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Monday, May 28, 2012

2012 The Female Personality Part 3: 'Who Am I?' Day 44 The Search Is Over : I Am Here

The Female Personality 



The Female Personality
Part 1 Part 2


'Who Am I?'
Beginning and End

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is a beginning and an end - as i identify as the ego-personality - separate from all parts of me as life - so defined into creation a God - believing that there is a God - believing that God knows everything i want to know - believing i do not have to take self-responsibility - believing he has to take self-responsibility  - believing he set up the world the way it is - believing my belief is real - believing  i can just pray to him to give me all that i need - when and how he wants to - believing that he knows when and how i will have the information - believing that i can have an excuse - believing that my excuse is valid - believing an excuse is valid if it benefits me as i identify as the ego-personality  - defined by self-interest - perceiving me as separate from all life - and supporting all personality systems based on that same point that i am partcipating in as the ego-personality - which is how i create the evil in this world - not realizing the common sense point that good cannot exist without evil - so in believing in God- i am accepting and allowing myself to create evil in this world.

'I Believe In God'

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge God as more than me and me less than him-

"I Need Someone To Take Self-Responsibility in my Behalf' 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe someone has to take self-responsibility in my behalf - and that is God - not realizing that i am here - i take self-responsibility for all parts of me as life

'I Need An Excuse For Not Taking Self-responsibility For/As Me' 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i need an excuse for me not taking self-responsibility for me - and that believing that there is God is the excuse - to deny me as the substance equal to/as the body as life - and relinguishing/abdicating my self-responsibility as substance is justified by praying to that God or meditating to the guru - instead of being and acting as who i am here as the physical body as life

'I Need To Be Joyful and Blissful' 
I forgive myself that i accepted and allowed myself to believe that that feeling of joy/bliss- is me as who i really am enjoying me as self - within self-dishonesty -and self-sabotage - not realizing that that JOY/BLISS is a manifestation of my beliefs - where i abuse and mine substance by manifesting my mind created illusion here in the physical as Joy/Bliss -  as i participate in the mind within beliefs etc. - defying who i am here as life - equal to all that exist - as the physical body as the physical existence as all of me as life - not realizing that when i manifest this belief or whatever belief in the physical as a positive energy of/as Joy/Bliss- i support the slaughter of animals for money - the same way i mine substance by existing in/as the mind - the mind gets energy from the body/life/substance - the same way we get life/substance from the body of an animal - not realizing that my being a vegetarian / vegan will not solve the problem of animal slaughter in this world because animal slaughter is based on the greed for money as self-interest - existent in this current monetary system - and that to forever remove animal slaughter in this world - we need a new system based on equality - where all life will be taken cared of - equally -within this i forgive myself for participating in an unequal monetary system where i have money and others do not have it - where i can buy all the vegetables that i need because i have money - and within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to continue to support an unequal monetary system - by working for money and have a business where i have to slaughter vegetables to get money - where the plants are being disregarded because they do not move and scream like humans -within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to support personality systems based on the same point i am participating in/as - in the unending struggle for survival as the ego-personality existing within a system of personalities doing the same thing that i do - where all create a world of abuse by supporting each other in the name of love-  that mines life/substance in favor of JOY and BLISS of/as the mind- all because i want to feel good - in self-interest - not realizing i am here in every moment of breath as life - equal to all that exist - and that i can change and all can change and create a world that truly honors life - based on equality


'Joy and Bliss Is Self?' 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that joy/bliss is the manifestation of substance - as life - not realizing that joy/bliss is a mind created positive feeling/extreme positive feeling - where the mind is getting energy from the physical body to manifest that feeling of joy/bliss - and that is the reason we age - the same way we abuse substance/life by killing animals, abusing the earth - all are ways we defy who we really are as equal to all that is here.

I commit to through writing self-forgiveness and self-commitment to direct myself to when and as i see myself participate in beliefs , judgments etc. - i stop and breath and correct my starting point - saying 'I am here' and correct myself in my daily application in every moment here.

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'The Curiousity' 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i have to satisfy the curiosity to know who i am, who created me,  what is my purpose in life and how i can go back or unite with God -believing that satisfying curiosity is good and not satisfying curiosity is bad

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that  answering all questions is good and not answering all my questions about life is bad - not realizing that i have defined myself as knowledge and information separate from me - thus wanting to know and understand everything and everyone separate from me - asking questions and looking for answers - separate from me - not realizing that unless i am one and equal to knowledge and information - as substance - i am just an observer and thus the observer  in separation to/as the observed - as i identify as the ego-personality - not realizing that i am here in every moment of breath - and that i have to stand as self and give self to self by writing self-forgiveness and self-commitment to stop when and as i see myself being and doing from the starting point of me as the ego-personality - trying to understand life - in separation from/as life as an observer interpreting what i see based on knowledge and information i accumulated from my external world/environment within my interaction with/as people - and that unless i correct that starting point and apply me as who i am as self - i am not here. I am trapped as the ego-personality separate from all that exist

'My Excuse Is Justified' 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my excuse is justified - believing that not knowing who i am is bad and knowing who i am is good - defining myself within knowledge and information separate from me as life.

'There is a Beginning and an End'
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'i have to define the beginning and create it' - using this belief as an excuse to justify my going to church and praying to God to experience relief - knowing that i mined substance/life in favor of joy/bliss/relief - which are energies that give life to me as the ego-personality - believing that because i see my grandmother worshiping a God, worshiping a God is good - and that not worshiping a God is bad - where i defined my grandmother as a life - giver  - as someone who is there when my mom is not there to give life to me as the ego-personality based on family relationship ties ---within that i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mom is a life-giver - believing that someone who feeds me is a life-giver - connecting the word food and the word life - and within this i forgive myself hat i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that stories of God i hear from my father as bedtime stories - is true because i defined what my father say as true- within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my father is a life-giver - believing a life-giver is someone who makes sure we have money to buy food to eat to survive which is  - within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connecting the word true to the word father---within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word father to the word life-giver -within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word food to the word survive - within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not surviving/not existing/death as/of me as the ego.---Within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe the stories my father tell me about God - defining me within knowledge and information- spiting who i am as substance as the physical body - abdicating my responsibility to be and act as me as life/ substance - that is here in/as the body in every moment of/as breath  - being, moving and expressing as who i am here as all life - in favor of that mind created energetic feeling of joy/bliss -- within this I forgive myself that i have manipulated substance by defining God into creation and manifesting that illusion into and as me - pushing self aside - as who i really am aside in favor of me as the ego-personality - who is just an illusion


The  'I Want Bliss 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within knowledge and information based on positive and negative energy experience of me - where i gave my power- as who i am here - in favor of a positive energy experience - which is bliss - an extreme positive experience of the mind - believing that i am less than who i am because i cannot understand who i am - where i came from and what my purpose is in life - and because of this believe that - i have to search for it - and when i find it - do the practice set out by my guru or pray because the bible says so or the priest says so  - within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define gurus, God, priests/monks as more than me and me less than them - believing that they have knowledge and information  that i do not have -within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that one who has more knowledge and information than me - is more than me and me less than them as i defined myself within knowledge and information - which is what one accumulate and integrate into oneself  from ones childhood from/of  ones external world and environment – and people within/from ones environment/external world - where one walks into /as child as an OBSERVER that imprints reality into the mind- rather than being here as my physical body equal to and one with/as it in fact where i can communicate with all parts of me as the physical body - and communicate with /as the blood, the cells, the tissues, the veins etc.all parts of life here.

The 'Searching' 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i have to search for and realize that self - not realizing that that self is here in every moment of breath - realizing that i have separated from who i am as that self- and in that separation see me as separate from all parts of me as life - within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define me into creation as that ego-personality that is searching for who i am - how i am -and what i am - separate from all that exist - not realizing that i am here as breath in every moment.

'I am The Limited Ego'  >  'I need To Know' 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am the limited ego personality - and within that search for who i am - who created me - and what is my purpose in life -believing i am an observer of life rather than equal to life itself - looked around me and interpreting what i see, hear and observe according to  my own interpretation of reality - not realizing that that is not reality - it was just an interpretation of/as reality - and that i am here in every moment of breath - as the body interacting with/as the physical as all parts of me as life

'I need Someone To Take Care of Me' 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mom and dad are my care takers - and within that i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because i am nourished by the milk from my mom - that my life depends on my mom - within this i forgive myself to fear that if my mom leaves i will not survive- not realizing that i am here in every moment of breath not defined by life and death

I commit to take self-responsibility for what i have accepted and allowed and stop myself using self-forgiveness and commitment to correct myself in every moment when and as i see myself believing my mom and dad is my care- taker and assist in establishing a world of equality where everyone will be taken cared of - birthing a new system that stands for what is best for all life.

'I do Not Know Who i Am' 
I forgive myself to believe that i do not know who i am - not realizing that i am here as breath in every moment - i simply live as who i am as self one and equal to all that exist

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe i do not know what i am - not realizing that i am here as breath in every moment -  i simply live as who i am equal to/as all that exist

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i do not know the purpose of why i am here - not realizing that i am here as breath in every moment - i simply live as who i am - equal to/as all that exist.

I commit to - through writing self-forgiveness and self-commitment to assist me in directing myself when and as i see myself participate in questioning who i am, what i am and how i am - stopping and breathing and saying 'i am here' - and correcting my starting point

I commitment  myself to direct me in every moment of breath - where instead of searching - i simply live as who i am - as the breath in every moment here - equal to all that is exist- standing for what is best for all life

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