Do we really create war?
Who else is creating all that is here but all of us who are here?
We are creating it again and again. Otherwise, it won't be here repeating itself again and again.
I am taking self-responsibility to stop this creation in 'my within' - as the mind
recognizing the inter-connectedness of life in 'our within and our without' and
correct myself in my living.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of fear of survival - as war - as the body - as energy - as sound
Fear War - so Desiring Peace through using relaxation techniques like meditation, yoga exercises and other relaxation exercises like pilates, tai chi, qi gong manipulating the body to relax -believing life is about a peaceful body, mind and spirit where the body is separate from the mind and spirit and trying to unite the 3 - in separation from life, instead of realizing life is about developing an equal and one relationship with all parts of life - including all parts of the body - standing equal to the mind so one can see how one created oneself 'within and without' so one can take responsibility for and as all life - stopping mind participation and birthing oneself as life within self- body- living
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have peace of mind, where i imagine a peaceful scene within my mind with the guru on top of my head in a certain pose blessing me and a savior that can save me from my sins believing that peace is about one being superior and one being inferior, like a relationship that exist between a victim and a savior in separation from each other and then Desiring to unite/'be one with' to be liberated from the bondage of birth and death - which in essence is Desiring to not take self-responsibility for the consequence that i have accepted and allowed in this world not realizing that this is self-realization within self-interest which does not align to oneness and equality but just a belief that transcending ones fear can happen by someone saving me from sin or someone perceived to be superior (made of the same substance = dust of the earth) can liberate me from a life of self-interest where i am perceived inferior, where i believed expanding ones mind , and singing the sanskrit word, ' 'babanam kevalam' which means 'love is all there is' will help give me liberation - not even questioning this fuzzy logic, but blindly surrendering myself to someone perceived 'greater than' self - where love is a feeling that i imagine to fill this earth and everyone in it - not realizing that the poor needs to eat 3x a day and that no matter how many times i meditate, sing, feed the poor, the system of inequality will not change because it's all about money and profit and that cooperatives which was suggested by my guru then will not work because it is coping within a system of abuse based on inequality and not about REAL change within creating a balanced ecosystem of money to sustain Life on earth
Within this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to support this current system that creates a cycle of abuse that i do not even see - just because of wanting to transcend the chaos in my mind which i created through the friction and conflict of polarized thinking. I believed then that being relaxed within a mind idea of peace will make a peaceful world - not realizing that i created the chaos in my mind and i am trying to create peace in my mind - where peace is imaginary peace and not real peace which is creating an idea of balance within balance in polarity, NOT REAL BALANCE in a balanced ecosystem which is life sustaining.
It is perpetually/repeatedly creating a system of abuse - creating friction and conflict 'within and without', instead of creating a world that truly honors life and walking as equals and giving the poor, the uneducated, the elderly etc. a means to have a dignified life by giving a Basic/Living Income Guaranteed from birth to death - i would settle for just giving them alms or cooking food for a select few but NOT ALL LIFE- where within wanting liberation for oneself from bondage, one becomes BOUND to ones own selfish desire to liberate oneself while all remain victims of abuse in a world of inequality.
This is the friction and conflict that i participated in for 29 years in 'my within' as the mind' - running away from fear of death/survival/limitation so satisfying my Desire for peace/bliss/ perceived eternal life (in other words, I would say my desire for peace, bliss, and perceived eternal life instead of putting slashes) which is an illusion as it is an interpretation of reality as the alternate version of me in an alternate reality within my mind,
Where, if i was self-honest, i will see that i hated to look at the inequality in this world- the poverty and suffering around me and instead of facing it i retreated and created a beautiful place within my mind -not seeing that the mind works in polarity so creating a polarized world where the rich becomes richer and the poor becomes poorer- creating a consequence outflow in 'my without' as war, death, poverty, porn, abuse, crime and the opposite polarity of which is perceived peace, perceived beauty, perceived happiness, perceived bliss, the elite etc., all of which are created from the same fears and desires.
The same friction and conflict that arise from running away from my FEAR of SURVIVAL, my fear of war, my fear of death, my fear of sickness, my fear of pain, my fear of suffering etc. and satisfying my DESIRE TO SURVIVE, my desire for peace, my desire to be relaxed, my desire for bliss, my desire for pleasure, my desire for eternal life, my desire for happiness, my desire for entertainment etc. All are equally creating a cycle of abuse.
The irony of it all is that what i was doing then was keeping myself from realizing self - as ALL LIFE within self-interest.
Self-sabotaging self within an idea of Liberating Self
Instead of realizing that
i am here as the breath in every moment
as who i am, what i am, how i am, when i am, where i am
equal to all that is birthed in this world
consisting of the same substance, the dust of the earth
stopping conflict and friction in 'my within' as the mind
and stopping the creation of it in 'my without' as this world system
where real peace is about birthing oneself as someone
that can be trusted to stand for what is best for all life
and creating a world that is best for all
developing an equal and one relationship with the physical/body
standing equal to the mind
and standing equal to the spirit of LIFE
which includes creating a balanced ecosystem of money
Through this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to blame the physical/body for being stressed
instead of realizing i created stress through reacting to the fear
and the body reacting to that
so it is me who is taking self-responsibility
in stopping mind participation and correcting myself in my living
Through this i forgive myself that i have
accepted and allowed myself to have the excuse that i have
to survive as a peaceful personality
trying to satisfy my desire to be peaceful
instead of realizing this is balance in polarity
where i try to run away from my fear
instead of facing it, walking back and seeing where it all started
and that instead of creating a polarity equation in my mind
by trying to avoid fear and desiring peace
we have to look at the problems we have on this earth
and provide a solution where all survive
where the resources given by the earth are nationalized
create dividends sufficient enough
for the poor, the unemployed, the elderly, the uneducated etc.
realizing that these resources are given to us all equally by the earth
so we have to create a sustainable system
where there's a balanced ecosystem of money
Through this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
justify the excuse that i have to survive as a personality that desires peace
believing this way i become whole
where wholeness is an idea that i created within my mind
creating mental peace to transcend my fear of war within my mind
instead of creating and supporting the establishment of real peace
PE-ople as A-ll C-aring about each other as E-quals
as equals in this one life
and paving the way for that
where the poor, the unemployed, the elderly
or the ones who are illiterate or have little or no education
has means of getting the basic necessities they need to live a dignified life
where the resources given by the earth are nationalized
create dividends sufficient enough
creating a sustainable system
where there's a balanced ecosystem of money
I commit myself to show that real peace is possible if we all take self-responsibility in changing in 'our within' and 'our without using tools that work
I commit myself to walk back and look at the origin of my fears
I commit myself to when and as i see myself desiring to do something to relax
I breath and change my starting point from self-interest
within trying to get a positive energy experience in whatever exercises i do
to that which will benefit all life - which is doing exercises
