2012 Redefining the Word 'Grandmother' Part 3 Day 41

Part 1

Part 2

Webster defines the word grandmother as :
Mother of one's father or mother

(Goodness R-ant And M-e with the O- ther-T-here not Her-e)

This definition is limited.
When one perceives oneself separate from all that exist - where one judge another as more than or less than who one really is - this is not best for all.

I am redefining it and giving it meaning equal to who i am as all life - a definition i can live

Redefining the word Grandmother:

Mother of ones mother or father

who perceives all as equal to Life by virtue of the fact that we are all born in this world
and that we are made of the same substance- dust, water, clay.

Perceives the sons and daughters, family etc. as oneself

Births oneself as life.

2012: My Grandmother Part 2 Day 40

References:

 Part 1

Part 2

In Part 1 i did self-forgiveness for how i experienced my grandmother. In this blog i will do self-forgiveness for connecting her name to other names and defining it within other words which make me see her more than or less than what/who she is - not realizing she is equal to all that exist - as all are made of the same substance that all are made of. These are the names of her children and grandchildren. I put only their initials. I am releasing that limited definition i gave the word grandmother - realizing that the word grandmother - is equal to all that exist - as life. Making the word grandmother more than what it is within judgment and projecting that to who she really is - is abusing her through my words. Words are symbols.  We live them as who we are as life - as the living words.
 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word VD
I forgive myself that i  have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word OD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word AR

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word JD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word AD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word DD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word  BD
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word RD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word JR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word NR
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word SR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word TP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word KP
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word EDP
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word EJP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word DR
I forgive myself that i  have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word BR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word EP
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word WR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word DRAD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word GD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word ANND
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word DEZD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word LD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word RD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word GD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word MOLAD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word  ABID
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word grandmother to the word ROD

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within  the word WR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word EP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word BR
I forgive myself that  i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word DR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word EJP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word EDP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word KP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word TP
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word SR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word  grandmother within the word NR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word JR
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word RD
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word BD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word DD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word ASD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word JD
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word AD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word OD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word VD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word DRAD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word GID
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word GLD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word
ROD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word DAD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word DED
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word LID
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word AND
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to  define the word grandmother within the word ROD
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word grandmother within the word ABD

2012: My Grandmother Part 1 Day 39

My Grandmother
Part 2
Part 3

In this blog, i will do self-forgiveness for  perceiving my grandmother separate from me - and judging her as more than or less than me - as i identify as the ego-personality - defined within an experience based on beliefs, judgments etc. I will also do self-forgiveness for other points of separation - i see as i blog. 

This is how i assist myself to stop the mind - and birth me here as all life.This is how i release me from a limited definition of the word grandmother. Judging her as the 'best' grandmother is defining her within how i see her - as separate from who i am - instead of realizing she is equal to all that exist - as me as all life.

Self-forgiveness Statements:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my grandmother as more than me and me less than her- believing that because she gave birth to my mom and my mom gave birth to me -  i will not be alive if not because of her and my mom - as i identify as the ego-personality - separate from all life -defined within knowledge and information about life and death


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my grandmother as more than me and me less than her - comparing her to me and others - believing that because she took care of me when i was young, when i cannot take care of myself  - she is good because without her i could not have been alive - as i identify as the ego-personality -perceived  separate from her and all parts of me as life - defined within knowledge and information about who i am - so fearing death/not existing without her.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my grandmother as more than me and me less than her  - believing that because she took care of me when my mother was not around - she is good-  because i fear not existing/dying - as i defined myself within knowledge and information - as the ego-personality - believing that i will die if no one will take care of me - not realizing that i am here as breath in every moment with or without a human form

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my grandmother as more than me and me less than her - believing that she is good and i am not as good/bad- defining myself within comparison, judgment and jealousy - with her as the smell of her hair - as her hair smells like lime - when she finishes taking a bath - because she uses lime juice to rinse her hair off - and within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the smell of lime as more than other citrus smell - as i connected it to the smell of my grandmother's hair - within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to design competition within comparison, judgment and jealousy - with the lime - as i identify as the ego-personality - not realizing that i am equal to all that exist - as we are all made from the same substance all are made of.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself  to judge my grandmother as more than me and me less than her when she punishes me for not doing what i am supposed to do - when she ask me to do something - believing that she has the right to punish me because i did something wrong - then judge her as less than me - within backchat - believing she is cruel for punishing me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my grandmother punishing me by making me kneel in coarse salt with my hand stretched to the side  - when i do not do what i am asked to do - blaming her and spiting her for experiencing the pain.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to pity my grandmother because she is living alone and is being given the task of taking care of most of her grandchildren - including me, my sister and my brother.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself  to have the idea that my grandmother is a super hero because she was able to raise many grandchildren in her lifetime - defining myself within specialness - which is in essence arose out of comparing her with other women/mother, then judging her.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be guilty about taking a dime out of her sewing machine drawer - hiding it at first and then telling her later - that i used it to buy sweets that will make me feel good  - and accepting and allowing that dishonesty because i am her grandchild - believing that grandmothers love their grandchildren - justifying it by saying 'she's okay with it' - where i am defining love within self-dishonesty - with people who i have strong family/relationship ties.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand that when i allow that small act of dishonesty in my life because of relationship tie - i support a personality systems based on that same point.

I commit myself to - through writing self-forgiveness, self-commitment and self-corrective application - assist myself to birth me here as life - through the process of self-perfection - until life will be born in the physical to be here forevermore.

I commit myself to expose my beliefs, judgments, ideas, justifications, fears etc. so that i can see them and direct them - within writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective application in every moment of breath - until life is born in the physical.

2012 Family Blog: Mother's Day :"You are the Best" Personality Part 1 Day 26

I was invited by someone in our family - a week before mother's day - to say something about my mom and my grandmother - as it is mother's day and the family will have an event and  will be celebrating it. In the past, i wrote a certificate that tells everyone my grandmother is 'the best'  - not realizing that within me saying that, i am judging all grandmothers other than my grandmother as - not special . So instead of judging mothers/grandmothers as good or bad, i am doing self-forgiveness for the self-dishonesty of me as a daughter - so i can face who i have become and birth me here as life using self-forgiveness and self-correction - so i will stop supporting personality systems based on this point.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mother and grandmother is my savior - because my mother gave birth to me (and she will not be there if my grandmother did not give birth to her) - as i connected birth to life - not realizing that it is my fear of death that made me love life - separating me from who i am as LIFE = equal to all that exist, as we are made from the same substance all are made of - the same substance my mother and grandmother are made of.

So within this,  i commit to expose -through writing self-forgiveness and correcting myself every time i see myself - believing my mother and grandmother is my savior -  until all the personality systems stop - as all beliefs glorifying someone as a savior stop.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that within me glorifying my mother and grandmother as my savior - i am separating from them - and judging them as more than myself and me as less than myself - justifying abdicating self-responsibility to/as creating the mess in this world and so fail to face the consequence - fail to correct it by stopping and changing and birthing me here as Self as Life. So, within this, i commit to through writing self-forgiveness and correcting myself in every moment every time i see myself  judging others - until all the personality systems stop- as all judgments made,  glorifying someone, stop.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mother and grandmother are the 'best' - and within that judge personalities as good or bad, better or worse, best or worst - as i identify as the personality - existing within competition designed through comparison, judgment and jealousy - where i control who they are in my world - as how i wanted them to become - so i can use and abuse them to give me what i want and desire - which is 'love' and the support i need to exist as the ego-personality - money - within self-interest - so that i will feel good.

Within this, i commit to expose - through writing self-forgiveness and correct myself in every moment - when and as i see myself participating in beliefs within competition, control, within desire to feel good - loving others who i am in a relationship with so that i can get love and support - money- until all the personality systems - within beliefs, competition, control and desire  for love and money and feeling good - stop, and this world manifests that which is what is best for all.

Examples of personality systems based on 'Mother is the best" Point:
Glorifying Mother Theresa, 'Mother Mary', Princess Diana, Sita, the principle female character in the epic Ramayana, the mother of mankind according to colombian mythology, Bachue, the mother of Moses Bithiah,  etc.

The interview with Anu gave me perspective on jealousy and control.