Living My Utmost Potential 12: Speaking In Public 1: Nervousness: Who am I?

I pushed myself to talk about who I am as a part of the whole and why that is important. I shared my story of change in front of people  for the first time. I am posting this as part of my Living my Utmost Potential Series. 

Links To Realizing and Living My Utmost Potential

http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/05/the-desteni-of-living-my-declaration-of_30.html

As this is a moment by moment process, I am also going to look at some points (nervousness) about speaking in public. When I was giving this speech, I was nervous. I would like to look at my mind pattern here.

'I am Nervous' Mind Pattern

>I am speaking before a new audience 

>they expect me to deliver a perfect speech 

>but I am not going to say what they want to hear 

>so I am sure they will not like my speech

Here, I have an idea of what the audience wants me to speak in a perfect manner

I believed that they were expecting me to talk about something

they like, which is not real. I was really projecting my own fear of speaking in public to them and then doubting myself in in my ability to entertain them.

What is Self-forgiveness? 

It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self 

to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath. 

Writing Self-forgiveness Statements 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea that the audience expect me to deliver my talk in a perfect way instead of  realizing this is me 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that they are expecting me to say something they like to hear

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of what other people like to hear, believing that what I am going to talk about will not interest them therefore, judging what I would say before I am able to say it, which is me projecting my own fear of being disliked to them.

I forgive myself to doubt my ability to communicate myself with others - using words used to entertain others rather than an expression of my story of change through  speaking

in stability communicating about what is best for all life - humans, animals, plants etc.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself fearing being disliked when speaking in public, I stop and breathe and bring myself back here realizing that I can live confidence - as who I am - and instead of thinking about entertaining the public,  speak in confidence about my story of how I change from being an individual driven by self-interest to someone who is standing for what is best for all. as I speak.