Decoding Female Programming: Day 263: Excuse

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Me as The Female Personality
Relationships and Sexual Programming:


>Fear of loss/not surviving as a female personality
>>Desire to be attracted to a male ormales be attracted to me
>>>Desire to have a relationship with a male
>>>>Desire to have sex with a male
>>>>>Satisfaction, i am complete as a female
>>>>>>Excuse: I have to survive as a female

Note: The fear of losing the female personality comes up when one does not have a relationship (or when one is dissatisfied with a partner etc.) which fuels the desire to be attracted to a male or desire for males to be attracted to me.
One then extends this desire by desiring a relationship with a male and then desiring to have sex with a male.
One gets a positive experience from this.
The question is : Is this who i really  am?
That, i did not ask myself. I forgot that the positive came from a negative - a fear.
I did not investigate where that fear originated.
I did not see the pattern (part of my female programming)
I  accepted and allowed it.
Then, i gave an excuse why it is okay for me to participate in this mind pattern.
I lived like a female  being directed by the mind, rather than a self-directive human female expressing
oneself here

The starting point of this is self-interest and not what is best for all life.

In this blog, i am writing self-forgiveness for having this excuse as part of my process of self-perfection

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Why am i using Self-forgiveness?
http://juneroca.com/my-process/self-forgiveness/

I am using  self-forgiveness and writing a correction script to follow and correct myself  in my living participation

 Why am I Using Mathematics?
I am using mathematical symbols at the end of this post to show that the MIND values i have given are NOT REAL, showing the real value of ALL is/as Life.

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Self-forgiveness Statement:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to participate in the design of fear of survival - as sex

have the excuse that
i have to survive as a female
desiring attraction to a male
desiring males to be attracted to me
desiring relationship with a male
desiring having good sex with a male

believing that I will lose my female identity/personality
If i do not desire attraction  to a male/males being attracted to me
If i do not desire relationship with a male
If i do not desire having good sex with a male
If i do not desire getting married with a male
If i do not have a baby with the male i am married to

believing I will not survive as a female

not seeing and realizing that  
I am here as breath in every moment
as presence, as movement, as sensation
and that i can express myself  as a female equal to the male expression

Realizing
that i do not really need to have an excuse
that i can take self-responsibility

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Commitment: 
Self-Correction Script:

I commit myself to when and as I see myself having the excuse
that I will lose my female personality/not survive as a female
I stop
I breathe

I realize that

I defined myself into creation

I defined myself within birth and death as the beginning and the end
I defined myself as a female separate from a male
defining myself within a polarity equation
so forgive myself for my acceptances and allowances
and correct myself breath by breath
moment by moment


Realizing that
the fear of losing the female identity/personality
is fueling
the desire for having a female identity/personality

I assist myself to
face that fear
walk back and look at the problem, provide a solution
redefine words 
see that there is a reward in transcending my fear
birthing me here as who i really am
not directed by the mind
self-directive
 
I assist myself to see that there is nothing to lose
as there was nothing real gained
for having a female personality
I imagined it in my mind

I assist myself to 
write a self-correction script
and live that
taking myself by the hand
assist myself to 'walk out of the mind'
moment by moment
breath by breath


Realize that I am here as breathe in every moment
I am that beingness/ awareness
that is merged with the body and the mind

so I forgive myself for mind participation
correct myself in my living participation
and release my beingness

to through writing, self-forgiveness and self - corrective applicatrion
birth me here as life

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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values
Vs
Giving Values Equal To Life

I realized i had given mind values and formed mind equations

'as in

female + male =complete/whole = +100
female - male = incomplete/ half complete = -100

complete female = attraction with a male+ relationship with a male +good  sex with a male = security = eternal happiness =eternal survival as a female personality = +1000

where
eternal happiness = eternal survival as a female personality= +1000'

I realized that 
I had given words such as ''male', 'female', complete', 'incomplete', 'half,' 'whole' etc. 
mind values that are not real
I made up a mind equation within my mind that is not real
it has no real physical existence

Realizing that i can rewrite the book i have written within myself
I can rescript the movie within my mind
from the starting point of self-interest
to  a starting point of what is best for all life

to through writing, self-forgiveness and self correction birth me here as life

Realizing that
the value of a female body = Life
the value of a male body = Life
the value of all that is here = Life

Realizing that
The body of the female
and the body of the male
consist of cells which consist of atoms
consisting substance
that ALL consist of

All = Life

The Word 'Penis' Day 259 Word Connection Mathematics

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The Word 'Penis'                                        

Topic:

Releasing the energy charge and equalizing myself with the word 'penis'
as who i am in relation to symbols that form words and sentences which i use to express myself here - as i birth myself as Life

Why am I Using Mathematics?
I am using mathematical symbols at the end of this post to show an example of MIND values i have given the words i connected to the word  'penis' - which are NOT REAL  and showing the real value of words as living words.

 Why am i using Self-forgiveness?
 http://juneroca.com/my-process/self-forgiveness/

I am using  self-forgiveness and writing a commitment to correct myself in how i use this word in my living application
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Self-forgiveness Statements:
Separation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word penis through giving it a positive value
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word penis through giving it a negative value

Charging It with A Positive and a Negative Value
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word penis with a positive value
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word penis with a negative value  
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Positive Connections/Definitions 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word sex
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word sex

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word hard
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word hard

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word
dick
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word dick

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word
satisfaction
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word satisfaction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word
long
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word long

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word baby
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word baby

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Negative Connections/Definitions
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word pain
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word pain

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word short
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word short

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word long
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word long

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word pregnancy
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word pregnancy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word cum
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word cum

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word  anal
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word anal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word head
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word head

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word penis to the word odor
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word penis within the word odor

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to resonate and experience the word 'penis'
over and over again
into the very physical body
rippling through into the water
and actually program the very physical
from the depths of the physical itself

I commit myself to redefine the word 'penis'
and live the redefined meaning of the word
equal to my expression
as who I am, what I am and how I am

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Commitment to Correction Script

I commit myself to through writing, self-forgiveness 
and self-corrective application
recreate myself 
by rescripting the movie in my mind
rewriting the book within myself
releasing the positive and negative charge
I had given the word
redefining the words i speak and write
redefining the word 'penis' 
and using it to mean that part
of the physical/body 
equal to the body of nature
equal to the substance 
that is equal to the substance all consist of
as who i am
using it as equal to my expression

to rather than define the word within
sex, satisfaction etc.
see the word 'penis' as what it is

develop an equal and one relationship with the physical/body
as who i am

I assist myself to before using the word 
be clear within myself
making sure there are no movements within myself
making sure i release the charge 
i had given the word
forgive myself and correct myself 
in my living participation
change my starting point
from self-interest to what is best for all life


I commit myself to when i fear losing
using the word 'penis'
to win
by giving the word a value more than life
desiring satisfaction and sex
rather than face my fear of pregnancy

I stop
I breathe

I assist myself to
realize i am not defined by the word 'penis'
change my starting point from fearof survival/loss
to what is best for all

I assist myself to 
accept and allow me to use pure sound
and integrate it
into a beingness physical level
in equality and oneness
that self will become that word
as a living remembrance of it
as who i am,how i am and what i am

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Quote:
'to resonate and experience that word or such a memory
over and over and over again and because it resonates
over and over again into the very physical body
it ripple through into the water
and actually program the very physical from the depths of
the physical itself'
Parenting Perfecting The Human Race Part 6
https://eqafe.com/i/jroca-parenting-perfecting-the-human-race-part-6
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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values
Vs
Giving Values Equal to Life

I realized that i had given the word 'penis'
positive and negative values
through connecting/defining the word 
to/within other words
'as in

Positive Connections/Definitions

sex = +100

hard =+100
dick =+100
satisfaction = +100
long= =+10
baby=+100


Negative Connections/Definitions

pain =\-100
long = - 50
pregnancy= -100
short = -100
cum = -50
anal = -50
head = -50
odor = -50'

I realized that these values
i had given these words
are mind values
that are not real

Realizing that the word 'penis'
consist of letters as symbols
that we sound
as who we are, what we are and how we are
realizing that 
the definition
I give words
is how i see myself, others and this world

Realizing that the value of all that is here
including symboks as letters as words
is equal to Life

All = Life
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  Quote:
 '...how one will be able to use pure sound and integrate it into a beingness physical level in equality and onesness that  self will become that word as a living remembrance of it...'
Parenting: Perfecting the Human Race Part 2
 https://eqafe.com/i/jroca-parenting-perfecting-the-human-race-part-2