Sexuality: The Female, The Male, The Gay and The Lesbian Gay 256

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Self-forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate  in the design of/as 'fear of survival
- as sex-  as information and knowledge

fear homosexuals
believing they are lost and confused
believing that lesbians have a vagina like me
believing they want to call themselves lesbians rather than females
believing that gays are males with penis
believing they want to call themselves gays rather than males
desiring to be a normal female
believing that lesbians and gays are not honest about their sexuality
believing that they are pretending to be another sex
believing that they want to call themselves something which they are not
lost and confused which gives this world confusion

having a memory of a friend when i was in elementary
writing me
that she is attracted to me
not knowing why she's a girl wanting another girl
confused about what that meant

doubting who i am
uncertain what homosexuals
really are
whether they are females or males

blaming the physical
for creating lesbians, gays, females and males
not seeing and realizing
that i am the one giving them definition
within my mind
defining  what it means to be female, male, lesbian or gay

giving the excuse that i have to survive
as a female separate from a male
as a female separate from a lesbian and gay
and justifying that by saying i need to be whole
i need to be able to have a definite identity
as a female
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Commitment To Correction Script

I commit myself to
when and as i see myself
desiring a definite identity
as a female opposite a male

I stop
I breathe

I realized that this is me fearing
not having a definite sexual identity
desiring to have a definite identity

believing i am secure when i have identity
believing i have to have a definition
that makes me different from everyone

fearing to be equal and one
to all that is here

fearing equality
not seeing and realizing
the body of a male consist of cells which consist of atoms consisting of substance
the body of a female consist of cells which consist of atoms consisting of substance
the body of a lesbian consist of cells which consist of atoms consisting of substance
the body of a gay consist of cells which consist of atoms consisting of substance
equal and one
to the body of nature
the body of plants
the body of animals

Realizing that
lesbians = Life
gays = Life
females = Life
males = Life

and that the value of all that is here is equal to the value of/as Life