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He is to me the sound
I don't want to hear - my secret mind
The 'Beast'

The sound i 'rejected'

So, as i here ('hear') the sound/voice
that talks about
inequality
self-dishonesty
consumerism
relationships
new age spirituality - as 'love and light' - as deception
etc.
being spoken

It shattered my 'love and light' world

I investigated
inequality
the secret mind
consumerism
relationships
self-dishonesty
the deception within new age spirituality
etc.

I started seeing the facts
what the world system is about
and how i created it
within my own acceptances and allowances
in 'my within' - as the mind

I realized it is important
to talk and write about my secret mind
so all may see and hear
what we all refuse to see and hear
to come to a point of being self-honest about
who we have become - as the personality

I realized my secret mind is no secret anymore

I started  writing what 'i don't want' to write

I started writing about my fears, my thoughts, my backchats
etc.

I started to see my ego
as who i have become
as the personality
that stands for 'what is best for me'
as the me, I and myself personality
one who only cares about 'my family'
'my friends', 'my group'

I started to rewrite myself

I started to stop participating
in 'yoga and meditation' where i used
self-hypnosis and imagination to create a bubble
of  'love is all there is'
when the world is full of
human right abuses
animal right abuses
plant right abuses etc.

I started to challenge my beliefs

I started investigating who i have become

I saw
my fears
my thoughts
my backchats
my reactions
my behaviors
my judgments
my beliefs
my excuses
my justifications
me blaming others
my self-dishonesty
my starting point which is self-interest etc.

Investigating the things i don't want to see nor hear nor write

I started to see that i connected words to other words
and defined words within other words

I started to see that i judge others

I started to see my fears

I started to see that i manipulated my behavior to do what
my mind wants to do

I started to see how i react to others

I started to hear my backchats that i tried to cover-up with 'love and light' for 29 years

I started to look at my thoughts

I started to look at my food programming
which relates to my involvement in the following:

breatharianism
rawfoodism
vegetarianism
veganism
fruitarianism
liquidarianism
sungazing etc.

'desiring to become' the 'special' personality
that is believed to be 'more than' who i really am

not seeing and realizing
that that desire is fueled by my fear of losing
in a world of competition
in a world of inequality
in a world where survival is not guaranteed for all from birth to death

not seeing and realizing
i am a human
equal to all humans, equal to all animals, equal to all plants,  etc.

by virtue of the fact that
we are made of the same substance = the dust of the earth

I started to forgive myself
and started committing to
correcting myself

I started directing myself
to apply myself practically
and live
in  this physical world
based on commonsense

I started to see that
what is best for all
is really what is best for me

I saw that
what i accepted and allowed in this world
does not benefit all - and that it is based on self-interest

As i started rewriting the words i started rewriting myself

As i started rewriting myself
and started directing myself to change in my physical world

I started to see some changes

I started to see what living means

I started to see that it is possible to birth a new me

I started to see that it is possible to birth a new world

A world that stands for what is best for all

BEAST as Standing for What is BEST for All

Bernard Quotes:

'I commit myself to show, that Life as ‘lifestyle’ as origin as source as resource, is Given: Equally – to every Body of Life; and that dominion is to those that are able to distribute this which is Given Freely, Equally to All – that no-one may need or desire anything that will cause this separation that now exist as ‘lifestyle’ on Earth.' 

'I commit myself to Call on those claiming to be experts in Economics, to remove their Fears and prejudices, and to walk in Forgiveness for what they have allowed on Earth, and to rectify the situation so that All Life may be Equal at the table, prepared for Each One to have enough to Eat and Drink, and to have a Home and a lifestyle worth Living to such measure that that is the Inheritance they give to All Children that may ever be born on Earth for All Time – as that is the Foundation of Eternal Peace and Love on Earth'

Bernard Poolman

2012: Redefining Trust Part 39 Day 78

Redefining TRUST 

My Partner's Blog on the same subject: Redefining Trust
http://leonperry.com/?p=2551

According to the Dictionary, Trust is
 

reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence

This definition is limiting my expression as who i am. This is a definition coming from the ego-personality.

I am redefining it and giving it meaning equal to who i am - as all life.
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Redefining TRUST

(decons-T-ruct patterns and R-econstruct  and birth yo-U as S-elf Trust)

The reliance on the integrity of someone or something separate from oneself - where one defines oneself within ones positive and negative experiences of the word where it is connected to winning and losing and directed by that definition defines another based on that - trusting another that will give oneself that needed security and safety. Based on how one defines another according to form, color, relation etc. one either gives it or receives it -defined within the polarity of integrity or no integrity, strength or no strength, ability or no ability etc. This has no real physical existence as this was created in ones mind. This is not real.
This is a definition coming from the ego-personality separate from all life.

I am redefining this word and giving it meaning equal to who i am as self - to live and express me as this word.

Looking at oneself,  one walks ones process of self-perfection. Sees the commonsense in knowing oneself - looks at how one created ones mind patterns - realizes that one has to stop ones participation in ones mind - looks at ones thoughts, words, backchats, body movements etc.- decides to stop the mind using self-forgiveness for participating in beliefs, judgments,etc. and redefines words - which one separated oneself from  - to give it meaning equal to who one is, as all life- and commits to self correction in every moment of breath -  applying oneself daily - restores confidence in oneself and others as self -  lives as self-trsut. 

Realizing that one has to align who one is within and without - one assists in establishing a world that truly honors life based on equality.

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GUIDE to REDEFINING WORDS:
http://juneroca.com/words/redefining-words/
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Quotes:

'I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and embrace the clear certainty that the Beginning was the Word and that the Word was God, implying and stating that i as a creation and Creator of words are in fact The God of Words'

From: Creation's Journey To life Day 5

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/04/day-5-in-beginning-was-god.html

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'What is clear about words that are defined within and as self as polarized words, are that they are reactive in nature. Meaning when carrying a negatively or positively charged word within and as self, this polarity charged word will ‘react’ within its environment  seeking out designs of ‘homeostasis’ or ‘winning’.  The consequential outflows of negatively and positively charged words are predetermined in that they follow a specific pre-programmed path.'

'It is thus common sense to realize that, what we place as definitions within and as ourselves is what we manifest within the expression of ourselves. This is why we redefine words; to find the living expression evident in each word from the principle of oneness and equality. As we look at a word we are moving ourselves through the word to see what it represents and what it stands for as a living expression. By assigning a definition to the word we are developing our vocabulary by placing within the definitions, living definitions that stand free from polarity which are able to stand as living expressions of the words that we have redefined.' ~ 

'I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through the acceptance and allowance of the polarity game experience the positive polarity charge as a winning experience as well as the negative polarity charge as a losing experience within and as myself in the different contexts within which they presented themselves as.'

From Earth's Journey to Life Blog Day 6 

http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/05/redefining-words-part-3-experience-of.html

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I commit myself to – through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application – assist and support me to purify my words from energy/experience of the negative, neutral and positive, and re-align my words into and as physical practical living; where the words no more exist within and as energy – furthering/evolving the Mind and influencing/affecting others within my world deliberately to evoke/initiate/instigate within them and/or me experiences of and as energy as the competition between the Minds within the weapons of words, used/abused in the interest and survival of and as the Mind of Energy only. But that the words I am exist as Living Substance/Living Flesh as the equal and one living of words visibly within and as me and my world, where the Words I speak stand absolute as who I am in and as my physical equality and oneness. To so also stop the separation existent within the very Words I use, where words I speak out loud – differ from the words I speak silently within; simply indicating the extent to which we exist in separation/two worlds of the Mind and the Physical, where we’re one personality of Mind within ourselves and another in the without of Ourselves.
From Heaven Journey To Life 65

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/femininity-and-masculinity-day-65.html