The Paranoia For Beauty: Seeing Through The Eyes Of the Mind Day 307

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In this blog i am looking at how i abused my eyes

as i participate in positive, neutral and negative energy experiences

fearing to see ugliness

desiring to see beauty

as the Mind/Ego/ Persoality/ Character
perceived separate from all

being directed by my thoughts rather than me directing me here

So, i am directing myself in this blog

To through self-forgiveness, and self correction in my living
stop the paranoia
in  'my within' as the mind

so as i take self-responsibility 
in 'my within' as the mind

take self-responsibility in 'my without' as this world system

birth me here as equal to all that is here - as Life


What is self-forgiveness?
http://juneroca.com/home/my-process/self-forgiveness/

Self-forgiveness Statements:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of
fear of survival - as form - as energy - as the eyes
fear that i will not be able to see the beautiful things in life
desiring to see through my eyes
to have a positive experience of life

believing that if my eyes do not have 20/20 vision
i will not have
a positive energy experience
in life
believing that only if my eyes can see the beauty of nature etc
will i be happy

believing that my eyes do not have a 20/20 vision because of my age

believing that blind people are unfortunate because they cannot see

instead of realizing that it is me
manipulating the eyes to look at pictures, forms etc.
and connecting/defining whatever i see to a word, a picture, a memory etc.
that i have given a positive or a negative value to

using the mind to manipulate the body to see
for the positive energy experience of it
seeing everything through my mind
and judging what i see as either beautiful, 'so-so' or 'ugly'

fearing to see that which i defined as ugly

fearing to see the poor
fearing to see suffering
fearing to see crime
fearing to see criminals
fearing to see deformed forms
fearing to see sickness and death
fearing to see people in pain
fearing to see clutter/mess
fearing to see failure
fearing to see dirty places
fearing to see the inequality
fearing to see evil
fearing to see abuse

fearing to see what is here

fearing to see reality
desiring to imagine an alternate reality within my mind

fearing to see/look at the consequence of what i accepted and allowed in this world 
for fear of taking self-responsibility 

desiring a positive energy experience
using the eyes
abusing the eyes

the mind manipulating the eyes to see or not see
based on what i like to see or not like to see
based on my fears

within this
resourcing the body 
for energy

for the mind to exist

taking from the body 
what it needs to support itself to survive

the evil me
like a vampire
sucking the life
out of the physical/body

the body that has eyes
that makes it possible for me to express myself here

the body that supports me to breathe

the body that supports me to see
all that is here

so i can take self-responsibility
for all - as me - as Life

the body that makes it possible for me to express myself here
in this one life 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse the body - as the eyes
within all these

instead of facing my fear 
and taking self-responsibility
for what i created in 'my within' as the mind - for what i judged as 'ugly' 'so-so'or 'beautiful'
and for the consequence it created 
in 'my without' as this world system

within thisPARANOIA
i created within myself

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
doubt who i am
the one seeing the positives in life, the neutral or the negatives
the 'beautiful', the 'so-so' and the 'ugly'

or the one who is here
as breath
that can see with or without the eyes
that can see in whatever form i am in
human, animals, plants, things etc.
as i am part of this one life
equal to all that is here
by virtue of being birthed into this world
as all are birthed here

seeing what is real
as what is here - as the physical
as who i am, what i am and how i am
without judging what i see 
according to what will give me 
a positive, neutral or negative energy experience
based on my beliefs

Through this,
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
blame the body/physical
for creating eyes unequal
making others see with a vision 20/20 and others not

blaming my my eyes for not being able to see
blaming the body for aging
blaming the physical for creating beautiful and ugly people
blaming the body/physical for malfunctioning

instead of realizing
it is me as the mind
the evil me
only thinking of myself - within self-interest
desiring positive energy experiences

resourcing the body
for energy
for the mind to exist
whenever i participate in thoughts, backchats, reactions and behaviours
that are mind directed

realizing that it is me as the mind
connecting words, things, pictures, events, people, form, memories etc. i see
to words, pictures, things, events, people, form, memories etc.
which i have given a positive, neutral and a negative value to
which made me see the picture etc.
as positive, neutral or negative
experiencing it in a  positive, neutral or a negative way

Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have the excuse that
i have to survive as the one that is able to see through the eyes
having perfect vision

believing that the eyes are more than me because without it i cannot see

instead of realizing that i am here as breath able to see
with or without the eyes

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in these beliefs

Through this
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
justify my excuse
that i have to survive as the one that is able to see through the eyes
to be whole
believing that i will be inferior if i will not have eyes to see
believing that if my eyes do not see clearly
i am less than myself -inferior

instead of realizing this is balance in polarity

It is to realize that
 real wholeness does not need separation from the source

as who i am is here
as breath in every moment
moving me, directing me, expressing me

The Body: Sex and Self Intimacy SCS 3 Day 138 Who Am I? The Sex Is Happiness Character

 

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Imagining a Relationship With the Prospective Partner 

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine how will the relationship with the prospective partner be  and what we will do if ever we end up being together existing as the character that is an alternate version of me with another character within /as my mind in the 'future' - which is a time that is not here as me as this moment - hoping - where i am not self-directive - as i am defining myself within the 'hoping we 'll be together' character - a mind character which is an alternate version of me. I am not here as the real character. I am trapped as the mind character that is in a 'future time' as the noise in my head while i exist as the real character here - as flesh - as blood - as the physical . 

I am correcting myself and writing a script to assist me as the real character - as flesh - as blood - to stop living an alternate version of me within/as my mind - rather, be here and enjoy my expression as the real character interacting with another as me.

Self-Correction Script

When and as i see myself imagining how will the relationship with the prospective partner be 
- i stop and breathe. I realise that when i go to an alternate reality within/as my mind to imagine - i am not here in physical reality. I am trapped within an idea of a 'future positive experience' which i made up. I am in an alternate reality other than here. So, the noise within my head will stop me from looking at what is here - as the breath that is here as this moment -  so i bring  myself back here and stomp my feet. I say, 'i am here'. This will make me see clearly what is going on and then decide - coming from a starting point of assisting myself to have a real self-directive decision to take on an agreement to assist me as self and assist another as self  - where within this i am saying 'this is who i am, this is what i am as my expression to you for you with you and as you - here unconditionally supporting you' - where we will be both standing for what is best for all life.

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Backchats: The Subconscious Mind

Stopping The Subconscious Mind

Self-forgiveness for Backchats: 

'that guy looks nice, good, intelligent, reserved, wealthy, perfect, dresses well, clean, intelligent, looks a little naughty but child like'

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use backchat as a method to desire positive energy experiences through attraction with a male who fulfills my idea of a 'perfect sexual partner' - believing that my perfect partner is nice, good, perfect, intelligent, reserved, wealthy, dresses well, clean, looks a little naughty but child-like - defining myself within the 'my perfect man' character


I am correcting myself and writing a script to assist me as the real character - as flesh - as blood - to stop living an alternate version of me within/as my mind - rather, be here and enjoy my expression as the real character interacting with another as me.

Self-correction Script

When and as i see myself using backchat as a method to desire positive energy through attraction with a male who fulfills my idea of a 'perfect sexual partner - i stop - i breathe. I realise these are all ideas based on what i heard my dad say, what i've seen at the movies, what i saw on tv and what i heard from my friends. I created this idea within/as my mind 
from the point of fear of being unhappy having a man that is the opposite of all these positive points which essentially is a man that is not nice, bad, imperfect, dumb, loud, poor, someone who dresses up having a creased shirt, dirty shoes, smelly socks with a dark red shirt and dark green pants on, dirty, unshaven, rough angry looking, spiteful and bossy man - see what i connected these ideas to, what i get as a positive energy experience and from that correct my physical expression. I bring myself back here - looking at what triggered it and correct myself -  stomp my feet, slow myself down and stabilize my breathing saying 'i am here'. 

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'His stare tells me he also likes me'

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use backchat as a method to connect his eyes to a 'stare that i equated with the idea that he likes me' - believing what i see in the romantic movies like 'love story' etc. as real - defining myself within the 'staring - he likes me' character.

I am correcting myself and writing a script to assist me as the real character - as flesh - as blood - to stop living an alternate version of me within/as my mind - rather, be here and enjoy my expression as the real character interacting with another as me.

Self-correction Script

When and as i see myself using backchat as a method to connect his eyes to 'a stare that i equated with the idea that he likes me' - i stop - i breathe. I realise that eyes are part of the body and that i am separating myself from what is here by connecting it within/as my mind to pictures and images which i saw from the eyes of Ryan O'neil from the movie, 'Love Story'  where 'he fell in love with Ali McGraw' - and other 'romantic movies' -where, the mind sensing a similar 'external environment' it activated the 'staring - he likes me' character not seeing the eyes as just that - the eyes as a physical manifestation - that came from the same substance all are made of - equal to all that is here. I bring myself back here, slow myself down, stabilize my breathing and stomp my feet to physically wake me up.

2012 : Redefining Character: Connections: Part 2 Day 80 'I' as The Character as All The Characters In This World

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Redefining the word 'Character'

 Related Blogs:

Part 1 Redefining Character

Part 3 - 'What Does It Mean To Step Out of Character'?

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In part 1, i redefined the word 'character'. In this blog i am doing self-forgiveness for separating myself from the word 'character' within my mind where i connected the word  to other words charging  it with a positive or negative charge -  which gave it a positive or negative value respectively - believing within my use of the word, i was evolving  to/as a character that is more than me - and enjoying that positive experience as the 'moreness of me' - fearing the negative experience - which i defined myself within/as - not realizing that that is an evolution of separation - which is an illusion. 

Thus, I am committing myself to correct myself - in my use of the word 'character' from a starting point of what is best for me to a starting point that is what is best fro all life.

Self-forgiveness:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word character with a negative value

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word character with a positive value.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word character by charging it with a positive value

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word character by charging it with a negative value.

Positive:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word perfect

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word perfect

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word handsome

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word handsome

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word beautiful

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word beautiful

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word intelligent

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word intelligent

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word 

rich

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character  within the word  rich

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word spiritual

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word spiritual

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word 

special

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word special

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word favorite

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word favorite

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word clean

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word clean

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word organized

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word 

sexy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word sexy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word slim

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word slim

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word reserved

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word reserved

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word  dignified

I forgive myself that  i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word dignified

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word integrity

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word integrity

Negative

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word dumb

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word dumb

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word imperfect

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word imperfect

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word ugly

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word ugly

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word fat

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word fat

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word talkative

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word talkative

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word disorganized

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word disorganized

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word  poor

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word poor

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word 

undignified

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word undignified

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word careless

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word careless

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word lazy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word lazy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word evil

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word evil

Self-commitment statements:

I commit myself to speak words that i can live as an expression of who i am - within deconstructing the word, seeing how i defined myself within the word - and reconstructing it to a word which is consistent to what is here  - as equal to all that exist 

I commit myself to ensure that when i speak the word character that i am understood by the ones receiving it - where it is being received  in a context that i said it as - as the definition i give it consistent to what is here - and correct myself until it is understood

I commit myself to when and as i see myself  charging the word character with a positive or negative charge i stop and breathe and correct myself  - as well as another as me - where i look at the dimensions of the word and breath and correct my starting point

 I commit myself to to stop the desire to play the winning and losing game within my use of the word character - where before i speak the word character- i  look at the dimensions of the word - i breathe and correct my starting point

I commit myself to through writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - i will assist myself to direct the words i speak - and stop giving a positive and negative value to the word character.

When and as i see myself wanting to experience an accumulation of positive energy experience - i stop and breathe and correct my starting point. 

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Guide To Redefining Words

http://juneroca.com/words/redefining-words/

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Quotes:

'I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and embrace the clear certainty that the Beginning was the Word and that the Word was God, implying and stating that i as a creation and Creator of words are in fact The God of Words'

From: Creation's Journey To life Day 5

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/04/day-5-in-beginning-was-god.html

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'What is clear about words that are defined within and as self as polarized words, are that they are reactive in nature. Meaning when carrying a negatively or positively charged word within and as self, this polarity charged word will ‘react’ within its environment  seeking out designs of ‘homeostasis’ or ‘winning’.  The consequential outflows of negatively and positively charged words are predetermined in that they follow a specific pre-programmed path.'

'It is thus common sense to realize that, what we place as definitions within and as ourselves is what we manifest within the expression of ourselves. This is why we redefine words; to find the living expression evident in each word from the principle of oneness and equality. As we look at a word we are moving ourselves through the word to see what it represents and what it stands for as a living expression. By assigning a definition to the word we are developing our vocabulary by placing within the definitions, living definitions that stand free from polarity which are able to stand as living expressions of the words that we have redefined.' ~ 

'I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through the acceptance and allowance of the polarity game experience the positive polarity charge as a winning experience as well as the negative polarity charge as a losing experience within and as myself in the different contexts within which they presented themselves as.'

From Earth's Journey to Life Blog Day 6 

http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/05/redefining-words-part-3-experience-of.html

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I commit myself to – through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application – assist and support me to purify my words from energy/experience of the negative, neutral and positive, and re-align my words into and as physical practical living; where the words no more exist within and as energy – furthering/evolving the Mind and influencing/affecting others within my world deliberately to evoke/initiate/instigate within them and/or me experiences of and as energy as the competition between the Minds within the weapons of words, used/abused in the interest and survival of and as the Mind of Energy only. But that the words I am exist as Living Substance/Living Flesh as the equal and one living of words visibly within and as me and my world, where the Words I speak stand absolute as who I am in and as my physical equality and oneness. To so also stop the separation existent within the very Words I use, where words I speak out loud – differ from the words I speak silently within; simply indicating the extent to which we exist in separation/two worlds of the Mind and the Physical, where we’re one personality of Mind within ourselves and another in the without of Ourselves.
From Heaven Journey To Life 65

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/femininity-and-masculinity-day-65.html