The Accident Part 1: The Breath

The Accident Part 2

                            http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/12/the-accident-theres-something-wrong.html

The Accident Part 3

                                http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/12/the-accident-3-how-will-i-survive-this.html

 We had an accident last December 17 2014. It was raining and  Leon was driving. A car showed up from the intersection and there was not enough time to stop according to Leon, who was the one driving - so the accident. I am writing what went on in my mind during that incident as a mind pattern. I will focus on breathing in this blog. I had difficulty breathing after the accident so I am forgiving and correcting myself here.

                                                       'I can't Breathe' Mind Pattern
                                                      >That's Leon shouting
                                                      >what just happened?
                                                      >There was an accident!
                                                      >I can't breathe even if I try to
                                                      >let me try again
                                                      >I still can't breathe
                                                      >what is going on?
                                                      >calm down and be here
                                                      >do not try to force it
                                                      >Oh, I can breathe now

Here, I was forcing myself to breathe which is me separating myself from the breath.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

Writing Self-forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enslave myself to the memory of how to breathe and so force myself to get into that experience i have in my mind, rather than move myself in that moment and work with what is here - as who I am as the breathe in this body.

 I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be unaware of me as breath

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself to breathe to survive rather than be here as breath in every moment.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself unaware of physical reality as I go inside my mind when an accident happen, I bring myself here as who i am as breath

I commit myself to accept and allow me to develop a equal and one relationship with/as the breath.

I commit myself to redefine the word 'breath':

From a mind definition
The process of taking in and expelling air during breathing

To
the process of inhaling and exhaling as an expression of myself in this body in every moment

'I Want To Eat Small Portions' Mind Pattern

'I Want To Eat Small Portions' Eating Mind Pattern
>I want to eat a lot of the food I like
>but I will get fat
>so I better eat smaller portions
>I will make small cakes

Here, there is desire to eat larger portions of the food i like, a belief  that i will get fat when i do that, an idea that I should eat smaller portions, and me manipulating my way into getting slim through making smaller cakes.

The desires, beliefs, ideas that I have and how i manipulate myself to get what i desire - which is becoming slim, is based from fear of being fat. This is not a self-directive way of eating based from my own observations of what i eat and its relationship with my blood sugar levels. I am relying from information coming from others that i cannot trust because our body has different DNA make-ups.

What is Self-forgiveness?

It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath. 

Writing Self-forgiveness Statements:

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to eat a lot of the food I like believing that food is here for entertainment purposes
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i will get fat when i eat a lot of the food that i like believing that it has a lot of sugar.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the idea that if i eat smaller portions of the food I like, I will not get fat as per information i heard from others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate the amount of food I eat so that i will be slim believing that i am beautiful when i am slim and ugly when I am fat instead of realizing that I am going in my mind and having a subjective view of reality - a judgment based on a fear (fear of being ugly) which is not what is really going on in physical reality considering that my body has a different DNA make-up. It can present itself in a certain shape, with a certain fat content etc. and can present itself as having a certain weight.

I commit myself to bring myself back here, stop, and breathe when and as I see myself going into this mind pattern and correct myself by looking at how my body's blood sugar is responding to the portion of food i eat, be aware of what I eat and decide the amount of that food I can eat that will not cause a danger situation in my body's functioning based on practical methods and as per what is available to me in terms of gadgets

I commit myself to accept and allow me to see my body as what it is - a vessel for me as the breath to express myself as a part of the whole - that is life, and so use it as that.

Living My Utmost Potential 11 Creation of Small 3 Ingredient Almond Muffins Sweetened with Unrefined Coconut Nectar

I realized that the creation of muffins, cakes and breads is normally  done to please or entertain family and friends. It is also a commercial endeavor because bakeries, restaurants, catering businesses and grocery stores etc. sell these for money and profit -so the muffins I normally see are big and loaded with lots of sugar. I embarked on a kitchen journey to create a small and simple muffin that can be eaten with any meal that has some carbohydrates that started from my self-intimate relationship with my body. I am pleased to present to my body this recipe:

Recipe

Ingredients

1 T unrefined coconut nectar

4 egg whites

1 c almond meal

Procedure

Beat the egg whites with the coconut nectar until soft peaks

Fold the almond meal

Pre - heat the oven to 300 degrees F 

Put the almond-egg mixture inside the small muffin silicon pans

Bake for 30 minutes

Serve warm 

Serving Options

1. with meat-based meals and vegetable sides plus fruits

2. with almond butter spread and/or all-fruit no added sugar jam

Tip

Eat the portion your body needs

Make a hollandaise sauce with the egg yolks 

Tags

muffins, mini, almond, butter, low sugar, low salt, healthy, eating, health, sugar, diabetes, food, preparation, sickness, heart disease, hypertension, june roca, health coach, integrative nutrition

              Links To Realizing and Living My Utmost Potential

http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/05/the-desteni-of-living-my-declaration-of_30.html             

Living My Utmost Potential 10: Creating Low Salt and Low Sugar Meals and Recipes

Video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xmi902Lpzwg&list=UUkj-HMqXAqj8vrp8s4pmbMQ

Blog Related To This:

http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/07/realizing-and-living-my-utmost_29.html

 Links To Realizing and Living My Utmost Potential

http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/05/the-desteni-of-living-my-declaration-of_30.html

Taste had been the driving force when I eat since I was young - eating all kinds of food items. It was also true when I became a vegetarian, a raw vegan and a fruitarian. I found out that the reason for this is because I use food to cover-up the perceived 'lack' in my life. 

This can be lack of a relationship partner, lack of friends, lack of something to do etc. which I attached to being incomplete. These are really my fears that I am trying to run away from and me running after the food I desire the taste of - to complete my 'experience of myself' in life.

The taste of food gives me a certain feeling of fullness and satisfaction which I interpreted as me feeling complete and happy. 

 I also prepare food that others will like so that they will feel satisfied and happy. 

The meaning of food was missed in the process of preparing food.

Food is a substance that nourish the body

I would like to look at this food preparation mind pattern here which is about preparing 'tasty food' used to please others:

>I want to cook tasty food 

>I know they would enjoy some exotic dishes

>so let me prepare exotic tasting meals

>something that they have not tasted yet

>that will make them happy and content

>then they will come and visit again

>if I do not make the food tasty 

>they will not come

Here, there is a desire that I am trying to satisfy through preparing tasty food for others. I always make sure I season the food well so that It will satisfy others and make them happy.

 This is true when I prepare food for guests. It is about me having a feeling that I have done something great which is not really what food is about. So, having realized this, i can forgive myself and correct this pattern.

The  video above was taken when I gave a cooking class where I decided to not add salt in the food that I was preparing. I ate it and really enjoyed it. The guests also enjoyed it. I realized it was just my fear of the food i prepared being disliked that stops me from serving low salt and low sugar food (bland food). In the video you will see that most of the students attending did not like to add salt to the food.

I realized from the class that there is a potential that can usher a new way of preparing food and this can be done in the food industry also. 

Instead of food being served in restaurants from the starting point of taste, we can decide to prepare food from the starting point of nutrition. It is about us changing the way we see food and prepare food. Change starts from us. We created these 'positive and negative judgments' within our minds so we can also un-create it. The world system is a reflection of ourselves.

 Animal meat, vegetables and fruits have their own subtle tastes. 

Vegetables, nuts, fruits and animal meat have their own sodium content,

Spinach = 24 mg

http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/vegetables-and-vegetable-products/2626/2

Pork =  1283 mg

http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/pork-products/10300/2

Kiwi = 5 mg

http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/fruits-and-fruit-juices/1934/2

Cashews = 3 mg

http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/nut-and-seed-products/3095/2

Sodium

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sodium

'We can indeed choose to prepare food in a way that we can experience its real taste.'

June Roca

Check Out My E-book for Recipes I Tested :

Tao of Food Preparation Recipes

http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00N6DVJBW

My Youtube Videos

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCkj-HMqXAqj8vrp8s4pmbMQ

The Ground Beef, Onion Pizza, Stetching the Dough, Flour and Raw and Cooked Foods

Video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qm67W5oHi08

I enjoyed making this pizza.

I am so sorry that I have judged the flour when I was a raw foodist - as bad. I missed the opportunity to interact with the flour because I was in my mind trying to judge, compare etc. based on ideas about it in my mind which came from information given by others.

I want to bring the mind pattern here and look at it:

>raw food is good 

>because I can make pizza with veggies

>flour is bad for you

>It has lots of carbs

> and the gluten is heavy

>raw food makes me feel good and look good

>so raw pizza must be better than cooked pizza

I realized here that I judged the flour as bad. I forgot that the wheat plant where the flour came from is also part of the whole - that is life. In my desire to look good, feel good and have a long life, I forgot that it was because I was trying to run away from my fear of disease and death that I was running after raw food - believing it is superior than cooked food. I had the desire to have a long life and I saw the raw pizza as something that can give me that. So, it was fear based. It was fear of disease and death that is the starting point for desiring raw pizza. Rather than release these judgments and interact with it as what it really is - food that nourish the body that I can enjoy and interact with when I prepare food - i chose to resist it.

Essentially, raw food and cooked food are expressions of life. They both have nutrition. It is not necessary to compare them and judge them nor resist one and desire the other. It's simply about choosing the food that will nourish the body then cooking and preparing it. Then, looking at the portion that I need. A small slice of cooked pizza  is what I need - that's all. 

Redefining The Burger

In this Blog, I will look at the different ways of making a burger. I succeeded in making a meat burger that uses a dehydrated raw vegan bread (see the video below). I will post in blogs to come updates to this.

I am redefining food preparation,
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/09/redefining-food-preparation.html

This blog  (The Kuro Burger), talks about what a burger is,
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/09/the-black-burger-kuro-burger-of-burger.html

T am questioning the meaning of a burger basically.The blog above provided insights on what a burger is - in our minds. It is not about the beef patty and the bun plus veggies and the condiments used (as food that nourish the body), but rather an image in our mind that we desire to eat or dislike to eat.. It is our idea and belief of what a 'burger' is, passed down from generation to generation. It is about eating, directed by our desire to entertain ourselves through food. 

When I was a cooked vegetarian, I equated a meat burger to disease - i avoided people who ate meat believing that they were less than Life - defining myself as more than Life - within the belief that I am sacrificing my taste buds by not eating meat. I did not realize it was my own judgment of animal meat being less than life - which is a projection of my own definition of myself - as inferior.

I believed that if my heart disease will go on for a longer time, I will die. This was the reason why I adopted the so-called 'healthy' diet, one after another.

I realized that this was unnecessary because I am the breath in this body and I can express myself here and direct my actions in every moment. I can question whatever thoughts arising in my mind and correct my living.

There is no need to fear death and disease while alive. To live as who I am is enough. No need to go inside my mind and imagine I will be going to another dimension that is more than myself - to be more or 'to desire to be healthy to be more' etc. Rather, it is to embrace the fear of being less and see that I cannot run away from it. What I resist will persist. I can redefine my definition of myself and live that.

When I was a raw foodist, I equated a meat burger to disease. I would like to investigate this further and correct myself in the way I see a burger in this blog and in the coming blogs.

This blog is my investigation of the different methods of preparing a burger. Below are some videos that I did as I prepare for myself and others.
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The Story of The Burger

The Kuro Burger                       http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/09/cheeseburgers-are-not-supposed-to-be.html

Burger Patty In A Bun with Cabbage in Mustard Dressing and Sauerkraut

 The German Burger Cooking Class 1 Video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=euq7qZgJTqQ&list=UUqva63NRmbykN9e9xXOgZVA

Burger with Eggs and Bacon in a Pita Bread (and Other Creations)

2. Video: Burger Cooking Class  2

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fH0IjrVXjIo

Burger Patty in a Raw Vegan Bread

VIDEO

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OEbHTqMR-T0&list=UUqva63NRmbykN9e9xXOgZVA

 

    Burger Patty in a Lettuce 'Bread'

 VIDEO

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YGwxiM7AlzE

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Different Recipes of a Burger will be posted in blogs to come

Yoga, Meditation and The Sentient Diet

Mind Pattern

>I am stressed
>I better do yoga exercises
>so I will feel relaxed and peaceful
>I feel relaxed, peaceful, calm and healthy after I do yoga
>I wonder how people can live without doing yoga in this world?


Here , there is a desire to have peace and I am being directed by my mind to get the body into different body postures to get 'peace of mind' and relaxation through that.

This is based on a belief (me hearing and reading that yoga is good from the books and discourses by my guru then). I then try to manifest this in physical reality by doing yoga exercises 2x a day.

I was unaware that I was abusing the body through doing yoga postures. I did not see the desire to do yoga postures come from a fear of being overwhelmed and stressed - which I equated to having pain and suffering. It looks 'positive  and healing' while I was doing it. I felt good and relaxed after doing yoga. But what I did not see was that the positive comes from a negative.

My wanting to do yoga started from a fear. This fear is  the fear of being overwhelmed and stressed.

 It was not about assisting the body. It was about getting relaxed after doing yoga - which makes me feel good,

I have a selfish interest- believing that I look good and healthy when I feel peaceful inside. This was attached to my idea of how I look when I was stressed compared to when I was relaxed/peaceful.

This is not real peace. This is an idea of peace in my mind.

Real peace is not about fighting for peace.

It is about being self-directive and stable when problems come - breathing through them and taking myself by the hand, to release the reactions accumulating within myself where I am able to release the build-up, knowing how I created it and walking myself back to stability.

It is about releasing mind patterns that has mind components like ideas, beliefs and manipulation etc. that,comes up in every moment - being aware that I created them and I am in a position to un-create them.. It is about redefining who I am within the polarized definitions in my mind and living the redefinitions as my story of change.

My definition of animal meat for example and my definition of vegetable meat at that time I was doing yoga 2x a day was,

animal meat - not good for my body and mind - disease and death
vegetable meat - good for my body and mind - healthy

My definitions of yoga then was,

yoga - peaceful and calm, controlled mind
no yoga - easily upset, mind is erratic, reactive

My definitions of meditation then was,

meditation - liberation from suffering and pain
no meditation - suffering and pain

It was clear that I was running away from my fear of suffering and pain, reactions, disease  and death.

If we have a look at the meaning of the following words, in the dictionary (Word Web),

Yoga
A system of exercises practiced as part of the Hindu discipline to promote control of the body and mind

Suffering
Feelings of mental or physical pain

Meditation 
(religion) contemplation of spiritual matters (usually on religious or philosophical subjects)

Meat
1.The flesh of animals (including fishes and birds and snails) used as food
2.The inner and usually edible part of a seed, grain, nut or fruit stone

These are very different definitions from how I defined it before.

Continued