Student and Teacher

 

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that teachers are persons who have credentials to teach people so they are more learned in the field of Education

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that teachers are in this world to teach people how to pass a test

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i should obey what my teachers say regardless of the significance of what they are teaching me - in my life

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear learning from an Education system that  is based on knowledge 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the student is the only one who can commit a mistake and the teacher can't 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i point out their mistakes, they will not want to teach me anymore and i will end up not having a teacher 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear pointing out the mistakes of my teacher - within fear of not being able to proceed to the course - that will delay my course progress and therefore delay earning money from that

Commitment to Correct Myself

When and as i see myself believing that the teachers are persons who have credentials to teach people, i stop - i breathe. i realize this is a limited belief where learning is about getting a credential to earn money 

Rather than learning being an application of a natural or commonsense skill and standing for what is best for all

I commit myself to see what learning really is

English Language

 

ENGLISH LANGUAGE

In this blog i am looking at the difficulty i have when talking with people in my country who only knows (to speak) our language

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that English is not my language so therefore i should not learn it 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think that it is difficult to talk to people who only know the Filipino language 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the ones who can only speak the Filipino language and does not know how to speak English as less

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a backchat of,

"This is so freaking difficult" 

"I have to walk the process, change myself, must have money to do my pilot projects, plus deal with other people's mind and on top of that, slow myself down and talk to them in Filipino to get them to understand me and be subject to humiliation by others?"

Commitment to Correction

When and as i see myself believing that English is not my Language so therefore i should not learn it, I stop - I breathe. I realize my native language is not the only Language i need to learn. My desire to just be comfortable speaking my native Language  based on a belief will not assist me expand my expression - Rather than see that i am a being that stands for what is best for all, so i need to do whatever it takes to embrace the English Language and see who i am as that language

I commit myself to see what the English Language really is

LEARNING CENTER IN THE VILLAGE

LEARNING CENTER IN THE VILLAGE

In this blog, i am looking at a learning center that i built in the Village and how and what to do to be able for that to be a place where all can be assisted in many ways to survive and express to their optimum potential

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i have a learning center built, that someone will give me a learning software that i can put there

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others are automatically going to be attracted to my pilot projects in the community

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i start a pilot project that will give  poor people a little bit of food and money i will be supported by the people

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the agencies in the government will automatically support my projects

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people are giving by heart

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that some people are going to sabotage my pilot projects

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself that my family will automatically support my pilot projects because they are about helping the poor

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to give up my pilot projects for lack of support

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a backchat of

"What's the use of doing this - when everyone is stopping me from getting what i need to proceed and get this done?"

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this is not going anywhere because my funds will run out soon and the pilot projects will die a natural death

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think of a picture of me with no money in the bank

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine a movie of me talking and carrying on about my pilot projects but no one is listening

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the physical for creating a world where people are apathetic 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the excuse that i am not responsible if my pilot projects fail because i did my best and my best isn't good enough

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people do not care and because i am alone in this,  if i stop this, no one will care anyway -  so i can just stop everything and go back to what i normally do - not realizing that what i normally do is meaningless anyway because that is not what is commonsensical to do - and because i know that it is based on fuzzy logic and i am still doing it, i will suppress myself in the process and feel like a victim - with no solution in sight

Commitment to Correction

When and as i see myself believing that if i build a learning center, someone will give me a learning software to put there, i stop - i breathe.

I realize this is a belief that i have to release and see that i cannot just be hoping for something to happen based on a belief but rather use commonsense - realizing that i need to continue on and see opportunities along the way - taking responsibility and correcting as i go without any preconceived idea of what is right or wrong

I commit myself to test different ways of getting a natural learning tool in that learning center that i built in the village for the purpose of identifying some problems and seeing solutions that is best for everyone - that people can practically use to survive and express to their optimum potential 

Knowing Money & Unnatural Learning

 

Knowing, Money & Unnatural Learning

In this blog, i am looking at who i really am and the role of money & information in learning 

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that learning is about knowing 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that knowing equals spending money

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without money i cannot learn

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not question the way things are being taught and how much they cost

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear the high cost of learning 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry that the poor cannot go to school

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be born to another set of parents with a lot more money than my mom and dad so i can enroll in a better school or institution

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself by not standing up and challenging the way information is being transferred from one person to another based on separation 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think that the quality of education depends upon the amount of money i pay for the course - the higher the better, and feel sorry i cannot pay the high fees, where the real meaning of who i am, money & information is lost

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i i finish a course  and passed that course i have truly learnt the subject matter

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to lose my commonsense while being taught in a course by someone else who tells me what to do, where and when to do it

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to learn in an unnatural setting and suppress myself in the process

Commitment to Correction

When and as i see myself believing that learning is about knowing, i stop - i breathe. I realize this is me trying to get something  that will increase my value based on how much knowledge i have and how much money i have 

Rather than see that learning is about practical application and commonsense

I commit myself to see what learning really is 

I commit myself to see what practical application really is and how commonsense plays a role in that in my life and in this world

Education Teacher & Student

 

In this blog, i am looking at my elementary and high school points - forgiving myself and writing commitment for correction

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe my teacher has more power than me - since she is older and has more knowledge than me because she gives me assignments 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my teacher believing that because she can give me a failing grade, she has more power than me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear i will not be able to do the assignment my teacher gave me because i do not know how to apply it in real life

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think of a picture of my teacher standing in front of the class with a stick on her right hand

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a backchat of 

"When will recess be? I am bored".

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my creativity by following the teacher's commands even if i do not agree to all of them

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see the school as an institution that has more value than me and within that, see myself as inferior

I forgive myself that i  have accepted and allowed myself to believe that knowledge given to me by others  who have more credentials than me are all valid - so i do not challenge them

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that education is about teachers or people transferring knowledge to me and me accepting them

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that high school is about having a relationship partner that will provide me with assistance in all aspects of my life

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my high school classmates think highly of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be attracted to some of my male classmates in elementary and high school

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to attract my male classmates to me through the way i dress and the way i present myself - within self-interest

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as inferior to my teachers to the point that i lost myself and suppress myself.

Commitment to Correction

When and as i see myself believing that my teacher has more power than me, i stop - i breathe. I realize that the teacher and the student is being perceived and given a value  that is not real

Rather than see both are equal in value.

I commit myself to see the student and the teacher as equals

The Cat Abortion & Sex

 

The Cat Abortion & Sex

I saw this cat's picture (above) in  one of the social media platforms which was taken by a friend.  When i looked into its eyes, i experienced a sharp pain on my chest. I did some self-forgiveness and it subsided. So, in this blog i would like to look at some points that i saw that i connected to this picture in my mind. 

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to - as aa parent, aborted my child when i was married with a guy and i did that because i was struggling then and we were in a very small apartment, so it was my fear that i cannot raise my kid properly without enough money plus other factors around that that drove me to do that.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to marry a guy because he was good in bed - meaning he can give me pleasure and that is because i find the world so cruel but i dare not talk about it - within dishonesty

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge a guy that gives me pleasure in bed as superior - charging that with a positive energy experience

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge guys that do not give me pleasure in bed as inferior - charging that with a negative energy experience

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to stop myself from touching myself having judged myself as weird if i do that

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself within sexual expression blaming my culture and then use men to experience pleasure 

Commitment To Correction

When and as i see myself abort a child - fearing not being able to raise it because i did not have money, i stop - i breathe. I realize i saw relationships as having someone to give me pleasure 

Rather than see  that the basis of relationships is self-relationship and that sex is having physical interaction with someone as an equal 

I commit myself to see relationships as what it really is. 

I commit myself to see sex as what it really is

Education, Out-Of-School Youths & Inequality

Education, Out-Of-School Youths & Inequality

In this blog, i am looking at an unconscious tendency, because of a belief - to see myself as superior depending on the amount of money in my possession etc. I am forgiving myself for the problems i saw and opening the door for correction

Forgiving Myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am the elite as i manage the farm - where i unconsciously behave like the elite, and believing i have the authority over the out-of -school youths who are working with me - designating them as my subordinates because i know more than them - and i speak English and they don't

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i know more than the Out-Of-School Youths because i know English and they don't

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i have authority over the Out-Of-School Youths because I have dollars  and they receive Philippine pesos - which has very little value compared to the dollar

I forgive myself that o have accepted and allowed myself to associate the dollar to people who have more and the philippine pesos to people who have less

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to associate the US to superiority and the Philippines to Inferiority

Commitment To Correct Myself

When and as i see myself having the belief that i am the elite and the out-of-school youths are my subordinates, i stop - I breathe. I realize this is what i learned in school - as i see my teacher being above me and the students - as us being her subordinates and i did not correct that in that moment

I commit myself to see that the teacher is equally valuable as the student - as they both come from the dust of the ear