AGING Part 1

AGING

I am looking at the dynamics of Aging here and admiration based on my mindset- forgiving myself and writing commitments to open the door for correction

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my expression when a younger man 

said he likes our conversation and that it will be nice to hang out one day to taste my food 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as an old woman - which is a judgment based on age - associating that to powerlessness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i am a 61 yrs old i am not capable of being in a relationship because i will only cause problem for myself and the person i am with  in terms of healthcare costs etc. - which is actually me associating aging to powerlessness and blaming the physical body for being old

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being bed bound and unable to blog or vlog  

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when i am bed bound and cannot blog and vlog, i am powerless

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define aging according to limitation in mobility and the need for a care-giver  

Commitments

When and as i see myself suppressing my expression because of my age, i stop - i breathe. I realize that i am suppressing my expression when i see myself aging - being 61 years old, where i defined myself according to my age and judged myself within that limited definition

I commit myself to express myself as who i really am - as the breath in the body

I commit myself to see aging as what it is 

AGING

the process where the physical body naturally expresses itself -  including changes in skin tone, etc. as it lives life over a span of time - as a part of the whole, as life