AGING Part 1

AGING

I am looking at the dynamics of Aging here and admiration based on my mindset- forgiving myself and writing commitments to open the door for correction

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my expression when a younger man 

said he likes our conversation and that it will be nice to hang out one day to taste my food 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as an old woman - which is a judgment based on age - associating that to powerlessness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i am a 61 yrs old i am not capable of being in a relationship because i will only cause problem for myself and the person i am with  in terms of healthcare costs etc. - which is actually me associating aging to powerlessness and blaming the physical body for being old

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being bed bound and unable to blog or vlog  

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when i am bed bound and cannot blog and vlog, i am powerless

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define aging according to limitation in mobility and the need for a care-giver  

Commitments

When and as i see myself suppressing my expression because of my age, i stop - i breathe. I realize that i am suppressing my expression when i see myself aging - being 61 years old, where i defined myself according to my age and judged myself within that limited definition

I commit myself to express myself as who i really am - as the breath in the body

I commit myself to see aging as what it is 

AGING

the process where the physical body naturally expresses itself -  including changes in skin tone, etc. as it lives life over a span of time - as a part of the whole, as life

EATING Part 18 Judging The Taste of Food

 

EATING

In this blog, i am looking at judging myself when i prepare food - forgiving myself for that, and making commitments to correct myself

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as wrong when the food i make does not taste good - believing that it has to taste good otherwise, it means i am not good enough as a cook

Commitments

When and as i see myself judging myself as wrong when the food i make does not taste good, i stop - I breathe. I realize this is me judging myself based on a polarized view-rather than see that what matters is my starting point in making the food. 

I commit myself to look at my starting point when preparing food 

I commit myself to see that food can be prepared in a way that it is not only nourishing for the body but also suitable for the body to ingest the food

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Forgiving Myself

 I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that  if i break the culinary rules, i will be judged as wrong - and will not gain friends

Commitment

When and as i see myself having a belief that i will be judged as wrong if i break the culinary rules, i stop -  breathe. I realize  my life is not about what others think and not about whether i break the culinary rules or not - but what i choose to eat and prepare that will be assisting my body 

I commit myself to choose to eat and prepare that which will be assisting my body

EATING Part 17 Restaurants & Food Availability

EATING

In this blog, i am looking at how my belief influences my feelings, my mistakes, forgiving them and releasing them so i can open the door for correction

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if the food i ordered in the restaurant is not available I can react in sadness and expect that it will be better next time

When and as i see myself believing that if the food i ordered in the restaurant is not available, i can react in sadness and expect that it will be better next time, i stop - i breathe. I realize that expecting something will happen because i like it to happen - and because i like it to happen, people will make it happen - is me not being responsible but me dictating on others based on my likes and dislikes

Rather than making sure that the food i need is available for me in my refrigerator and i can take this when i go out so i can eat it when i need to - and that if its not possible to do that, i can work with that too

I commit myself to see my responsibility in giving the body nutrition

I commit myself to cook food that i can eat when at home and when outside doing something

EATING Part 16 Restaurant & Nutrition

EATING

In this blog i am looking at a past memory and how i superimpose it on the present moment, my mistakes, forgiving myself and writing commitments to open the door for correction

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a polarity - where on one hand, i can see me eating tasty food in a restaurant in my mind - as a memory in the past - and now that i am existing in this present moment, i recall the taste of the food i ate then and having that taste experience in my mind i now crave and want to taste it again and order the same food so i will get contentment after eating it - which is like i superimposed a movie from the past to the present moment - which takes me away from the reality of things - where i see the restaurant in this present moment as a place that can give me the same food sensation that i had in the past - as i am craving it in my mind, because i charged it with a positive energy experience - and in the process, forget that the restaurant is here for a reason - not to recreate a past taste sensation and make me a dish that will mimic that so i can be entertained or to fulfill my craving but to assist me to create a meal that will give the body the nourishment that it needs

Commitments

When and as i see myself create a polarity in my mind, i stop - i breathe. I realize that i had a memory of eating a delicious dish in a restaurant in the past and having been addicted to that particular combination of tastes & textures, i created a positive energy experience in my mind which is stopping me to see the new moment - the restaurant, the present menu etc. which is affecting the way i care for my body - in terms of not giving it nourishment it needs

I commit myself to sit down and be aware of the taste sensations in the food i am eating when i am eating

I commit myself to identify the ingredients in what i am eating as i am eating food and be aware of the nutrition in the food

I commit myself to care for my body

 

EATING Part 15 Restaurants Taste & Texture

EATING

In this blog, I am looking at a memory & my relationship with food- when i order in restaurants, my mistakes, forgiving myself & writing commitments - opening the door for correction

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to recall a memory of me ordering something from a restaurant that i really like and the matching taste & texture profile of it in my mind - which i long to experience again because of the positive energy experience I remembered having before

Commitments

When and as i see myself recalling a memory of me ordering something that i really like and the matching taste & texture profile in my mind, i stop - I breathe. I realize i am directed by my past experience - making it really difficult to see this moment and what is happening here

Rather than embracing this here moment completely and learning from it

I commit myself to be aware of what i am eating & how it was grown, etc.

I commit myself to be here & see what is happening in the present moment

EATING Part 14 Restaurants: Cravings

 

EATING

In this blog, i am looking at restaurants and me ordering something i crave - that will give me a feeling of fulfillment - my mistakes within that, forgiving myself for that, and my commitments - opening the door for correction 

FORGIVING MYSELF

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a happy feeling when i am at a restaurant ordering food that i like or crave - where i am craving for a taste of a food item that brings me fulfillment in the moment based on a lack of something that i had in the past that i charged with a positive energy experience - all because the starting point was not about what is best for the body - but rather, to order food that i like based in past experiences

COMMITMENTS

When and as i see myself participate in a happy feeling when i am ordering at a restaurant - food that i like or crave, I stop - I breathe. I realize this is me directed by my past experiences, as memories of food that i ate that tasted good, that satisfied my cravings - not seeing that this is stopping me to see this moment here and the food items as what they are and their use - since my attention is in my past experiences

I commit myself to see who i am as part of the whole - my relationship with plants, animals & the earth

I commit myself to embrace food items as equals based on the fact that they are here and i am here as part of this one life - assisting them to grow while they assist me by giving me substances that my body needs to survive

Eating Part 13 Restaurants, Money & Food

 

EATING

In this blog, I am looking at food and money and how i use both - looking at my mistakes, forgiving myself and opening the door for correction

FORGIVING MYSELF

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i earn money to be able to spend money on the best tasting food in a restaurant.

COMMITMENTS

When and as i see myself having a belief that i earn money to be able to spend money on the best tasting food in a restaurant, i stop - I breathe. I realize that in this case, i am seeing money as a medium of exchange - where i get food in exchange for the money i give, and that food becomes a tool for me to get some form of taste bud stimulation, rather than use the food to nourish the body and use the money to get the food for that purpose

I commit myself to to look at food as a source of nutrition the body needs

I commit myself to see money as a commodity that i can exchange with food that nourish the body