of “There Must be MORE than ME, there must be MORE than ME as HERE”. And so within the creation/manifestation of that character from and of itself – Substance accordingly manifested/created the embodiments/manifestations of that character from, within and as itself that manifested as the MORE of itself as all the manifested/accumulated manifested-singularities into and as which it separated itself creating/manifesting the Illusion of MORE. And so separated itself from HERE into and as the accumulation of and as Energies from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive the MORE it separated itself from itself as HERE.

Thus, this Illusion of MORENESS manifested the MORE it separated itself from Itself and HERE. And so, substance as ourselves created/manifested our/its first Character embodiments/manifestations “There Must be MORE than ME, there must be MORE than HERE” that had become the existent/manifested creations of and as the manifested-singularities and energy. Characters which we still exist-as to this day: manifested living-embodiments resonating within and as that starting-point of and as searching/seeking the MORE of ourselves, the MORE of Here. And so from and of us accepting and allowing ourselves to exist/live as this character of searching/seeking the MORE of ourselves, the MORE of Here; we have accordingly created/manifested ourselves and our existence as a whole in and as this image and likeness. To now for example with the existence/manifestation of the World-System of Money in itself, searching/seeking for the MORE of itself as Money, as the very physical-existence that it can permeate and penetrate to accumulate/manifest the MORE of itself as Money in consuming physicality to transform into Money, and duplicating/multiplying itself within businesses, industries, corporations to manifest/create the MORE of itself as the World-System itself.

And so, we’ve from the beginning been stuck in this ONE POINT Character-manifestation of seeking/searching for the MORE of ourselves the MORE of Here, which is all that we’ve done and become infinitely at this stage. Not seeing/realising/understanding that: as long as we exist as this Character of searching/seeking for the MORE of ourselves, the MORE of Here – this is all we’ll ever do, be and remain as. And therefore, the process thus is to ‘step out of character’ – stop the characteristic existence of ourselves as seeking/searching for the MORE of ourselves, the MORE of Here, and realise ourselves as Here in equality and oneness, that once we actuallySTOP searching and seeking, and start REALISING HERE, in equality and oneness – lol; we may just find what/who it is that we’ve been searching for/looking for throughout existence…

Heavens Journey:
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/first-creation-of-character-day-79.html


References:

The Creations Journey
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-80-creating-character.html

Earth's Journey
http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-44-character-game.html