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He is to me the sound
I don't want to hear - my secret mind
The 'Beast'

The sound i 'rejected'

So, as i here ('hear') the sound/voice
that talks about
inequality
self-dishonesty
consumerism
relationships
new age spirituality - as 'love and light' - as deception
etc.
being spoken

It shattered my 'love and light' world

I investigated
inequality
the secret mind
consumerism
relationships
self-dishonesty
the deception within new age spirituality
etc.

I started seeing the facts
what the world system is about
and how i created it
within my own acceptances and allowances
in 'my within' - as the mind

I realized it is important
to talk and write about my secret mind
so all may see and hear
what we all refuse to see and hear
to come to a point of being self-honest about
who we have become - as the personality

I realized my secret mind is no secret anymore

I started  writing what 'i don't want' to write

I started writing about my fears, my thoughts, my backchats
etc.

I started to see my ego
as who i have become
as the personality
that stands for 'what is best for me'
as the me, I and myself personality
one who only cares about 'my family'
'my friends', 'my group'

I started to rewrite myself

I started to stop participating
in 'yoga and meditation' where i used
self-hypnosis and imagination to create a bubble
of  'love is all there is'
when the world is full of
human right abuses
animal right abuses
plant right abuses etc.

I started to challenge my beliefs

I started investigating who i have become

I saw
my fears
my thoughts
my backchats
my reactions
my behaviors
my judgments
my beliefs
my excuses
my justifications
me blaming others
my self-dishonesty
my starting point which is self-interest etc.

Investigating the things i don't want to see nor hear nor write

I started to see that i connected words to other words
and defined words within other words

I started to see that i judge others

I started to see my fears

I started to see that i manipulated my behavior to do what
my mind wants to do

I started to see how i react to others

I started to hear my backchats that i tried to cover-up with 'love and light' for 29 years

I started to look at my thoughts

I started to look at my food programming
which relates to my involvement in the following:

breatharianism
rawfoodism
vegetarianism
veganism
fruitarianism
liquidarianism
sungazing etc.

'desiring to become' the 'special' personality
that is believed to be 'more than' who i really am

not seeing and realizing
that that desire is fueled by my fear of losing
in a world of competition
in a world of inequality
in a world where survival is not guaranteed for all from birth to death

not seeing and realizing
i am a human
equal to all humans, equal to all animals, equal to all plants,  etc.

by virtue of the fact that
we are made of the same substance = the dust of the earth

I started to forgive myself
and started committing to
correcting myself

I started directing myself
to apply myself practically
and live
in  this physical world
based on commonsense

I started to see that
what is best for all
is really what is best for me

I saw that
what i accepted and allowed in this world
does not benefit all - and that it is based on self-interest

As i started rewriting the words i started rewriting myself

As i started rewriting myself
and started directing myself to change in my physical world

I started to see some changes

I started to see what living means

I started to see that it is possible to birth a new me

I started to see that it is possible to birth a new world

A world that stands for what is best for all

BEAST as Standing for What is BEST for All

Bernard Quotes:

'I commit myself to show, that Life as ‘lifestyle’ as origin as source as resource, is Given: Equally – to every Body of Life; and that dominion is to those that are able to distribute this which is Given Freely, Equally to All – that no-one may need or desire anything that will cause this separation that now exist as ‘lifestyle’ on Earth.' 

'I commit myself to Call on those claiming to be experts in Economics, to remove their Fears and prejudices, and to walk in Forgiveness for what they have allowed on Earth, and to rectify the situation so that All Life may be Equal at the table, prepared for Each One to have enough to Eat and Drink, and to have a Home and a lifestyle worth Living to such measure that that is the Inheritance they give to All Children that may ever be born on Earth for All Time – as that is the Foundation of Eternal Peace and Love on Earth'

Bernard Poolman

Independent Investigation Report: Part 1 Process: Desteni Is Not A Scam Day 325

Group: Desteni
 http://.desteni.org

Eye Witness Report:

Name: June Roca
Birthday: June 24, 1959
Age: 54
Nationality: Filipino
Profession: Health Coach 
Institute of Integrative Nutrition



Insider Report

Is Desteni's Process Real?
I had been doing self-forgiveness for 5 and a half years using the tool of self-forgiveness and self-correction in my living and i am making a report of what i found as an independent investigative reporter of this process which when i bring the memories back here is rather funny because in the beginning of my process i was experimenting on the process of self-forgiveness and feared their message because it challenged everything i believed.  I doubted whether their message is real, but as I faced who i have become as my mind, which i separated myself from believing it was less than me, i realized that standing equal to my mind is an essential part of embracing the whole of me as life.

Rather than resist the evil me/ego as the mind, i started to use it as a map to guide me in walking back to see where my fears started. I was not used to doing this myself because i had a guru for 29 years, but as i forgave myself for giving my power away to the guru, and as i investigated this self-perfection process, i gained confidence in myself seeing firsthand through looking at who i have become as the mind that no one can do this for me but me, because i created me as the personality/ego and that what i created in 'my within' as the mind is what i created in 'my without' as this world system and that i did this using words so i can rewrite myself through words and recreate myself as one who stands for what is best for all. I documented my investigation and this process in these blogs:

My Main Blog:
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com
My Food Blog:
http://foodandnutritionjunejourneytolife.blogspot.com
My Animal Blogs:
http://animalsjunejourneytolife.blogspot.com/
My Filipino Blogs
 http://tagalogjunejourneytolife.blogspot.com/




Benefits Witnessed as an Insider: 

*I learned how to stand for What is Best for All Life
Rather than decide from the point of self-interest, i learned how to stand for what is best for all Life which i realized is essentially what is best for myself also as this to me is what life is about. This is what i had been 'looking for'. I attended many groups in this lifetime but no one has clearly pointed this out but Desteni.

They also showed me that this can be applied in my daily life as i stopped judging vegetarian meat as better than animal meat . This i resisted in the beginning because i had been vegetarian for 29 yrs., but as i investigate the real meaning of the phrase, 'what is best for all', i realized this is an application of who i really am - as part of the whole that is Life as all that is birthed here - is my equal, the plants, the animals etc.I started to document my findings in my Food blog:

http://foodandnutritionjunejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/02/animal-meat-vs-veggie-meat-mathematics.html

*I learned how to Redefine Words
Desteni is the real leader in redefining this existence for what is best for all as words can be used functional mechanism to express what is best for all. Words are at present being used  to create bias or partiality which stops one from seeing the real world objectively through creating a polarity energy load within manipulating words, influencing people energetically to change people's model of behavior and people's decision making process. I am redefining words and redefining myself in the process  - as who I really am - as part of the Whole - as Life, assisting myself to change within spoken and written words, and redefining my practical living.

Here are some words i redefined:
Nutrition:
 http://foodandnutritionjunejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/redefining-nutrition-day-18.html
Eating:
 http://foodandnutritionjunejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/07/redefining-word-eating-day-118.html
 Healthy:
 http://foodandnutritionjunejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/07/redefining-word-healthy-day-119.html

*I realized i created myself 
I realized that i created myself in my investigation of me as my mind in 'my within' as the mind and in 'my without' as this world system by looking at my fears, thoughts etc. enabling me to take self-responsibility for all parts of oneself - as all Life, using self-forgiveness and self-corrective application.

*I learned how to walk back and trace the origin of my FEARS
I learned how to look at my fears which i normally cover up through meditation, yoga etc. learning how i can be stable as breath to face my fears  and using Desteni tools like self-forgiveness - so i  do not keep running away from it- to instead of desiring the opposite to evolve my mind, i look at the problem and provide solutions to the problems i created within my mind and this existence as a whole from a starting point of what is best for all.

*I learned to take self-responsibility for me - as All Life
I learned how to use the tool of self-forgiveness and self-correction in ones living
realizing that self is the creator and the 'created' instead of deciding from the starting point of self-interest as fear of survival in a world of inequality - to change my starting  point to what is best for all.

Continued

 

2012: 'Who Am I?' I Am The 'Jealous Food' Character I Chose To Become Day 111

The 'Jealous Food' Character

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I am Stepping out of Character using Self-forgiveness and Commitment to Correction For What Is Best for All Which Is Essentially What Is best For Me

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Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to steal food from 2 of my friend's bottled food given by their mom - because the sweet that i have are not as good as their sweets .
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to design competition within comparing what food they have with what food i have - judging my food as less than myself and their food as more than myself - defining myself within - food tasting good and food tasting bad
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within food tasting good and food tasting bad.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have positive energy experiences through food that taste good coming from a negative energetic experience of my food tasting bad  - not realizing that  food is being eaten to support the body to survive optimally.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire the positive experience of me with eating 'bukayo ' or sweet coconut dessert native to my country.

Self-commitment:

I commit myself to when and as i see myself designing competition within comparison, judgment and jealousy   - through taking another's food- i stop - i breathe - and breathe in and as the energy and breathe out the energy as me within and as my body - to/as the earth - and assist myself through writing, self-forgiveness and commitment to correction - to stop this character - realizing that food is here for the body to survive..

I commit myself to when and as i see myself desiring positive energy experiences from food tasting good coming from a negative experience of food tasting bad - i stop - i breathe and assist myself to see that food is here to assist the body to survive -and not to be desired.

I commit myself to see/realize and understand that sugar stimulates the mind - and that it is not about demonizing sugar either but to be intimate with and as the body cross-referencing what it needs and does not need to function optimally - and me honoring and respecting that in my choice of food.

2012: The Body 'Who Am I?' I Am The 'Madonna Nipple' Character We Chose To Become Day 98

Related Blogs:

The 'Who Am I?' Character

Redefining The 'I'  

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Self-forgiveness

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This Blog Is The Continuation of these Blogs:

The 'Judging The Breast' Character

  The 'Nipple' Character

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Stepping Out Of The Collective Characters I Chose To Become:

In the previous blog, i took self-responsibility for me as the 'nipple as pleasure' character.  In this blog, i am taking responsibility for the collective characters i support by living through the 'nipple as pleasure' character - as i walk my process of self-perfection.

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Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself  'as Madonna' that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the 'Madonna nipple' character - earn money capitalizing on our collective desires to accumulate positive energy experiences - desiring  pleasure and satisfying that - from sucking nipples and looking at nipples because we had been so suppressed by religion and our idea of 'morality' that we made nipples a commodity - a part of the body - which is made from the same substance all are made of - same substance as the dust of the earth - is being idolized and specialized - in an alternate reality - that is the mind - separate from the flesh/physical - as the alternate version of who we are - believing it is us - not realizing we are the flesh/physical - made from the same substance the earth is made of - as all are made of - equal and one - doubting who we are - asking, 'there must be more than me, as here?' - uncertain of who we are - having fear of losing that accumulated positive energy experiences in the alternate reality that is the mind - we spite the flesh - as who we really are - within blame - with the excuse that we have to survive in this world and earn money by making a commodity out of the flesh/physical as the flashing of the nipple in my show - so I 'as 'Madonna' as the character - as all characters in this world can survive - as I 'as Madonna' entertain  me as all of me - as we all justify our existence as the alternate version of ourselves - in the alternate reality that is the mind - not seeing/realizing and understanding that i am here as the flesh/physical made from the same substance all are made of - equal to all that exist - able to stop my desires using self-forgiveness - through this, i forgive myself  'as the audience'  that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire watching Madonna flashing her nipples as i accumulate 'positive energy experiences' from watching her - and correcting i 'as ourselves' moment by moment, breath by breath - where we live as who we are as the flesh/ as the physical - and assist in establishing a world where money will be given to all equally - so we will not have to earn money to survive - so we will not have to act out a 'Madonna nipple' character - that flashes the nipple to make money - making a commodity out of the flesh/physical - as we 'as the audience' will - instead of watching nipples - be looking at who we really are - as the self - equal to all that exist - and realise that we are made from the same substance - the nipple is made of - so instead of watching Madonna flash her nipple, we will express ourselves in an agreement with someone - and explore our body as equals - in a world based on equality - bringing heaven into as earth

I forgive myself  'as the media' that i have accepted and allowed myself to make money out of the 'Madonna nipple' character as i 'as the media' become the 'i am making money out of collective desire for nipples' character - justifying my existence 'as the media's existence' by making money out of people's desires for nipples and other parts of the body that people normally hide because of 'religious' or 'moral' reasons - spiting the flesh/physical - the very substance we all are made of - through hiding or flashing different parts of the body for money - to instead assist in establishing a world based on equality - where all will have all the basic necessities we need to survive - so we will not have to make money out of flashing nipples and other body parts just so we can survive in an unequal monetary system that we now exist in.

  Self-commitment

I commit myself to expose the collective characters we have become- desiring to make money out of flashing nipples 

I commit myself to expose the collective characters we have become - desiring to look at nipples and pay money to watch it.

I commit myself to - through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - assist myself to stop the 'nipple as pleasure'character that create the collective characters that make this world the way it is.

2012 Redefining the Word 'Grandmother' Part 3 Day 41

Part 1

Part 2

Webster defines the word grandmother as :
Mother of one's father or mother

(Goodness R-ant And M-e with the O- ther-T-here not Her-e)

This definition is limited.
When one perceives oneself separate from all that exist - where one judge another as more than or less than who one really is - this is not best for all.

I am redefining it and giving it meaning equal to who i am as all life - a definition i can live

Redefining the word Grandmother:

Mother of ones mother or father

who perceives all as equal to Life by virtue of the fact that we are all born in this world
and that we are made of the same substance- dust, water, clay.

Perceives the sons and daughters, family etc. as oneself

Births oneself as life.

2012: My Grandmother Part 2 Day 40

References:

 Part 1

Part 2

In Part 1 i did self-forgiveness for how i experienced my grandmother. In this blog i will do self-forgiveness for connecting her name to other names and defining it within other words which make me see her more than or less than what/who she is - not realizing she is equal to all that exist - as all are made of the same substance that all are made of. These are the names of her children and grandchildren. I put only their initials. I am releasing that limited definition i gave the word grandmother - realizing that the word grandmother - is equal to all that exist - as life. Making the word grandmother more than what it is within judgment and projecting that to who she really is - is abusing her through my words. Words are symbols.  We live them as who we are as life - as the living words.
 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word VD
I forgive myself that i  have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word OD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word AR

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word JD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word AD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word DD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word  BD
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word RD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word JR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word NR
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word SR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word TP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word KP
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word EDP
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word EJP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word DR
I forgive myself that i  have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word BR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word EP
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word WR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word DRAD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word GD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word ANND
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word DEZD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word LD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word RD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word GD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word MOLAD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word  ABID
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word ROD

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within  the word WR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word EP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word BR
I forgive myself that  i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word DR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word EJP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word EDP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word KP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word TP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word SR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word  grandmother within the word NR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word JR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word RD
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word BD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word DD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word ASD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word JD
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word AD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word OD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word VD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word DRAD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word GID
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word GLD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word
ROD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word DAD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word DED
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word LID
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word AND
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to  define the word grandmother within the word ROD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word ABD

2012: My Grandmother Part 1 Day 39

My Grandmother
Part 2
Part 3

In this blog, i will do self-forgiveness for  perceiving my grandmother separate from me - and judging her as more than or less than me - as i identify as the ego-personality - defined within an experience based on beliefs, judgments etc. I will also do self-forgiveness for other points of separation - i see as i blog. 

This is how i assist myself to stop the mind - and birth me here as all life.This is how i release me from a limited definition of the word grandmother. Judging her as the 'best' grandmother is defining her within how i see her - as separate from who i am - instead of realizing she is equal to all that exist - as me as all life.

Self-forgiveness Statements:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my grandmother as more than me and me less than her- believing that because she gave birth to my mom and my mom gave birth to me -  i will not be alive if not because of her and my mom - as i identify as the ego-personality - separate from all life -defined within knowledge and information about life and death


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my grandmother as more than me and me less than her - comparing her to me and others - believing that because she took care of me when i was young, when i cannot take care of myself  - she is good because without her i could not have been alive - as i identify as the ego-personality -perceived  separate from her and all parts of me as life - defined within knowledge and information about who i am - so fearing death/not existing without her.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my grandmother as more than me and me less than her  - believing that because she took care of me when my mother was not around - she is good-  because i fear not existing/dying - as i defined myself within knowledge and information - as the ego-personality - believing that i will die if no one will take care of me - not realizing that i am here as breath in every moment with or without a human form

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my grandmother as more than me and me less than her - believing that she is good and i am not as good/bad- defining myself within comparison, judgment and jealousy - with her as the smell of her hair - as her hair smells like lime - when she finishes taking a bath - because she uses lime juice to rinse her hair off - and within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the smell of lime as more than other citrus smell - as i connected it to the smell of my grandmother's hair - within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to design competition within comparison, judgment and jealousy - with the lime - as i identify as the ego-personality - not realizing that i am equal to all that exist - as we are all made from the same substance all are made of.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself  to judge my grandmother as more than me and me less than her when she punishes me for not doing what i am supposed to do - when she ask me to do something - believing that she has the right to punish me because i did something wrong - then judge her as less than me - within backchat - believing she is cruel for punishing me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my grandmother punishing me by making me kneel in coarse salt with my hand stretched to the side  - when i do not do what i am asked to do - blaming her and spiting her for experiencing the pain.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to pity my grandmother because she is living alone and is being given the task of taking care of most of her grandchildren - including me, my sister and my brother.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself  to have the idea that my grandmother is a super hero because she was able to raise many grandchildren in her lifetime - defining myself within specialness - which is in essence arose out of comparing her with other women/mother, then judging her.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be guilty about taking a dime out of her sewing machine drawer - hiding it at first and then telling her later - that i used it to buy sweets that will make me feel good  - and accepting and allowing that dishonesty because i am her grandchild - believing that grandmothers love their grandchildren - justifying it by saying 'she's okay with it' - where i am defining love within self-dishonesty - with people who i have strong family/relationship ties.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand that when i allow that small act of dishonesty in my life because of relationship tie - i support a personality systems based on that same point.

I commit myself to - through writing self-forgiveness, self-commitment and self-corrective application - assist myself to birth me here as life - through the process of self-perfection - until life will be born in the physical to be here forevermore.

I commit myself to expose my beliefs, judgments, ideas, justifications, fears etc. so that i can see them and direct them - within writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective application in every moment of breath - until life is born in the physical.

2012 Beauty Blog: The Hiding Personality: Day 21

Knock Knock 

Yesterday, as i was busy listening to a video about pesticides and how to remove pesticides in the vegetables - which to me was very interesting, i heard a knock on the door. I did not expect anyone visiting, so i did not open the door and instead went to the bathroom to have a shower . I was in a pajama so i was embarrassed to open the door and let anyone see me wearing a pajama and have not even shower yet - as i judged myself as less than myself  when wearing a pajama and have not yet  taken a shower - and judge myself as more than myself when i am wearing well ironed clothes and have already taken a shower. So, i am not here- i am trapped as the personality - defined by my belief about beauty and ugliness.

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I will direct these points here and redefine the words beauty and ugliness in part 2 and 3 of this blog - using self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - as i stand for what is best for all life.

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Self-forgiveness 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than myself when i am wearing a pajama and have not showered yet - and judge myself as more than myself when i am wearing well ironed clothes and have already taken a shower.

Within this i commit to expose my participation in judging myself and others and the personality systems that is being supported by this -  the beauty industry - which is based on judging oneself as less than oneself and within that wanting to buy clothes/make-up/bags,/shoes that will make one look more beautiful - which also supports the enslavement of people working for these industries in the third world countries. This i will expose through my blogs and vlogs - so that all will know the truth of what is going on in existence - and as i stop these pattern - all will stop - and the mess we created will stop - and we will create a world that truly honors life based on equality

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hide rather than open the door believing that ugliness is bad and beauty is good - and within that - believe that that belief is real - not realizing that i created it in my mind and acting it out - makes it real - where i will suffer the consequence of my action - which is supporting the beauty belief systems in this world

So, within this i commit to expose my participation in beliefs about beauty and ugliness - and the systems that is being supported by this belief - through writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - so that this world will wake up to the truth of what is really going on when one exist within beliefs about beauty and ugliness - and how this create a world that we have now - based on consumerism.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the pajama - which is just a cloth - and is real - as bad/ugly based on my belief about beauty and ugliness - which i created in my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the body as less than myself when i have not taken a shower yet and judge the body as more than myself when i have already taken a shower

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge dirt as bad and no dirt as good

Self Commitment

Within this, i commit to - through writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements and self corrective application- change and recreate myself - as Self as Life - and within this assist others as me to birth oneself here as life - standing for what is best for all.