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Thursday, June 27, 2013

The Paranoia of Remembering Information and Knowledge: Numbers Day 306

Parenting:Perfecting The Human Race

In this blog i am looking at 
my reaction to working with numbers
and memorizing the multiplication table
fearing the negative energy experience 
fearing being punished by my dad

so desires to do something else 
that will give me a positive energy experience

suppresses my desire

then memorized the multiplication table 
which consists of numbers because i was told by my dad 

because of 
fear of being punished
fear of being labelled as a bad child
desiring to please him

desiring to be the favorite child
so i always win
existing in a state of  paranoia

being directed by my thoughts 
rather than me directing me here

So, I am directing myself in this blog

I am doing self-forgiveness 
for running away from the fear  
separating myself from numbers
connecting numbers to a positive and a negative value
instead of facing my fears

i realized that i have to face my fears
as my fears fuels my desires

taking self-responsibility for what i 
accepted and allowed in my world 
in 'my within'  as the mind 
and in 'my without' as this world system

What is self-forgiveness?
http://juneroca.com/home/my-process/self-forgiveness/

I am also writing a commitment to correction script
in the coming blogs and apply the corrections in my living

Self-forgiveness Statements: 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself 
to participate in the design of fear of survival - as energy - as form - as numbers

fear being punished
so desires to remember/memorize the multiplication Table from 1-10
as per what my dad wants 

as i fear having a negative energy experience remembering/memorizing numbers

believing that numbers are monotonous series of increasing increments from 1 to infinity
believing that numbers will not give me a positive energy experience
believing that it is meaningless
believing that there is no practical application for numbers 
believing it is boring to remember/memorize numbers

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in these beliefs 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to doubt who i am 
uncertain of whether i am the one that memorizes number tables 
because others tell me to do so
or the one that appreciates and see numbers  as what they really are
as equal to my expression
and integrates it in my physical

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the physical for 
creating boring numbers that does not give me a positive energy experience

instead of realizing numbers are symbols 
that is part of this one life
expressing here
equal to my expression

Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
have the excuse that i have to survive as a character 
that does not have to memorize numbers
 believing that i should not have to have that negative energy experience

Through this
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the excuse that i have to survive as a character that does not have to memorize numbers
believing that i will be whole when i only have positive energy experiences
doing that which gives me happiness and excitement

instead of realizing real wholeness does not need separating from the source
that i do not need to separate myself from life - from numbers
that i do not need to have to fear negative energy experiences and then try to have a positive energy experience to be whole

It is to realize that i am here as breath in every moment
I am part of the whole - as life

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Commitment to Correction
Script

I commit myself to when and as i see myself 
fearing bring punished 

fearing anything that has to do with numbers
charging it with a negative value 
and experiencing it in a negative way

I stop
I stabilize myself within me - as breath 

I realize that this is me as the mind fearing a negative energy experience 
within working with numbers
based from my beliefs
and desiring a positive energy experience

I assist myself to accept and allow me 
to develop and equal and one relationship
with numbers as symbols as equations
using it to assist me to show the 
positive and negative values i have given 
to all parts of me as life
so i can forgive and correct myself

redefine it 

assigning a value to all parts of me - as Life
that is equal to life

I assist myself to face the fear
of a negative energy experience 
i imagined/thought within my mind
while told to memore the multiplication table

to instead of creating this stress in my body
the physical reacting to 
my beingness' reaction to that
which i fear
within my mind

I 'd rather assist myself to 
take self-responsibility for all parts of me as life
mapping out how i created 'my within' as the mind 
and 'my without' as this world system

standing equal with my mind

release my beingness 
that is trapped 
within my mind 
and within the physical

so as i release myself
in 'my within'

release myself - as all 
in 'my without'

I commit myself to when and as i see myself 
doubting who i am within perceiving a split within myself
when working with numbers

I stop
I breathe

I assist myself to release the positive and negative values i have given numbers
releasing the charge i have given them
release the relationship of separation
and develop and equal and one relationship with numbers
redefining numbers as equal to who i am, what i am and how i am

I commit myself to when and as i see myself 
blaming the physical
for creating numbers that are boring

I stop
I breathe

I realize this is me as the mind not wanting to take self-responsibility 
for what i have accepted and allowed within me
trying to blame the physical universe 
as the evil me
blaming
instead of taking self-responsibility
for what i created as consequence

I assist myself to take self-responsibility and correct myself
realizing that numbers are here 
just like me
expressing themselves in this one life
fulfilling a function in this life

I assist myself to accept and allow me to 
have an equal and one relationship with numbers
redefine numbers as equal to my expression
as who i am, what i am and how i am

I commit myself to when and as i see myself 
having an excuse that i have to survive 
as one who does not have 
anything to do with numbers
one who does not have a negative energy experience
as one who only have a positive energy experience
doing that which gives me a positive energy experience

I stop
I stabilize myself - as breath

I realize this is me as the mind 
reacting to a negative energy experience
i have imagined within my mind
an alternate reality experience
where i am an alternate version of me

I assist myself to breathe through the reaction 
breathe through the resistance to work with numbers
forgive and correct myself

I commit myself to when and as i see myself 
justifying the excuse that i have to survive as someone who 
does not have to work with numbers
having a negative energy experience working with numbers
desiring only positive energy experiences
to be whole

I stop
I breathe

I realized this is me as the mind justifying the excuse to be whole
instead of realizing this is balance in polarity
and that real wholeness does not need separation from the source

I change my starting point from
me seeing numbers as  a source of a negative energy experience
to establishing an equal and one relationship with numbers
forgiving and correcting myself
walking out of the mind in every moment
i see me reacting

redefine the word numbers 
live the redefined meaning of the word

so as i redefine numbers

I redefine myself 
to that
who always stand for what is best for all

I redefine this world
to a world 
that always stand for what is best for all

until all is free and life is here forevermore

Quote:
'to resonate and experience that word or such a memory
over and over and over again and because it resonates
over and over again into the very physical body
it ripple through into the water
and actually program the very physical from the depths of
the physical itself'
Parenting Perfecting The Human Race Part 6
https://eqafe.com/i/jroca-parenting-perfecting-the-human-race-part-6



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