Paranoia for Beauty:Seeing Through The Eyes of Equality: Part 2 Self Correction Day 310

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This is a continuation of This Blog:
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/06/the-paranoia-of-remembering-information.html

In the previous blog i did self-forgiveness for 
my fear of seeing that which i perceived as 'ugly' 
as negativity, poverty, suffering, pain etc.
wanting to see only that which is beautiful, happy, blissful, positive
within my mind

In this blog, i will do a commitment 
a self-correction script
to rewrite the script within myself 
one that i can apply in my living
to guide me to live life based on the principle of
what is best for all

realizing what is best for all is also what is best for me

Commitment
Self-Correction Script:

I commit myself to when and as i see myself
fearing to see  what is here
desiring a positive energy experience
from what i see
defining forms/texture/shape within my definition
of what is 'ugly' and what is 'beautiful'
within an alternate reality
somewhere 'out there'
other than here

I stop
I breathe

I realized this is me as the mind interpreting what i see
instead of seeing what is here

I assist myself to stay with the pulse of my heart
wake me up to what is here
stabilize myself here - as breath
stop the ooohs and ahhhs
and just enjoy what is here
as equal to my expression

I commit myself to when and as i see myself doubting who i am
within what i see
uncertain of whether i am the one having a positive experience or a neutra or a negative one
or the one who is here in every moment  - stable as breath

I stop
I breathe

I assist myself to  release the charge i have given the word
'beauty' and the word 'eyes'
redefine the words and live it
as equal to my expression

I commit myself to when and as i see myself
blaming the physical for creating beauty and ugliness
the consequence outflow of that
blaming the body for malfunctiong, getting sick or dying
blaming the physical existence for creating poverty, pain, negativity, suffering 
and inequality

I stop
I breathe

I realized this is me as the mind
blaming the physical 
instead of realizing it is me
as the mind 
within desiring a positive energy experience 
through what i see - as forms etc.
fearing a negative energy experience
closing my eyes to the suffering, poverty, pain around me
instead of providing practical solutions

I assist myself to stabilize me as breath
remain with the pulse of my heart
wake me up to what is real
as what is here
embrace the poverty, pain and suffering
and take self-responsibility 
for what i accepted and allowed
in 'my within' as the mind
and in 'my without' as this world system

I commit myself  to when and as i see myself 
having the excucse that 
'i have to survive as someone
who always see beauty
positivity, happiness and bliss' 
or
as someone who never wants to see 'ugliness' within my mind

I stop
I breathe

I realized this is me as the mind desiring a positive energy experience
believing that seeing only what i perceived as 'beautiful' 
will make me survive  
as a personality  
believing that because i will always feel good this way
and also look good because i will always be smiling
this is a better state of mind for me to be in

instead of realizing that 
it is me as the personality that i created within my mind
fearing to look at what i perceived as ugliness
while
people are suffering 
for real

denying what is here

it is to realize that 
we have to look at the problem 
and identify the problem
to provide a solution that is best for all

the real balance within living as equals

initially within supporting BIG (Basic Income Grant) 

and eventually
living as equals in a world that truly honors life
the poor being given access 
to all the basic necessities they need to live a decent life

so instead of me fearing survival in a world of inequality
provide a solution so everyone will have guaranteed survival

and see reality as what it is

balanced - as equals living this one life

I commit myself to when and as i see myself justifying the excuse that i have to survive
as someone who always see beauty 
to be whole

I stop
I breathe

I realized this is me as the mind
wanting to be whole 
within denying the existence of that which i perceived as 'ugly'
desiring only to see what i perceived as 'beautiful'

instead of realizing this is balance in polarity - within 'beauty and ugliness'

It is to realize that real wholeness does not need separation from the source

It is not separating from all - as an individual 
concerned only about my own interest - as self-interest

desiring only that which i perceived as having a positive value 
an idea i created within my mind

instead of realizing
real wholeness does not need separation from the source

It is about
living as equals - as who we really are
as Team Life
the group of cells that are living here
as all parts of me - as LIFE
all birthed in this one life

the point of equality
that we have to practically live

All living according to the primary principle of Life

as

What Is Best For All

The Paranoia For Beauty: Seeing Through The Eyes Of the Mind Day 307

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In this blog i am looking at how i abused my eyes

as i participate in positive, neutral and negative energy experiences

fearing to see ugliness

desiring to see beauty

as the Mind/Ego/ Persoality/ Character
perceived separate from all

being directed by my thoughts rather than me directing me here

So, i am directing myself in this blog

To through self-forgiveness, and self correction in my living
stop the paranoia
in  'my within' as the mind

so as i take self-responsibility 
in 'my within' as the mind

take self-responsibility in 'my without' as this world system

birth me here as equal to all that is here - as Life


What is self-forgiveness?
http://juneroca.com/home/my-process/self-forgiveness/

Self-forgiveness Statements:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of
fear of survival - as form - as energy - as the eyes
fear that i will not be able to see the beautiful things in life
desiring to see through my eyes
to have a positive experience of life

believing that if my eyes do not have 20/20 vision
i will not have
a positive energy experience
in life
believing that only if my eyes can see the beauty of nature etc
will i be happy

believing that my eyes do not have a 20/20 vision because of my age

believing that blind people are unfortunate because they cannot see

instead of realizing that it is me
manipulating the eyes to look at pictures, forms etc.
and connecting/defining whatever i see to a word, a picture, a memory etc.
that i have given a positive or a negative value to

using the mind to manipulate the body to see
for the positive energy experience of it
seeing everything through my mind
and judging what i see as either beautiful, 'so-so' or 'ugly'

fearing to see that which i defined as ugly

fearing to see the poor
fearing to see suffering
fearing to see crime
fearing to see criminals
fearing to see deformed forms
fearing to see sickness and death
fearing to see people in pain
fearing to see clutter/mess
fearing to see failure
fearing to see dirty places
fearing to see the inequality
fearing to see evil
fearing to see abuse

fearing to see what is here

fearing to see reality
desiring to imagine an alternate reality within my mind

fearing to see/look at the consequence of what i accepted and allowed in this world 
for fear of taking self-responsibility 

desiring a positive energy experience
using the eyes
abusing the eyes

the mind manipulating the eyes to see or not see
based on what i like to see or not like to see
based on my fears

within this
resourcing the body 
for energy

for the mind to exist

taking from the body 
what it needs to support itself to survive

the evil me
like a vampire
sucking the life
out of the physical/body

the body that has eyes
that makes it possible for me to express myself here

the body that supports me to breathe

the body that supports me to see
all that is here

so i can take self-responsibility
for all - as me - as Life

the body that makes it possible for me to express myself here
in this one life 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse the body - as the eyes
within all these

instead of facing my fear 
and taking self-responsibility
for what i created in 'my within' as the mind - for what i judged as 'ugly' 'so-so'or 'beautiful'
and for the consequence it created 
in 'my without' as this world system

within thisPARANOIA
i created within myself

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
doubt who i am
the one seeing the positives in life, the neutral or the negatives
the 'beautiful', the 'so-so' and the 'ugly'

or the one who is here
as breath
that can see with or without the eyes
that can see in whatever form i am in
human, animals, plants, things etc.
as i am part of this one life
equal to all that is here
by virtue of being birthed into this world
as all are birthed here

seeing what is real
as what is here - as the physical
as who i am, what i am and how i am
without judging what i see 
according to what will give me 
a positive, neutral or negative energy experience
based on my beliefs

Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
blame the body/physical
for creating eyes unequal
making others see with a vision 20/20 and others not

blaming my my eyes for not being able to see
blaming the body for aging
blaming the physical for creating beautiful and ugly people
blaming the body/physical for malfunctioning

instead of realizing
it is me as the mind
the evil me
only thinking of myself - within self-interest
desiring positive energy experiences

resourcing the body
for energy
for the mind to exist
whenever i participate in thoughts, backchats, reactions and behaviours
that are mind directed

realizing that it is me as the mind
connecting words, things, pictures, events, people, form, memories etc. i see
to words, pictures, things, events, people, form, memories etc.
which i have given a positive, neutral and a negative value to
which made me see the picture etc.
as positive, neutral or negative
experiencing it in a  positive, neutral or a negative way

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have the excuse that
i have to survive as the one that is able to see through the eyes
having perfect vision

believing that the eyes are more than me because without it i cannot see

instead of realizing that i am here as breath able to see
with or without the eyes

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in these beliefs

Through this
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
justify my excuse
that i have to survive as the one that is able to see through the eyes
to be whole
believing that i will be inferior if i will not have eyes to see
believing that if my eyes do not see clearly
i am less than myself -inferior

instead of realizing this is balance in polarity

It is to realize that
 real wholeness does not need separation from the source

as who i am is here
as breath in every moment
moving me, directing me, expressing me

2012: 'Who Am I?' I Am The 'Judging the Breast' Character I Chose to Become: Beauty Day 94

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Self-forgiveness

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Stepping Out of Character:

I am doing self-forgiveness and self corrective application in this blog - and stop this character because i created this in my mind - in an alternate reality where i exist as an alternate version of who i am. I am birthing myself as the real character - as who i really am as self- that stands for what is best for all   life.

Self-forgiveness:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'judging the breast' character -  as memories from the past - where i believe that breasts that are neither too big nor too small are 'nice' and very small breasts and very big breasts are ugly - not realizing that breasts are made of the same substance the earth is made of  - and that all came from that same substance all are made of - through this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge breasts that are neither too big nor too small - as more than myself and breasts that are very small and very big - as less than myself - judging the body - and that these beliefs, judgments and self-definition -was created by me in my mind - an alternate reality i created where i have an alternate version of me -  and all other manifestations/expressions - and this is where - i compare, judge etc. - an illusion that i live in the physical in the words that i speak, write and the actions or body movements that i do - and the physical body becomes the source of this energy i use - accumulating  and then losing energy, accumulating again and then losing energy again - consuming the flesh as the physical and mining it for energy. Through this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire the 'moreness' of me as positive energy experiences when i see 'nice' breasts as the 'judging the breast' character, where i compare alternate versions of myself and others - judge and get jealous as i design competition within my mind -  where i always win - without considering the consequence - which is the external reality mirror of what is within - where characters in this world compare, judge and get jealous of one another - where countries compare, judge and get jealous of one another creating war, consumerism, the beauty industry etc.

Backchat:

''That's a nice well formed breast. She can wear those revealing clothes because of that . I wonder how i will look in those clothes? 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use backchat as a method of living through the 'judging the breast' character where i design competition within comparison, judgment and jealousy.

I commit to when and as i see myself using backchat to live through the 'judging the breast' character - i stop and slow down - and be aware of me as breath - doing the 4 counts breath and changing my starting point. 

I commit to delete this 'judging the breast' character - as desires, beliefs , comaprisons, judgments, backchats etc.within and as myself and let go of the separation as desires etc. within and as myself - and stand with the body in every breathe that i take. 

Body Movement:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use body movements as a method of living through the definition of me as the 'judging the breast' character - by focusing on the breast and - with eyes open - holding my breath - desiring positive experiences by looking at well-formed breasts and judging them as 'nice' and - laughing when judging very big breasts and very small breasts as 'ugly'. 

I commit to when and as i see myself living through the 'judging the breast' character - i stop and slow down - be aware of me as breath - as the 4 counts breath - stop looking at the breasts -walk through the energy - as experience - and change my starting point as i stand with the body in every breath that i take.

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We Are The Collective Characters we Choose To Become 

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Self-forgiveness for Creating This World - through the Abuse of Money:

I forgive myself  'as the beauty enhancement or plastic surgery industry' that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse the body  as the breast etc. by reshaping it for profit 

 I forgive myself 'as the plastic surgeons' that i have accepted and allowed myself to survive by reshaping the body for beauty - for profit

I forgive myself 'as the elite to use money to reshape the body for beauty - not realizing that the body is an organism - that has a say in all this - and the individual that is deciding in its behalf has to recognize this truth - and that the money one is using to beautify oneself belongs to all - and to have more than others is accepting and allowing inequality - which is not life .

I commit myself to expose industries that support judging breasts and the physical body 

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Self-forgiveness for Use Of Energy To Feel Good Within Spirituality:

I forgive myself  'as the gurus' that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the breasts as less than myself believing that body parts used in sex like the breast and the sexual organs has to be covered in temples and places of worship because they stimulate desire - not realizing that it is oneself that is desiring and stopping oneself from participating in desire is commonsensical - and the aversion to see breasts as the polarity of the desire to see breasts is also mind participation - and that one is cycling from positive to negative experiences when one does this - where it is also a way of using energy and mining the body for energy -  not seeing/understanding that the breast is part of the body that is made of the same substance all are made of  - as Life

I forgive myself 'as the devotees' that i have accepted and allowed myself to copy the guru - and believes what the guru believes - where when the guru says, 'cover your breast inside the ashram' - i cover my breast  - as a battery operated programmed individual - seeking the accumulation of positive energy through covering my breasts in churches, temples, ashrams etc. because the guru says so - not realizing that i am here as breath - self-directive and able to see the commonsense that the breast is made from the same substance all are made of - and that it is equal to all that exist.

I forgive myself 'as the religious community' that i have accepted and allowed myself to promise people eternal life, liberation from the ego,  if one covers the breasts and not look at breasts - thus manipulating  oneself to become 'moral' for religions sake - not realizing that this is a form of self-suppression where the breast is also judged as less than oneself.

Self-commitment

I commit to when and as i see myself defining myself within the 'judging the breast' character - i stop and look at who i really am as self. I become aware of me as breath. I slow down and change my starting point from me as the alternate version of me defining me, believing, comparing, judging, becoming jealous, desiging competition and desiring positive experiences, desiring and seeking the 'moreness' of me as the 'nice breast' character - seeking positive energetic experiences when looking at breasts that are not too big or small  - to who i really am as the breath in every moment here - where when i am looking at pictures, videos, movies, in the mall, visiting friends etc. i flag point myself and direct myself to stand as who i am as self. 

I commit myself to stand here as  breath and to delete the 'nice breast' character and all that comes to my awareness as an energy of experience - of feeling within and as myself and breathe through the energy - as experience- as character- and not to allow the character to direct who i am as breath in every moment but to instead move through the energy as experience as feeling - as i have realised that once i have moved through the experience as feeling within and as myself - i remain.

I commit myself to show that our individual mind participation mirrors the external world and what it has become - where collectively we agree that to judge breasts as either nice or not nice - is okay - not realizing and understanding that we are in a real world  governed by physical laws and consequence - and that whatever we accept and allow as who we are - as people who judge - manifests a world where judgment is accepted and allowed - such is true in the media, in the beauty industry etc.This is how we accept and allow ourselves to consume the physical and transform it to energy - for the mind - to exist within energetic experiences - seeking for positive energy within beauty, nice breasts, nice clothes etc. - all because we want to feel good - not realizing and understanding that doing this long term will consume the very substance we all came from. 'Till here no further!

I commit to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - i will assist myself to stop living through this character.

2012: Word Blog: 'Redefining the Word Slang': Part 3 Day 35

References:

 Part 1

Part 2

 

In Part 2, i redefined the word crap - and within the definition, i saw the word slang.The dictionary definition of the word 'slang' I am redefining the word 'slang' in this blog to a meaning equal to/as life

Wikipedia says
Slang is the use of informal words and expressions that are not considered standard in the speaker's language or dialect but are considered more acceptable when used socially. Slang is often used as a euphemism and may use informal lexicon to identify with one's peers.



Redefining the Word 'Slang':
(S-ecret Lang-uage) Words and expressions used to hide our beliefs and judgments about oneself and others - as we identify as the ego-personality perceived separate from all - wanting acceptance from personalities in society - defined by what is right and wrong - and through the process of self-perfection realize and understand that words are symbols and expressions are manifestations of who we are as life - so they are equal to all that exist - as sounds and expressions we manifest in the physical as we live the words as equal to/as oneself  - as life . So they are words we speak that are accepted by/as all to/as equal to/as all Life - and is used to express what is best for all.

2012 Beauty Blog: The Hiding Personality: Day 21

Knock Knock 

Yesterday, as i was busy listening to a video about pesticides and how to remove pesticides in the vegetables - which to me was very interesting, i heard a knock on the door. I did not expect anyone visiting, so i did not open the door and instead went to the bathroom to have a shower . I was in a pajama so i was embarrassed to open the door and let anyone see me wearing a pajama and have not even shower yet - as i judged myself as less than myself  when wearing a pajama and have not yet  taken a shower - and judge myself as more than myself when i am wearing well ironed clothes and have already taken a shower. So, i am not here- i am trapped as the personality - defined by my belief about beauty and ugliness.

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I will direct these points here and redefine the words beauty and ugliness in part 2 and 3 of this blog - using self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - as i stand for what is best for all life.

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Self-forgiveness 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than myself when i am wearing a pajama and have not showered yet - and judge myself as more than myself when i am wearing well ironed clothes and have already taken a shower.

Within this i commit to expose my participation in judging myself and others and the personality systems that is being supported by this -  the beauty industry - which is based on judging oneself as less than oneself and within that wanting to buy clothes/make-up/bags,/shoes that will make one look more beautiful - which also supports the enslavement of people working for these industries in the third world countries. This i will expose through my blogs and vlogs - so that all will know the truth of what is going on in existence - and as i stop these pattern - all will stop - and the mess we created will stop - and we will create a world that truly honors life based on equality

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hide rather than open the door believing that ugliness is bad and beauty is good - and within that - believe that that belief is real - not realizing that i created it in my mind and acting it out - makes it real - where i will suffer the consequence of my action - which is supporting the beauty belief systems in this world

So, within this i commit to expose my participation in beliefs about beauty and ugliness - and the systems that is being supported by this belief - through writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - so that this world will wake up to the truth of what is really going on when one exist within beliefs about beauty and ugliness - and how this create a world that we have now - based on consumerism.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the pajama - which is just a cloth - and is real - as bad/ugly based on my belief about beauty and ugliness - which i created in my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the body as less than myself when i have not taken a shower yet and judge the body as more than myself when i have already taken a shower

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge dirt as bad and no dirt as good

Self Commitment

Within this, i commit to - through writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements and self corrective application- change and recreate myself - as Self as Life - and within this assist others as me to birth oneself here as life - standing for what is best for all.