2012 Family Blog: Mother's Day :"You are the Best" Personality Part 1 Day 26

I was invited by someone in our family - a week before mother's day - to say something about my mom and my grandmother - as it is mother's day and the family will have an event and  will be celebrating it. In the past, i wrote a certificate that tells everyone my grandmother is 'the best'  - not realizing that within me saying that, i am judging all grandmothers other than my grandmother as - not special . So instead of judging mothers/grandmothers as good or bad, i am doing self-forgiveness for the self-dishonesty of me as a daughter - so i can face who i have become and birth me here as life using self-forgiveness and self-correction - so i will stop supporting personality systems based on this point.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mother and grandmother is my savior - because my mother gave birth to me (and she will not be there if my grandmother did not give birth to her) - as i connected birth to life - not realizing that it is my fear of death that made me love life - separating me from who i am as LIFE = equal to all that exist, as we are made from the same substance all are made of - the same substance my mother and grandmother are made of.

So within this,  i commit to expose -through writing self-forgiveness and correcting myself every time i see myself - believing my mother and grandmother is my savior -  until all the personality systems stop - as all beliefs glorifying someone as a savior stop.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that within me glorifying my mother and grandmother as my savior - i am separating from them - and judging them as more than myself and me as less than myself - justifying abdicating self-responsibility to/as creating the mess in this world and so fail to face the consequence - fail to correct it by stopping and changing and birthing me here as Self as Life. So, within this, i commit to through writing self-forgiveness and correcting myself in every moment every time i see myself  judging others - until all the personality systems stop- as all judgments made,  glorifying someone, stop.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mother and grandmother are the 'best' - and within that judge personalities as good or bad, better or worse, best or worst - as i identify as the personality - existing within competition designed through comparison, judgment and jealousy - where i control who they are in my world - as how i wanted them to become - so i can use and abuse them to give me what i want and desire - which is 'love' and the support i need to exist as the ego-personality - money - within self-interest - so that i will feel good.

Within this, i commit to expose - through writing self-forgiveness and correct myself in every moment - when and as i see myself participating in beliefs within competition, control, within desire to feel good - loving others who i am in a relationship with so that i can get love and support - money- until all the personality systems - within beliefs, competition, control and desire  for love and money and feeling good - stop, and this world manifests that which is what is best for all.

Examples of personality systems based on 'Mother is the best" Point:
Glorifying Mother Theresa, 'Mother Mary', Princess Diana, Sita, the principle female character in the epic Ramayana, the mother of mankind according to colombian mythology, Bachue, the mother of Moses Bithiah,  etc.

The interview with Anu gave me perspective on jealousy and control.