What is A Meat Cookie?

Speaking before an audience about the meat cookie.

Judging Competitions: 'I Do Not Want To Be The Judge'

Mind Pattern

>I know she will be the winner 

>I know the other contestant will not win
>I know who will win 

>but I do not want to be a judge 

>because I do not like competitions 

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Here, there is a projection while observing two contestants  who will win and who will lose and when invited to be a judge, there arose some fear which was justified rather than directed.

I will rewrite this pattern through using self-forgiveness, redefining words and writing a self-correction script (using a commitment statement to correct myself in every moment - when I see myself getting into this pattern).

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What is Self-forgiveness? 

It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath. 

Self-forgiveness Statements and Correction Script:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to - as a spectator, judge one contestant as better than the other believing that my feeling in judging her/him as better is real, instead of seeing and realizing that  a skill measured by feelings is subjective and so it is to see that skills can be measured using numbers that has value that is not more or less than another but an objective assessment of skill that can be measured objectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - as a spectator, judge  the other contestant as less than the other believing that my feeling in judging her/him as less than the other is real, instead of seeing and realizing that a skill measured by feelings is subjective and so it is to see that her/his skills can be measured using numbers that has value that is not more or less than another but an objective assessment of a skill that can be measured objectively.

I commit myself to judging objectively using numbers that identify the skill using values that are representations of what the skill is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project into the future who will win believing that my feelings about who will win can be trusted instead of seeing and realizing that I interpret what I observe in my mind so it is  a subjective interpretation of what i observe rather than what it really is

I commit myself to observe certain criteria for a winning speech and objectively assess the skill of the person according to that where numbers are representations of value that is not seen as more than or less than life but of a skill walked and expressed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear judging a competition believing that

it is not good to judge someone as more or less than another instead of seeing and realizing that I have attached the word judge to competitions and has given it a negative value and I am reacting to the values I have given it - as more or less.

I commit myself to redefine the word judge and change according to my redefined definition that aligns to what is mutually beneficial to all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my fear of competitions believing that in competitions one can lose, rather than seeing and realizing that it is us fearing not surviving in this world that we compete to survive - so it is for me to see the value of the skill of the person, equal to a number that is not a representation of either more or less value - within fear of not surviving - but an objective representation of a skill that is measurable.

 I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing and desire winning believing that to survive I have to win - instead of seeing and realizing that instead of fearing not surviving in this world of inequality, and having the illusion that we can transcend this fear by winning in competitions -  we have to address the problem of unequal distribution of resources given to us all equally by the earth through a guaranteed living income.

Redefining the word 'judge'

Judge

From

An authority who is able to estimate worth or quality

JU-s-t the cutting e-DGE

To

An authority who is able to give points equal to worth or quality of a skill of someone or usefulness of something.

JU-stice to  D-eeds G-eared towards ones Expression

Public Speaking: Giving an Impromptu Speech: Self Forgiveness for a Mind Pattern

I saw a mind pattern here  that I want to correct and share with others. I did not prepare for the talk yet said 'yes' when asked, so I was thinking of the possible subjects and structure  of the talk in my mind before the talk.

I Don't Know What To Talk About' Mind Pattern:
>I did not know I am going to talk
>I want to push myself to talk
>but I do not have the outline of the talk
>If I have the outline I can work from that
>but I don't
>this is scary
>why did I say yes
>Maybe I should not have said yes

What I saw In This Mind Pattern:
There's fear of not knowing what to talk about. I am pushing myself to talk - which is a form of manipulation  - acting out my fear. There's also fear that I do not have the outline of my talk and fear of speaking in the moment. There's a belief that I can only talk if I have an outline. There's a belief that I will be scared if I speak without an outline. There's self-blame for saying 'yes' to speak without an outline. There's doubt that I can pull it together.

Self-forgiveness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing what to talk about before my speech creating conflict within myself and in so doing put the body in a state of stress instead of realizing that I can allow myself to be uncomfortable, forgive myself for creating conflict within myself by figuring out in my mind whether 'I can or I can't'.   I commit myself  to after writing self-forgiveness, correct my living by physically giving the speech as I  communicate who I am and my story of change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to transcend my fear by acting out my fear - which is a way of manipulation, through giving a speech in a trembling voice and body instead of realizing I can stabilize myself by bringing myself here in physical reality, breathing in a stability and then giving the speech. I commit myself to identify the fear, forgive, correct and do the speech.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that not having an outline of my speech believing that through the outline, I can have a mental reference of what I will talk about so I can draw on that when I am speaking instead of realizing that  I do not need to go inside my mind when I am speaking. I commit myself to speak about what I see is the problem in this world and provide some solutions that worked for me aligned to what is mutually beneficial to all - humans, plants, animals etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking in the moment, believing that the structure of the speech should be known before I speak instead of realizing that this is what I learned from others and therefore this is information that was not tested by me. So, I commit myself to speak about something that I walked and tested where I give a message - my story of how I changed - that is aligned to what is mutually beneficial to all concerned.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that having an outline is better than having no outline - within an idea that a structured speech will be better understood by others rather than realize that understanding is based from knowing the nature and meaning of something within my own living - where they can observe how I live the words I speak and how i align it to what is best for all - which others can truly understand as inherent in my nature as a human lies the nature of other humans. So I commit myself to speak about the problems and the solutions I have applied in my life that worked for me in my speech.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will be scared if I speak without an outline - having heard others say this instead of realizing that a speech is me communicating my own story of change to others. So I commit myself to talk about what I have walked, what I saw and how I changed - realizing that since I walked this, I can draw on my experience whenever I decide to - as this is an integral part of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for saying 'yes' to speak - believing that because it is an impromptu speech, I can ran out of things to talk about, and when that happens, I will be shamed and will be disliked by the audience instead of realizing this is me projecting my own fear of being shamed and fear of being disliked to others. So, I commit myself to forgive and release these fears and when I see myself blaming myself within my mind for saying 'yes' to giving a speech - I stop, breathe and bring myself back here in physical reality, forgive and correct myself, then give a speech when I am stable and clear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt that I can pull an impromptu speech together believing that I am not good enough to deliver a speech in front of lawyers and educated people fearing that they will judge me as inferior instead of realizing that this is me projecting my own fears to others. So, I commit myself to forgive judging myself, correct and breathe through the perceived discomfort and push myself to give an impromptu speech.