Day 19 MAN 21 Day Cancer Word Journey

The Word

MAN

Sounds...

M-e   AN-t

(me as equal to the ant)

Looking at the letters within the word...

M  Matter

A  All

N  Nature

Meaning

An adult human male,  that is part of the whole - that is life

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DAY 18 WOMAN 21 Day Cancer Word Journey

The Word

WOMAN

Looking at the sounds within the word...

WO-r-M      AN-t

(The worm is equal to the ant - dust to dust)

Looking at the Letters...

W  We

O  One

M  Matter

A  All

N  Nature

Meaning

An adult human female, that is part of the whole - that is life

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'It Is Not Working': Day 290 Sex and Relationships: DMC

From Relationship to Agreement

Agreement Course

Female Programming and Relationship Mathematics

My Food Blog

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Why am i using Self-forgiveness?
 http://juneroca.com/my-process/self-forgiveness/
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This Blog Is A Continuation of This Blog
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/05/i-want-to-end-relationship-dmc-day-268.html
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Self-forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to

participate in the design of 'fear of survival - as form - as sex - as energy''

fear that i will be with DMC 
having a boring sex life

believing that he does not have that emotional bond with me

believing that attraction is about that emotional bond

or good feeling that makes us look at each other's eyes and kiss

for long hours because we desire each other so much

desiring to be with someone 

who is not just handsome and attractive

but who can also give me good sex, love and financial stability

believing that if i do not have a good sex life 

I will be unhappy 

believing that him teaching me how to draw aboriginal paintings is great

but not so great 

believing that i need to have it all

believing that to be complete - to be whole
 i need to have it all

great looks, great sex, love and financial stability

believing that i can't be happy when i do not have it all

Through this,

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to 

doubt who i am uncertain of who i am
perceiving myself split into 2

the one who does not have a perfect man wanting to have a perfect man

or the one who is whole 
having an equal and one relationship with the body
seeing another who i am in a 'relationship' with as me
believing i am separate from the source
believing i am a female separate from a male
believing i am the better half - of the whole
believing that to be whole 
i have to have a relationship
with a male 
believing that having a good relationship
with a male 
is the way to be whole
believing that this is the way
to unite with the source

instead of seeing and realizing
i am here as the breath
in every moment 
as wholeness

Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself 
to blame the physical 
for creating moles that at DMC's  back
for creating thin forms
for creating stingy men
for creating boring sex

instead of realizing i am the one who 
is self-responsible for connecting 
information given to me 
to positive energy experiences
imagining me as the personality evolving  
I am  the one that is self-responsible for 
connecting moles to a negative energy experience
I am the one connecting thin forms to a negative energy experience
I am the one responsible for defining stingy 
within men spending or not spending for me
and i am the one defining sex within 
boring and exciting

so i am the one
that is self responsible for 
the consequence outflow 
of what i accept and allow

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself 
to have the excuse that i cannot survive 
in a  relationship without having good sex 
believing that i can only survive in a relationship when i have good sex

not seeing and  realizing that this is balance in polarity

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to 
justify the excuse that i cannot survive
in a relationship without having good sex 

believing that i can only be whole when i have good sex 
with my partner

instead of realizing that wholeness does not need separation from the source

Sex: The Dimensions of My Mind: Thought: Health and Sickness: DRD

 From Relationship to Agreement

Female Programming and Relationship Mathematics

My Food Blog

In this blog i am looking at the Thought Dimension. 

I am including a brief outline of the mind dimensions i will be working on

at the first part of this blog for reference purposes.

Topic: Sex

Health and Sickness

The Dimensions of My Mind

The Conscious Mind:

Thought: me being touched by the man who i am in a relationship with,  in the nipple

Imagination: the nipple hardening and my jade gate secreting fluid with the hard jade stalk inside my jade gate going in and out in a slow but firm motion alternating with deep thrusts and shallow thrusts that drives me to a point of orgasm

The Subconscious Mind: 

Backchat: (I decided to keep this in my private blog)

Reaction: me satisfied and happy feeling ecstatic- like a complete woman

The Unconscious Mind:

Body Movement: my head turning right and left, screaming intermittently, gasping for my breath

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I am doing self-forgiveness and writing a commitment to correction script in this blog

specifically on the THOUGHT Dimension.

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Self-forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate

in the design of fear of survival - as positive energy

have the thought,

' me being touched by a male who I am in a relationship with in the nipple'

believing that this is me

as who I am as self

thinking these thoughts

not seeing and realizing it is me as the mind

as the alternate version of me

thinking these thoughts
within/as the mind

where within this
i am not aware of 
the origin of these thoughts
realizing that i am not even aware 
of how i created the mind 
of the origin of these thoughts

not seeing and realizing that

the body

is  being resourced

for energy

for the mind to exist

through thinking these thoughts

desiring for him to have sex with me

believing that after he touch my nipple

I can get the sensations 

in my 'jade gate'

and then while he kiss me 

I can get my 'jade gate' wet

then he can thrust his jade stalk

inside my 'jade gate'

so I can be in bliss

like a crescendo

that takes me to

the highest peak

of orgasm

desiring to stay

there forever

so I can prolong the bliss

the positive energy experience

believing In doing so

I can enjoy life

enjoy it forever
making me live the female/woman personality
to the fullest

where within this
i am not aware that 

the body  is resourced

where natural energy

from nutrients

are converted

to unnatural energy

for the mind to use

for me to have a positive energy experience

for the mind to exist

for me as the 'eternally blissful' personality exist

not realizing that in thinking

this thought

and having this picture in my mind

I am using energy

and that energy has to come from somewhere

and that somewhere cannot be anywhere outside of my body

It is being resourced from the body - the power house!

I forgive myself that

I have accepted and allowed myself

to think only of getting a positive energy experience

not caring about my physical body

within self-interest

not realizing that

while i was trying to be physically 'healthy'

by being vegetarian, eating raw food

to be 'healthy'

i am trying to take the nutrients 

that i am giving my body

away from the body

making it sick 

then blame the bacteria and virus

for something that i am 

responsible for/as

not seeing and realizing 

that i am being self-dishonest

in that i am trying to evolve 

myself to be more than who i am

originally fearing illness and sickness

then desiring to be healthy

not seeing that within 

fearing sickness

and desiring health

i am taking substance from the body

so it is the fearing and the desiring that has to stop

instead of realizing that

the desire comes from fear

and that the positive comes from a negative

not seeing  that

as I look and feel blissful externally

internally the body is weakening

and as I feel lighter and more positive

and blissful on the outside

the body is weakening more

and as I desire and participate in the mind

thinking thoughts

i am accepting and allowing the body to get sick

i am accepting and allowing the body to be malnourished

not realizing that as I desire to eat 
sentient food, cooked vegetarian, cooked vegan
raw vegan, liquid food, air food (breatharianism)

believing it was making me look young

i did not realize
my body is aging within 
as natural energy from food
gets transformed to unnatural energy
it's just a matter of time
before it manifest externally as a disease

realizing that slowly but surely

as I participate in sexual thoughts

blissful thoughts, happy thoughts

happy and blissful behaviors

that is driven by the mind
i am resourcing the body for energy

so, stopping mind participation is the key

realizing 

that i can have physical interaction 

with another as an equal

in an agreement without 

needing to fear losing my female identity/personality

if i do not have a relationship with a man

realizing that attraction, desire for relationships and 

desire to have good sex 

and desire for a positive energy experience

comes from the fear of losing my female /woman personality

so it is to forgive my fears

and correct myself in my living participation

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Commitment to Correct Myself 

Script

I commit myself to when and as I see myself

thinking the thought

' me being touched by a male who I am in a relationship with in the nipple'

I stop

I breathe

I realized that this is me as the mind

fearing a negative enrgy experience

believing that if I do not think thoughts

desiring sex with a man

I will not be human

or will not be a woman

as humans 

and women 

think sexual thoughts, happy thoughts

and then physically manipulate the body to behave

directed by these thoughts

I assist myself to

investigate what is really going on here 

and see that my beingness 

is merged with the body and the mind

and that i have to stop participating in the mind

to release my beingness from the mind

to through self-forgiveness and 

acting out the corrected script

in the physical 

as my self- corrective application

birth me here as life

I assist myself to redefine words 

and live the redefined meaning of words

I commit myself to when and as i see myself
thinking only of myself within self-interest
wanting a positive energy experience in sex
I stop
I breathe
I realized that this is me as the mind
separating from all that is here as a female separate from a male
as a woman separate from a man
where i defined the vagina within the penis
and defined the penis within the vagina

I assist myself to come from a starting point of 
what is best for all
and birth me here
as equal to all that exist

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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values 

VS Giving Values Equal to Life 

I realized that i have given mind values to words

'as in

in a relationship with a man = man touching my nipple = sex =  penetration of 'jade stalk' to the' jade gate' = positive energy experience 

= bliss = +100

no relationship with a man = no man touching my nipple = no sex = no penetration of 'jade stalk' to the 'jade gate' = negative energy experience

= sadness = -100

where

in a relationship with a man = +100

not having a relationship with a man = -100

having sex with a man = +100

no sex with a man = +50

penis = +100

vagina = +50

man = Life

woman = Life'

not realizing that the values i have given the words 

were not real 

not realizing that the mind equation is not real

as i made them up in my mind

which has no real physical existence

instead of realizing

the value of all is equal to Life

man = Life

woman = Life

penis = life

vagina = Life

All = Life

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Decoding Female Sexual Programming: Fear Day 260:

From Relationship To Agreement

My Process
Re: Me In An Agreement 

 Relationship Mathematics

Store

Topic:

Me As The  Female Personality
Relationships and Sexual Programming:

>attraction to a male
> >desiring a relationship with a male
>> > desiring having good sex with a male 

For Part 1, Part 2 and Part 3, follow this link
  Relationship Mathematics


Realization:
My desire for relationships and sex 
is fueled by fear of loss/fear of not surviving as a female/woman

My participating in the design of FEAR will be self-forgiven in this blog.

Why am i using Self-forgiveness?
http://juneroca.com/my-process/self-forgiveness/

I am using  self-forgiveness and writing a commitment - a self-correction script to correct myself  in my living participation

 Why am I Using Mathematics?
I am using mathematical symbols at the end of this post to show that the MIND values i have given are NOT REAL, showing the real value of ALL is equal to Life.

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Self-forgiveness Statements:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to participate in the design of fear of survival - as sex

fear losing my female personality/woman personality
fear not surviving as a female personality
believing the following:
if i will not be attracted to a male/man or the male/man will not be attracted to me
if i will not have a relationship with a male/man
if i will not have good sex with a male/man
I will not feel like a complete female/woman

so,
desiring to be attracted to males
desiring males being attracted to me
desiring a relationship with a male
desiring having sex with a male who can please me

believing that if i do not get attracted to a male
believing that if i do not have a relationship with a male
believing that if i do not have sex with a male
I will be an incomplete woman

not seeing and realizing that i am here as breath in every moment
as presence, as movement, as sensation

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Commitment: Self- Correction: Script 

I commit myself to when and as i see myself
fearing losing my feminine personality
fearing not surviving as the female personality

I stop
I breathe

I realized that this me as the mind
defining myself as a female 
separating from the male
as the 'polarity opposite of a male'
and living the female personality
which is animating an illusion
that i am half complete without a male

not seeing and realizing that
i am here
as breath in every moment
as who i am, what i am and how i am

I change my starting point
from
wanting a relationship with a man 
to
expressing myself as a female 
equal to the male expression

stop participating in the mind 
within desire for attraction, desire for relationship and desire for sex
as in
 >attraction to a male
> >desiring a relationship with a male
>> >ecstasy having sex with a male who can do what i want him to do

to instead
face ones fear of loss
ones fear of not surviving
as the female personality
forgive oneself
and correct oneself in ones living participation
to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-correction
assist myself to birth me here as who i really am
expressing as a female equal to the male expression  

stopping the mind
stop being directed by my fears
stabilizing me here as breath when i fear losing and wanting to win

to birth myself
within/as self-intimacy
having an agreement with another as an equal
having physical interaction with another as self
birthing me as the physical

look at the problem
provide a solution and see the reward
in transcending me as the mind
in transcending fear- which i created based on my beliefs which i refused to face
in transcending desire - which is fueled by my fear based on my  beliefs

look at the problem
provide a solution
and see the reward
in moving from
a relationship with another separate from oneself
to
an agreement with another as self

establishing an equal and one relationship with the body/physical
and birthing me here
as equal to all

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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values
Vs
Giving Values Equal To Life

I realized that i have 
made an equation within my mind
that looks like this:

attraction to  a male = +100
relationship with a male = +100
good sex with a male = +100

no attraction to a male = -100
males not attracted to me =-100
no relationship with a male = -100
not having good sex with a male = -100
not being married to a male= -100
not having a child with a male = -100 

complete woman = attraction to a male + having a relationship with a male + having good sex with a male

incomplete woman =no  attraction to a male  + no relationship with a male + no good sex with a male = -100'

Realizing:
the woman's body as the physical is real  
the desire to attract a male or be attracted to a male is not real
the desire for good sex is fueled by a negative which is 
fear of loss/fear of not surviving as a female personality  

Realizing
that the mind values i had given were not real
that the equation was not real
as i made them up
as i imagined them 
within/as my mind

Realizing it is to forgive myself
and correct myself in
my living participation
and stopping
mind participation

Realizing i have to
release myself from giving positive and negative values
to words
through redefining words and living those definitions
Realizing that
the value of a female/woman = Life
the value of a male/man = Life
the value of all = Life

as all consist of atoms consisting of the same substance all consist of