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This Blog is a Correction Script for What was Forgiven In This Blog

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Commitments:

Self-Correction Script

I commit myself to when and as i see myself

fear that i have a boring sex life 
fear that i will not be whole if i do not have it all - in my relationships

and so end a relationship

based from what i like and what i don't like
based from desires not being met or satisfied

based from fear of suffering

I stop

I breathe

I realize that this is me as the mind

believing that the man i am with is a separate individual

that i can have an emotional bond with
that ican  have good sex with

that i can have good feelings with to make me feel complete

that i can have to make me feel whole

expecting to have something more

desiring something 
which comes from
fear 
of not being complete or whole
or having it all

instead of realizing that 
i have associated words within my mind 
to other words
that i have given value more than life or less than life

where i see myself, others and this world based on those mind definitions

defining relationships - based from a mind definition 

'2 people being eternally happy because each is giving the other what each other like or desires'

defining a male  - based from a mind definition
'someone who completes a female'

defining attraction - based from a mind definition
ATT-ention t-RACTION
'being mesmerized to seeing someone with qualities i defined as more than life - more than ordinary or normal'

defining the word love - based from a mind definition
L-iving O-ver the positi-VE
'feeling of comfort within being cared for, desired, liked, adored'
defining the word 'suffering' - based from a mind definition
S-elf s-UFF-ering because of ERR-ors ING-rained within the mind as negative energy experiences
'psychological pain in not having what i like' 
defining the word 'control' - based from a mind definition
Con - troll 
'another having control over what i like to do or not do based from what i like and what i do not like conning me to do that which he/she likes me to do'
defining the word 'end' - based from a mind definition
EN-ergy D-eath
'the conclusion or end of my positive energy experiences as who i have become as the personality/individual /mind
defining the word 'start' - based from a mind definition
S-elf as T-ime A-spiring for a- RT
'the beginning which is usually where one aspires or hope to experience the beauty and happiness in the future or life ahead'

and my mind expectations of him 

according to those mind definitions
which is really based on self-interest 
or what someone can give me which i believe i don't have'
which in essence is based from my fears

It is not me interacting with another as myself

walking as equals

I therefore assist myself

to redefine words 

live the redefined meaning of these words

as equal to my expression as who i am

I commit myself 

to when and as i see myself expecting 

that a man becomes the man i imagine in my mind

I stop

I breathe

I realized that imaginations are based on

pictures and images i accumulated in my mind

which i connected to positive and negative energy experiences
within memories
as i my interpretation of reality
which is not real
an illusion

So, i assist myself to 

breathe through the positive and negative energies, 
movements within myself

and stabilize myself as breath here

I assist myself to accept and allow me to see

the male as self - equal and one

I assist myself to accept and allow me to see

that i am part of the whole - as Life

consisting of different parts 

expressing individually

looking different and separate from the mind's perspective

but essentially equal and one 

all consisting of atoms that all consist of

so instead of trying to find the man

that will complete me and make me whole

realize that wholeness is not about separating from the whole 

and uniting to the whole

which is in essence

coming from the starting point 

of me perceiving myself separate from who i am

as essentially equal to all that is here

It is to develop an equal and one relationship with my body
be intimate with myself

accepting and allowing me to see

all that is here 

as all bodies - the body of humans, the body of nature, animals, plants etc

as what it is

as all life - equal and one 

I assist myself to accept and allow me

to see that the body of a woman

consisting of trillions of cells  

consisting of atoms 

as equal to the man's body 

with sex organs that look different 

but essentially equal and one

as all are parts of this one life

breathing here in every moment 

with a heart that beats

having an individual pulse

that constitute the pulse of all - as the pulse of life

I commit myself to when and as i see myself

getting out of a relationship

based from what i don't like about my partner

I stop

I breathe

I realize that it is me as the mind

having these likes and dislikes

realizing that my dislikes are coming from my fears

so instead of focusing on what i like and getting that
which is in facrt me running from my fears

face my fears

look back and see where this started

seeing and realizing
that when i was young my dad left to work abroad

and see that i felt relieved that he was not there to discipline 

all of us  - i felt i had no one to control me to do whatever i please
which i interpreted as freedom

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to 

connect leaving someone to relief and freedom

believing that when i leave someone 
or end a relationship
i will be relieved from 

taking responsibility and will have freedom

where having freedom and relief from responsibility

is me running away from me - me running away from my fears

instead of realizing that taking self-responsibility

is the key to realizing self, developing self trust etc.

and that me having that back door is stopping me to 

be intimate with myself and another as self

I commit myself to when and as i see myself

connecting leaving someone or leaving a relationship

with
being relieved from responsibility 
and freedom to do what i like

I stop

I breathe

I realize that this is me as the mind

being directed by what i like and what i don't like 
as the mind

and projecting this to my partner 

instead of bringing it back to myself 

redefining words

forgiving myself for my fear of control  

forgiving myself for my fear of not having freedom
forgiving myself for my fear of pain and suffering

and correcting myself in my living

where
instead of waiting for my dad to correct me

take self-responsibility 

to forgive myself

rewrite the book within myself and correct myself

taking myself by the hand 

and unconditionally assisting myself 

forgiving myself

correcting myself

and in the process birth a new self

that can be trusted 

to always stand for what is best for all concerned

in every decision i make 

asking 
'how will looking at my fears (fear of control and fear of suffering),

and forgiving myself and correcting myself

assist me in my process of self-perfection?

where,
I decide to walk with the male
from a true starting point

assisting each other to look at our fears

forgiving ourselves 

correcting ourselves

and assisting each other 

in birthing self here

redefining words 

redefines attraction as 
seeing another as myself 
someone who i can walk with
in equality and oneness
to birth me here as who i really am

redefines love

as birthing self as all life
walking baby steps
and embracing the pain that comes with 
that 
redefines a male as a human
who expresses oneself as a male having a male organ
whose body consist of atoms consisting of substance all consist of
redefines relationships as relating to the ship of life
where one walks with another as self  both agreeing to birth
a new self that can  be trusted to always stand for what is best for all
redefines suffering as self standing up to offer all a solution as that 'I' 
that always stand for what is best for all
realizing that
what is best for all  
is about birthing a new self
and within that birthing
bear the physical pain in taking baby steps to birthing self here 
until all is free
redefines control as power to push through the pain of birthing a new self that can be trusted to stand for what is best for all and to stay focused until one is free and all is free
forevermore
redefines end as a point where one stops that which is not what is best for all 
redefines start as self starting to see and realize who one really is, what life really is  and decide to do that which what is best for all - a beginning of ones journey to life

I assist myself 

to take self-responsibility

to through writing, self-forgiveness

and self correction in my living

moment by moment

breath by breath

birth me here as who i really am

as wholeness

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Self-forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to

participate in the design of 'fear of survival - as form - as sex - as energy''

fear that i will be with DMC 
having a boring sex life

believing that he does not have that emotional bond with me

believing that attraction is about that emotional bond

or good feeling that makes us look at each other's eyes and kiss

for long hours because we desire each other so much

desiring to be with someone 

who is not just handsome and attractive

but who can also give me good sex, love and financial stability

believing that if i do not have a good sex life 

I will be unhappy 

believing that him teaching me how to draw aboriginal paintings is great

but not so great 

believing that i need to have it all

believing that to be complete - to be whole
 i need to have it all

great looks, great sex, love and financial stability

believing that i can't be happy when i do not have it all

Through this,

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to 

doubt who i am uncertain of who i am
perceiving myself split into 2

the one who does not have a perfect man wanting to have a perfect man

or the one who is whole 
having an equal and one relationship with the body
seeing another who i am in a 'relationship' with as me
believing i am separate from the source
believing i am a female separate from a male
believing i am the better half - of the whole
believing that to be whole 
i have to have a relationship
with a male 
believing that having a good relationship
with a male 
is the way to be whole
believing that this is the way
to unite with the source

instead of seeing and realizing
i am here as the breath
in every moment 
as wholeness

Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself 
to blame the physical 
for creating moles that at DMC's  back
for creating thin forms
for creating stingy men
for creating boring sex

instead of realizing i am the one who 
is self-responsible for connecting 
information given to me 
to positive energy experiences
imagining me as the personality evolving  
I am  the one that is self-responsible for 
connecting moles to a negative energy experience
I am the one connecting thin forms to a negative energy experience
I am the one responsible for defining stingy 
within men spending or not spending for me
and i am the one defining sex within 
boring and exciting

so i am the one
that is self responsible for 
the consequence outflow 
of what i accept and allow

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself 
to have the excuse that i cannot survive 
in a  relationship without having good sex 
believing that i can only survive in a relationship when i have good sex

not seeing and  realizing that this is balance in polarity

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to 
justify the excuse that i cannot survive
in a relationship without having good sex 

believing that i can only be whole when i have good sex 
with my partner

instead of realizing that wholeness does not need separation from the source

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Commitment to Correct Myself

I commit myself to when and as i see myself
fear not having recorded data, 
fear not having photos and videos
to remember
information and knowledge given by others
or remember my picture presentation
and my behavior that is the result of mind manipulation
stored in cameras, video cams, cell phones and computers
I stop
I breathe
I realize that this is me as the mind 
separating myself from what is here
desiring to use photos and videos
to remember positive energy experiences as memories

believing that information and knowledge 
are separate from me
that will be lost if i do not capture it in pictures 
using cameras and videos

believing that who i am 
is a picture presentation

believing that who i am 
is equal to body movements i make
which are manipulated by the mind
that are captured in video cams

instead of realizing 
i am here as breath in every moment
expressing me as who i am
within/as self-remembrance
not defined by picture presentations
mind manipulated behaviors
memories
and not defined by
positive and negative energy experiences

I assist myself to  see
that visual cameras and video cameras are equal to who i am
as they consist of atoms all consist of
and that they are here 
for me to use within my process
of self-perfection

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I am looking at this Mind Pattern:

>I like his looks
>>but he is too thin
>>>I do not like the moles at his back
>>>> it turns me off
>>>>>I do not like that when we have sex he does nothing but lie down
>>>>>>he just sticks his jade stalk inside the jade gate and that is it
>>>>>>>I do not like that he treats me like a princess because it is boring
>>>>>>>>he asks me to decide all the time
>>>>>>>>>It magnifies him being inferior and me being superior
>>>>>>>>>>he is cold
>>>>>>>>>>>he is not emotional
>>>>>>>>>>>>he is not kissing me all the time
>>>>>>>>>>>>>he is not caressing me all the time
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>he is not drawn to me like a fly is drawn to a pooh
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>he does not look at my eyes for a long time and whisper sweet nothings in my ears
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I do not like that he does not have much money to spend on me
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>he is stingy
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I only said yes to having a relationship with him because
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>i have problems with DJW
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I do not like it when i cannot eat the food i like to eat
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>because of him budgeting his money and planning the food we will eat
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I am not madly in love with him
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I am unhappy with him
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>It is not working
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I want to end the relationship
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Realizations:

I realize  that
It is me that is going to take self-responsibility
It is me that is going to correct myself
as the creator and the created
of 'my within' as the mind
and 'my without' as this world system

rewriting the programs 
and so,  the systems 
from what is best for me only
to what is best  for all
realizing that 
what is best for all 
Is what is best for me

I realized
I created the problem
I can provide the solution

I can rewrite the book within myself
I can correct myself

It is me who's going to forgive myself 
for accepting and allowing me 
to interpret reality
giving words a positive  or a negative value
experiencing the world accordingly
and behaving according to the mind definitions
i had given words

instead of seeing what is here
instead of seeing what is real
redefining words
giving them meaning equal to who i am
and living those definitions

I realized
It is me who is going to correct myself - my script 
It is me that is going to correct my living

It is me who's going to redefine words
It is me who is going to live
the redefined meaning of words

It is me who's going to rewrite myself in my blogs
It is me who's going to correct myself 
in my living
in every moment of breath

birthing who i really  am 

moving me
expressing me
as who i am, what i am and how i am
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Why do self-forgiveness?

http://juneroca.com/home/my-process/self-forgiveness/
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Correcting Myself: Rewriting the Program

Taking Self-responsibility

Self-forgiveness Statements 

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Self-forgiveness Statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in the design of
'fear of survival - as negative energy'

fear that I will not have photos and videos
to remember information and knowledge
given by others
desiring to  remember
information and knowledge given to me
instead of seeing and realizing
I stand as self-remembrance

Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
doubt who i am
uncertain of whether i am
the one existing within memories
defining oneself within positive and negative experiences
or 
who i really am as equal to self-remembrance

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
blame the physical for creating videos and cameras 
believing that this is here for us to remember positive energy experiences
instead of realizing it is here for us to use for what is best for all

Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to have the excuse that 
i have to survive - taking photos and videos
to remember positive energy experiences 

Through this 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
react by suppressing my anger when someone calls me out
or makes me wrong
compounding the anger within myself
believing that i have  to be right
believing that  i have to prove myself 
believing i have to be right to be able to prove myself 
believing that when i prove myself as right
i am successful in what i do
instead of realizing that i have to look at and face the fear 
where this all started
self-forgive and do self-correction in my living application

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
regret deleting the photos and videos i took
instead of realizing that i am here
as the breath in every moment
developing an equal and one relationship with 
all that is here as the physical within self-remembrance

Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior 
when someone calls me out for something that i did 
believing that i have to be right 
believing i should be superior 
beliving i have to be the best
believing i have to succeed
believing my purpose in life is to succeed
in whatever i do
believing that i have to know everything 
believing that when i know - i can be right - and never be wrong
believing that when i do that which is right, people will like me
believing that the more people like me 
the more success i have

Instead of realizing that who i am is not defined by 
the number of people who likes me

Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to 
feel shame for doing what i did
believing the shame that i feel 
is who i am - feeling shame
instead of realizing that 
that is who i have become as the personality
interpreting reality
reacting to things, people etc. 
then impulsed to feel shame 
within my mind


Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself 
to justify the excuse that i have to survive
taking pictures and videos 
remembering positive energy experiences
believing i cannot be wrong
believing that when i am wrong i am not whole

believing that i need to be whole
believing i need to be right to be whole
within balance in polarity


not seeing and realizing that wholeness does not need to separate from the source

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I am looking at a Mind Pattern :

>I did something that was against the rules
>>I was told of what i did
>>>I was told to correct it
>>>>I fear that i committed something wrong
>>>>>I felt  inferior
>>>>>>I felt shame
>>>>>>>I got angry to myself for doing what i did
>>>>>>>>I blamed the people who called me out

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The Specific Mind Pattern 

>I did something that was against the rules - took videos and photos
>> I was told of what i did
>>> I was told to correct it - i deleted it
>>>> I fear that i committed something wrong
>>>>> I felt  inferior
>>>>>> I felt shame
>>>>>>> I got angry to myself for doing what i did
>>>>>>>> I blamed the people who called me out
>>>>>>>>> i told them a staff told me i can get photos and videos 
>>>>>>>>>>I deleted the photos and videos
>>>>>>>>>>>I felt bad that someone told me that what  i did was wrong, so justifies what i did


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Self-forgiveness Statements will follow in my next blog
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The Word 'Anger'                                         

Topic: 

Releasing the energy charge and equalizing myself with the word 'anger'
as who i am in relation to symbols that form words and sentences which i use to express myself here - as i birth myself as Life

Why am I Using Mathematics? 
I am using mathematical symbols at the end of this post to show an example of MIND values i had given words i connected to the word  'anger' - which are NOT REAL. I am showing the real value of words as living words.

 Why am i using Self-forgiveness?
 http://juneroca.com/my-process/self-forgiveness/

I am using  self-forgiveness and writing a commitment to correct myself in how i use this word in my living application
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Self-forgiveness Statements:

Separation
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word 'anger' through giving it a positive value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word 'anger' through giving it a negative value

Charging The Word With A Positive and Negative Value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word anger with a positive value
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word anger with a negative value

Positive Connections/Definitions 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word strength
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word strength

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word force
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word force

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word tame
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word tame

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word certainty
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word certainty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger the word confidence
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word confidence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word superiority
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word superiority

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word pity
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word pity

Negative Connections/Definitions
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word control
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word control

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word irritation
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word irritation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word wrong
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word wrong

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect anger to the word loud
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word loud

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word evil
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word evil

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word fear
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word pain

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word torture
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word torture

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the word inferiority
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word inferiority

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word anger to the words loud sound
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word anger within the word loud sound
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Self-forgiveness for Resonating and Experiencing The Word 'Anger'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
resonate and experience the word 'anger'
over and over again
into the very physical body
rippling  through into the water
and actually program the very physical
from the depths of the physical itself

 Self- Correction Script
I commit myself to through
writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application
recreate myself by rewriting the book within myself
releasing the positive and the negative energy charge
I had given the word 'anger'

I commit myself to instead of connecting/defining the word 'anger'
to/within other words
that I have assigned positive and negative values to
that are my mind interpretations of reality
redefine it as equal to my expression

I commit myself to when and as I see myself
fearing to lose and wanting to win
using the word anger to win
to  be superior and project strength
fearing to be inferior and weak
desiring a positive energy experience

I stop
I breathe

I realized this is me as the mind
running away from my fear of being inferior and weak
and desiring a positive energy experience
instead of self-forgiving me and correcting myself
redefining inferiority and weakness
and living the redefined meaning of these words

I assist myself to stabilize me as breath
breathing through the energy
and directing the energy
towards the earth
where it came from

I assist myself to release the
positive and negative charge I had given the word 'anger'
regain dimensional vision
and see what is really here
it is to realize that I am here as breath
in every moment
regain dimensional vision
and see what is really here

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Quote:
'to resonate and experience that word or such a memory
over and over and over again and because it resonates
over and over again into the very physical body
it ripple through into the water
and actually program the very physical from the depths of
the physical itself'
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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values
Vs
Giving Values Equal to Life

I realized i had given the word 'anger'
positive and negative values
through connecting/defining the word
to/within other words
'as in

Positive Connections/Definitions 

strength = +100
force = +100
certainty = +100
confidence = +100
superiority =+100
tame = +100
pity = +100

Negative Connections/Definition

wrong = -100
irritation = -100
control = -100
evil = -100
fear = -100
pain = -100
torture =-100
careless = -100
loud = -100
inferiority = -100

I realized that these values
I had given these words
are mind values that are not real

It is to realize that the word 'anger'
consist of letters
as symbols
that we sound
as who we are

it is to realize that the definition I give words
is how I see myself, others and this world
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