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This is a continuation of Part 7
I will highlight the dimension i am working on in this blog with the color pink
Topic: Self-forgiving
me and correcting me in my living application standing equal with the
mind - realizing i can only change/stop that which i am equal to/as -
stopping mind participation to birth me here as equal to/as all Life
Specific Point: 'My Mind Relationship with the Guru'
What is Self-forgiveness?
Why am i using Mathematics?
I am using mathematical symbols to illustrate how i gave mind values instead of giving real values as the value of every manifestation as equal to the value that is Life
The Dimensions of the Mind:
Fear: Fear of not being able to go to India and see the guru
Conscious:
Thought : picture of me standing with wide eyes listening to the monk telling me i have to see Baba (the guru)
Imagination: 'me feeling something different/feeling blissful when i see him'
Reaction: Wonder
Subconscious
Backchat: 'there must be some magical feeling being with the guru'
Unconscious
Body Movement: upper part of chest feeling warm. eyes opening wide
Consequence: learning from how i developed a relationship with the guru - within existing as an energy experience that i believed was real when it is in fact existent within a relationship that is coming from a MIND simulated version of reality of the physical body and this physical existence.
Facing the consequence and breathing through it as i stand and change and birth me here as who i am
Intoducing The Quantum Mind
Introducing The Quantum Mind ( System) Systemization
Body Movement
upper part of chest feeling warm. eyes opening wide
Self-forgiveness:
upper part of chest feeling warm. eyes opening wide
Self-forgiveness:
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to particiopate in the design of/as
'fear of survival - as body movement'
fear not having body movement
that gives me a positive energy experience
as in -the upper part of my chest feeling warm
and my eyes opening wide
that gives me a positive energy experience
as in -the upper part of my chest feeling warm
and my eyes opening wide
believing that when i have a warm feeling in my upper chest
and my eyes are opening wide
i am expressing who i am as that happy self
that is alive
believing that the self expresses in a positive way
i am expressing who i am as that happy self
that is alive
believing that the self expresses in a positive way
believing that when i am happy
i exist and live life
i exist and live life
believing that for someone to live life
one has to be able to move ones body/physical
to express oneself within wonder and excitement
and other positive energy experiences
having wide eyes, warm feeling in the chest, smile etc.
believing that when i am sad
i retreat into a corner and cry
believing that that is the ego
believing the ego expresses in a negative way
within this, doubting who i am
one has to be able to move ones body/physical
to express oneself within wonder and excitement
and other positive energy experiences
having wide eyes, warm feeling in the chest, smile etc.
believing that when i am sad
i retreat into a corner and cry
believing that that is the ego
believing the ego expresses in a negative way
within this, doubting who i am
believing that i am split into 2
the ego as the sad me
experiencing negative energy experiences
and the self as the happy me
experiencing positive energy experiences
the ego as the sad me
experiencing negative energy experiences
and the self as the happy me
experiencing positive energy experiences
connecting an expressionless face
to a picture of DB, our house help when i was young
(memory of when i was 5-7 yrs old)
as he does not react in happiness or sadness
when my mom shouts at him
connecting an expressionless face to
inferiority, poverty and illiteracy
and within that fear of being expressionless
desiring to widen my eyes and feel warm on my upper chest
to have a positive energy experience
connecting this to my grandmother, my mom
characters in movies and on tv etc.
who react in excitement
when anticipating a future positive energy experience
to a picture of DB, our house help when i was young
(memory of when i was 5-7 yrs old)
as he does not react in happiness or sadness
when my mom shouts at him
connecting an expressionless face to
inferiority, poverty and illiteracy
and within that fear of being expressionless
desiring to widen my eyes and feel warm on my upper chest
to have a positive energy experience
connecting this to my grandmother, my mom
characters in movies and on tv etc.
who react in excitement
when anticipating a future positive energy experience
instead of realizing that
i am using the mind to manipulate the body/physical
to move in a certain way - within body movements
manipulating the body to justify my desire to go and see the guru
based from a belief that i will have a positive energy experience
when i do that
as the evil me
resourcing the body/physical
transforming nutrients to energy
transforming natural energy to unnatural energy
for the mind to exist
Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
doubt who i am
within the belief that
i am split into 2
the sad me as the ego
as the one
not having positive energy experience/ having negative energy experience
the one whose eyes are not opening wide
from 'wonder' or 'excitement'
but having droopy eyes and crying
based from
a past experience of being
powerless, useless and helpless
and the good me
as the one having a positive energy experience
the one whose eyes are opening wide
the one having a warm feeling on the upper chest
blaming the physical for
having positive and negative movements
believing gurus move in a special way and
believing devotees move in a normal way
believing gurus talk in a special way
and devotees talk in a normal way
believing that gurus have power
and 'normal people ' are powerless
using my mind
to manipulate the body
for my eyes to open wide
to have a warm feeling on my chest
to justify my desire
to see the guru
making that imagination real/physical
believing that if i experience it
in my body
it is real
the sad me as the ego
as the one
not having positive energy experience/ having negative energy experience
the one whose eyes are not opening wide
from 'wonder' or 'excitement'
but having droopy eyes and crying
based from
a past experience of being
powerless, useless and helpless
and the good me
as the one having a positive energy experience
the one whose eyes are opening wide
the one having a warm feeling on the upper chest
blaming the physical for
having positive and negative movements
believing gurus move in a special way and
believing devotees move in a normal way
believing gurus talk in a special way
and devotees talk in a normal way
believing that gurus have power
and 'normal people ' are powerless
using my mind
to manipulate the body
for my eyes to open wide
to have a warm feeling on my chest
to justify my desire
to see the guru
making that imagination real/physical
believing that if i experience it
in my body
it is real
not seeing and realizing that
i am the one giving positive and negative values
to humans/people
and their body movements
creating a positive or a negative energy experience
within myself
to them
not seeing and realizing that
i am the one using the mind
to manipulate my body
to justify my desire
to see the guru
i am the one giving positive and negative values
to humans/people
and their body movements
creating a positive or a negative energy experience
within myself
to them
not seeing and realizing that
i am the one using the mind
to manipulate my body
to justify my desire
to see the guru
Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
blame the physical
for having body movements
to express positive and negative energy experiences
believing that it is natural for the eyes to widen
when there's some wonderful and exciting things
happening in the future
believing it is natural for the upper chest to feel warm
when there's some wonderful and exciting things happening in the future
with the excuse that i have to survive
within positive body movements
not seeing and realizing that
it is me using my mind
to manipulate the eyes to open wide
and the upper chest to feel warm
in order for me to have a positive energy experience
for having body movements
to express positive and negative energy experiences
believing that it is natural for the eyes to widen
when there's some wonderful and exciting things
happening in the future
believing it is natural for the upper chest to feel warm
when there's some wonderful and exciting things happening in the future
with the excuse that i have to survive
within positive body movements
not seeing and realizing that
it is me using my mind
to manipulate the eyes to open wide
and the upper chest to feel warm
in order for me to have a positive energy experience
Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
have the excuse that i have to survive
within positive body movements
believing that the self
can express itself
by being happy and acting it out
justifying that by saying 'i have to be whole'
not realizing that
i am using the mind to manipulate the body
to open my eyes wide
and to feel warm on my upper chest
to justify my desire to see someone
who i gave a positive value to
and did not even ask myself these questions:
1. 'Do i have a mind beingness relationship
and a physical beingness relationship?
2. Is my beingness the mediator between the mind and the physical?
3. Is there some part of my beingness that was programmed within these relationships?
4. Is this my physical body patterning?
5. Are those physical behaviours a general presence of myself
that i physically resonate?
6. Is this standing of who i am also contributed by
those beingness energy relationships in my mind/consciousness
that keeps me in my presence
in my physical behavior
within a very certain way of being/way of behaving?
7. Is there some parts of my beingess that were deliberately programmed
into personality systems
to keep me as separate from my beingness
as possible?'
Quantum Mind Self Awareness 46
Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
justify this excuse by saying ' i have to be whole'
believing that if i use the mind
to manipulate the eyes to open wide
and to manipulate the upper chest to feel warm
to physically experience a feeling
that i imagined in my mind
i am becoming 'whole'
or happy as self
not seeing and realizing that
i am here as breath in every moment
standing as my mind
standing as the body/physical
writing, self-forgiving and correcting my living application
developing an equal and one relationship with the body/physical
to move the body/physical
as an expression of who i am here in the physical
and birthing myself here
as who i am
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Self -Correction Script
I commit myself to when and as i see myself
fearing not being able to open my eyes wide
fearing not having a warm feeling on my chest
to have a positive energy experience
i stop - i breathe
I realized that i am giving a positive value to
eyes opening wide
and feeling warm on my upper chest
connecting eyes opening wide
and feeling warm on my upper chest
to an experience of self
which does not compute
as i am here in every moment as breath
and can move the body
without using the mind
to manipulate it
to move in a certain way to justify my desire
I also realized that i have connected this to
pictures and movies i see which has actors and actresses
reacting that way when excited
and seeing my mom, my grandmother, family relatives etc.
acting that way when excited
and when they were expecting a positive event in the future
I realize that i am giving a negative value to my eyes not opening wide
and giving a negative value to not having a warm feeling on my upper chest
connecting an expressionless face to
a negative experience in the past
seeing a male house help in my house, DB
when i was young
who was illiterate, poor and having a job that is paid a lot less than other jobs
seeing him not reacting to my mom's anger
as something i want for myself but because of
seeing him as having very little money and being very poor
i saw him as inferior
and so connecting an expressionless/not moving face or body
to inferiority
using fuzzy logic
fearing being poor, illiterate and expressionless
fearing to experience the abuse they experience in the hands of their employers
being shouted at, having no private bedroom
having no right to express oneself
so desiring to express through using the mind to
manipulate the eyes to open wide
and to feel warm on the upper chest
to justify my desire to see the guru
to have a positive energy experience
I change my starting point and stabilize me as breath
and realize that who i am is here
and delete the pictures, desires etc.
standing within myself
stop the illusion of me as energy and realize
that who i am what i am and how i am
as substance/equality and oneness remains here/is here
and had always been here
I commit myself to when and as i see myself
doubting and being uncertain about who i am
within opening my eyes wide - believing it is me as self
and not opening my eyes wide - believing it is me as the ego
I stop - i breathe
Realization:
I equated eyes opening wide to being happy and equated being happy to self
I stabilize me as breath and assist me to accept and allow me to see/realize
that i am here as breath in every moment. I clap 2x and stomp my feet
to wake myself up.
I commit myself to when and as i see myself doubting and being uncertain about who i am
within having a warm feeling on my upper chest - believing it is as self
and not having a warm feeling on my upper chest - believing it is the ego
i stop - i breathe
Realization:
I equated warm feeling on my upper chest to being happy and equated being happy to being the self
I equated no warm feeling on my upper chest to being unhappy and equated being unhappy to being the ego
I assist myself to stabilize me as breath and realize who i am is here in every moment
I commit myself to when and as i see myself
blaming the physical for having body/physical movements
that express positive and negative energy experiences
i stop - i breathe
Realization:
It is me that has given positive value to eyes opening wide and chest feeling warm
so it is my self-responsibility to stop this
I assist myself to realize that these were mind values that are not real
as i made them up within my mind
and it is to develop an equal and one relationship with the body/physical and move as an expression of who i am, what i am and how i am as equal to all that is here that is the key.
I commit myself to when and as i see myself
having the excuse that i have to survive
as positive body movements
I stop - i breathe
Realization:
My desire for a positive energy experience
comes from fear of a negative energy experience
My desire to survive comes from fear of survival
I assist myself to face my fears
to through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application
birth myself here as a self-responsible human
I commit myself to when and as i see myself
justifying my excuse by saying ' i need to be whole'
using the mind to manipulate body/physical movements
to justify my desires
i stop- i breathe
Realization:
I have given a positive value to being 'whole' within balance in polarity
from an awareness of separation
within conflict and friction
from an awareness of separation
within conflict and friction
as i perceived a split in my beingness when i fear surviving
in a world of inequalityIt is to instead realize that i can be whole
without separating from the source
through conflict and friction
realizing that the key is to stop me as an illusion of consciousness
and realize that who i am, what i am and how i am remains/is here
and had always been here
It is to realize that i need to assist in establishing a world that truly honors life
based on equality
to support myself to not fear surviving in this world
and within that desire eternal life in the hereafter
fearing survival in this physical existence
so desires to have a comfortable existence in the hereafter
creating an idea that the guru will give me liberation
so i can run away from taking self-responsibility
to creating a world that truly honors life based on equality
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to support myself to not fear surviving in this world
and within that desire eternal life in the hereafter
fearing survival in this physical existence
so desires to have a comfortable existence in the hereafter
creating an idea that the guru will give me liberation
so i can run away from taking self-responsibility
to creating a world that truly honors life based on equality
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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Mind Values
Vs
Giving Values equal to Life
I realized i have given positive or negative values to the following
'as in
wide eyes = seeing the guru in the future = happiness = positive energy experience = +100
warm feeling on the chest = seeing the guru in the future = happiness = positive energy experience = +100
happiness = self = +1000
sadness = ego = -1000
Expressionless face ( DB ) = sadness = inferiority = poverty = illiteracy= death of personality = not surviving = not existing = -100
Face that is full of expression (eyes widening and feeling warm on upper chest - visible with hands on top of heart area) = AR (mother) and VS (grandmother) = happiness = superiority = literacy = life of personality = surviving = existing = +100
inequality = fear of survival = sadness = death of personality = - 100'
Not realizing that these values are not real
as i made them up in my mind
and it is to realize that who i am is here
and it is to develop an equal and one relationship with the body/physical
and move as an expression of who i am
and to assist in establishing a world that truly honors life
to be able to see that we an survive without needing to fear.
to be able to see that we an survive without needing to fear.
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