Decoding Female Sexual Programming: Fear Day 260:

From Relationship To Agreement

My Process
Re: Me In An Agreement 

 Relationship Mathematics

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Topic:

Me As The  Female Personality
Relationships and Sexual Programming:

>attraction to a male
> >desiring a relationship with a male
>> > desiring having good sex with a male 

For Part 1, Part 2 and Part 3, follow this link
  Relationship Mathematics


Realization:
My desire for relationships and sex 
is fueled by fear of loss/fear of not surviving as a female/woman

My participating in the design of FEAR will be self-forgiven in this blog.

Why am i using Self-forgiveness?
http://juneroca.com/my-process/self-forgiveness/

I am using  self-forgiveness and writing a commitment - a self-correction script to correct myself  in my living participation

 Why am I Using Mathematics?
I am using mathematical symbols at the end of this post to show that the MIND values i have given are NOT REAL, showing the real value of ALL is equal to Life.

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Self-forgiveness Statements:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to participate in the design of fear of survival - as sex

fear losing my female personality/woman personality
fear not surviving as a female personality
believing the following:
if i will not be attracted to a male/man or the male/man will not be attracted to me
if i will not have a relationship with a male/man
if i will not have good sex with a male/man
I will not feel like a complete female/woman

so,
desiring to be attracted to males
desiring males being attracted to me
desiring a relationship with a male
desiring having sex with a male who can please me

believing that if i do not get attracted to a male
believing that if i do not have a relationship with a male
believing that if i do not have sex with a male
I will be an incomplete woman

not seeing and realizing that i am here as breath in every moment
as presence, as movement, as sensation

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Commitment: Self- Correction: Script 

I commit myself to when and as i see myself
fearing losing my feminine personality
fearing not surviving as the female personality

I stop
I breathe

I realized that this me as the mind
defining myself as a female 
separating from the male
as the 'polarity opposite of a male'
and living the female personality
which is animating an illusion
that i am half complete without a male

not seeing and realizing that
i am here
as breath in every moment
as who i am, what i am and how i am

I change my starting point
from
wanting a relationship with a man 
to
expressing myself as a female 
equal to the male expression

stop participating in the mind 
within desire for attraction, desire for relationship and desire for sex
as in
 >attraction to a male
> >desiring a relationship with a male
>> >ecstasy having sex with a male who can do what i want him to do

to instead
face ones fear of loss
ones fear of not surviving
as the female personality
forgive oneself
and correct oneself in ones living participation
to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-correction
assist myself to birth me here as who i really am
expressing as a female equal to the male expression  

stopping the mind
stop being directed by my fears
stabilizing me here as breath when i fear losing and wanting to win

to birth myself
within/as self-intimacy
having an agreement with another as an equal
having physical interaction with another as self
birthing me as the physical

look at the problem
provide a solution and see the reward
in transcending me as the mind
in transcending fear- which i created based on my beliefs which i refused to face
in transcending desire - which is fueled by my fear based on my  beliefs

look at the problem
provide a solution
and see the reward
in moving from
a relationship with another separate from oneself
to
an agreement with another as self

establishing an equal and one relationship with the body/physical
and birthing me here
as equal to all

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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values
Vs
Giving Values Equal To Life

I realized that i have 
made an equation within my mind
that looks like this:

attraction to  a male = +100
relationship with a male = +100
good sex with a male = +100

no attraction to a male = -100
males not attracted to me =-100
no relationship with a male = -100
not having good sex with a male = -100
not being married to a male= -100
not having a child with a male = -100 

complete woman = attraction to a male + having a relationship with a male + having good sex with a male

incomplete woman =no  attraction to a male  + no relationship with a male + no good sex with a male = -100'

Realizing:
the woman's body as the physical is real  
the desire to attract a male or be attracted to a male is not real
the desire for good sex is fueled by a negative which is 
fear of loss/fear of not surviving as a female personality  

Realizing
that the mind values i had given were not real
that the equation was not real
as i made them up
as i imagined them 
within/as my mind

Realizing it is to forgive myself
and correct myself in
my living participation
and stopping
mind participation

Realizing i have to
release myself from giving positive and negative values
to words
through redefining words and living those definitions
Realizing that
the value of a female/woman = Life
the value of a male/man = Life
the value of all = Life

as all consist of atoms consisting of the same substance all consist of