The Accident 3 : How Will I Survive This?

                                 

                                    The Accident Part 1

                                 http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/12/the-accident-and-breath.html

                                                

                                     The Accident Part 2

                                      http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/12/the-accident-theres-something-wrong.html

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                                                  Here is a mind pattern i spotted after our car accident last Dec. 17,                                                          2014.

                                                  How will I survive this? Mind Pattern

                                                    >my phone has no battery power
                                                    >how can we call someone?
                                                    >I better borrow a cell phone from someone
                                                    >so i can call a cab to bring us home
                                                    >but I am embarassed
                                                    >because I will be bothering them
                                                     >where is my purse?
                                                     >we are not going to be able to do what we need to do tonight
                                                    >what a waste of time
                                                    >we are not going to be able to drive home
                                                    >who will bring us home?
                                                    >I do not like accidents
                                                   
What I can see in this mind pattern:
Here, there is fear of being cut off from life - by not being able to communicate with someone using a cell phone/telephone. There's a fear that if i ask someone to lend me their cell phone, they will think that I will call long distance even if I wont -within doubt. There is also fear that my purse was lost - so fear that I will not be able to call a cab to go home and blame the accident for not being able to go where we need to go. Because of all these perceived difficulties going on in my mind, there is a general fear of having accidents. There also exist blame - believing that the accident stopped me from doing what I set ut to do. Here, I defined mself as a victim rather than someone who is self-directive so I will correct myself by first forgiving myself and then writing a commitment to correct myself in how I live my life.


                                                 What is Self-forgiveness? 
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self 
to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath. 

Writing Self-forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being cut off from life by not being able to communicate with someone during an accident where I cannot use my phone rather than see that I am here as breathe in every moment moving me and expressing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be embarassed to borrow a cell phone from the lady next to me in the hospital believing that she might think I will use her phone to call long distance even if I will not - within doubt, which is a projection of what I think (my doubting others) when strangers borrow my cell phone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my embarassment through the belief that I will be bothering her by borrowing her cell phone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when faced with an accident, blame my cell phone for the difficulties I am facing during an accident

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not seeing my purse after the accident, believing that if it's lost, I cannot have access to money  in my purse, therefore, I will not be able to buy food or pay for whatever I need (like a cab) to get home

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless, hopeless and useless in an accident and without a cell phone instead of realizing that I created these definitions in my mind - of 'cell phones' and 'accidents' based from fear so I can release these fears, redefine these words and commit to assist myself - and live the word 'stability', when faced with difficulty, change or pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the driver of the car, the car, and the the circumstance - the accident, for not being able to do what I set out to do that day the accident happened, instead of realizing that I have to embrace life and allow for changes in my daily schedule when external changes present itself in my world and realize that I create my 'within and without' - so instead of blaming others, take self-responsibility by  looking and releasing my mind's fears and desires including providing myself with physical necessities I need to live in a stable way using common sense.

Commitment To Correct Myself
Script

I commit myself to bring myself back here in the physical when I see myself creating fear of accidents in my mind where I interpret living as an individual separate from other individuals that needs to communicate or gossip to be connected instead of realizing that the cells are communicating with each other without cell phones/telephones which points to the reality that I need to develop an equal and one relationship to sound.

I commit myself to redefine the word 'accident'
From (Word Web)
Anything that happens suddenly or by chance without an apparent cause

To

Anything that happens suddenly which I defined as an external event presenting itself to be corrected so one can take self-responsibility and realize what one create one can un-create so one can live as 'stability' in ones world.

I commit myself to redefine the word 'telephone'

From (Word Web)

Electronic equipment that converts sound into electrical signals that can be transmitted over distances and then converts received signals back into sounds

To

Electronic equipment that converts sound into electrical signals that can be transmitted over distances and then converts received signals back into sounds which is used to transmit messages

that is aligned to what is best for all life.

I commit myself to redefine the word 'sound'

From (Word Web)

The particular auditory effect produced by a given cause

The subjective sensation of hearing something

To

The sensation of hearing something being/as part of the whole - that is life, where I am fully present as the breath, in every moment, hearing the auditory effect produced by a given physical body/cause that is a part of the whole - which I am a part of .