Journey To Life Blogs
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Topic: Self-forgiving me and correcting me in my living application standing equal with the mind and stopping participation to birth me here as equal to/as all Life
Why am i using Mathematics?
I am using mathematical symbols to illustrate how i gave mind values instead of giving real values as the value of every manifestation is equal to the value that is Life
The Dimensions of the Mind:
Fear as The Base Platform of the Mind
Fear: Fear of not being able to go to India and see the guru
Conscious:
Thought : picture of me standing with wide eyes listening to the monk telling me i have to see Baba (the guru)
Imagination: me feeling something different when i see him
Reaction: wonder
Subconscious
Backchat: 'there must be some magical feeling being with the guru'
Unconscious
Body Movement: upper part of chest feeling warm. eyes opening wide
Consequence: learning from how i developed a relationship with the guru - within existing as an energy experience that i believed was real when it is in fact existent within a relationship that is coming from a MIND simulated version of reality as the physical body and this physical existence - so facing the consequence and breathing through it as i stand and change and birth me here as who i am
Intoducing The Quantum Mind
Introducing The Quantum Mind System(Systemization)
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FEAR
MIND DIMENSION
Self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to participate in the design of/as
'fear of surviving -as divinity - as space and time'
to fear not being able to go to India and see the guru
believing i have to see the guru to be a real 'devotee'
so gave the money
that was given to me by my ex-husband
to a monk
hoping i can go to India
and 'did what was asked for me to do'
to be able to see him in India
like a hypnotized walking human
in an alternate reality
within my mind
where i am an alternate version of me
leaving my kids behind
with just a maid to care for them
when my ex-husband was about to fly back home
from working from another country
i am secretly plotting to fly to another country to see the guru
believing that he will not approve of this
believing that if i
POSTPONE
in telling him the truth
i will not have to fear his anger
i will not have to fear having a disagreement
i will be able to do what i desire/want
believing that i can
face my ex-husband
face his anger when i return home
face the disagreement
believing by then, i already did what i want to do
or that which i desire to do so i win that way
believing the divine love that binds me and the guru
is more than the love that binds me to my family
as i saw the monks leave their family to be with the guru
the evil me running away from what is here
to go somewhere out there
believing India is a location that i have to be
believing the guru is special
so i must to go to India
to get a positive energy mind experience
not realizing that
India's soil is made of the same substance
the soil in the Phippines is made of
believing the guru is superior and i am inferior
believing that the guru has power to see the future and i don't
not seeing and realizing
that my mind is like a computer
storing information and memories
from the past
and living the past as the future in the present
instead of realizing that my guru can see the mind's
perception of the future - as the past in the present
as he sees through his mind's eyes
events in a timeline
that is like a seed
that is pre-programmed
and never asked the question:
Is him and me part of a pre- programmed seed?
Is him and me part of an interconnected system
Is him and me part of the grid?
Is everyone/everything a seed, that is pre-programmed
within space and time?
believing what the monk said
accepting what she said as my truth
connecting what she said with other
positive energy experiences i had in the past
like when i visited the city when i was a child
like when i ate peanut butter from the jar
like when i took a shower under the rain with my cousins
happy, enjoying myself, shouting and laughing
like the time when we visited malls
where my mom bought me food that i like
as memories within my mind
within positive (and negative) energy experiences
making the past as the future in the present
separate from what is here as the physical
out there in the FUTURE other than HERE
instead of realizing all is HERE
in this moment
i only have to stop participating in my mind
and stay with the physical
and be who i am as breath here in every moment
self-forgiving who i have become as the mind
and correcting myself in my living application
and birth me here as who i am
equal to - all life
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Mathematics of giving Mind Values
Vs
Giving Values Equal to Life
I realized that had given a mind value more than Life
to the Guru
and to where he lives, India
where
Guru = special
India = where the guru lives
Guru = special
India's soil = special
Guru = +10
India's soil = +10
Me = not special
Me = lives in the Philippines
Me = -10
Philippines (where i was then) = -10
Me = not special
Philippines = not special
Philippine soil = -10
*therefore i want to go to India
not realizing
these are mind values
which are not real
as i made them up in my mind
not seeing and realising
the real value
of all that is here as Life
not seeing the common sense that
India's soil is made of the same substance
the soil in the Philippines is made of
India's soil = Life
Philippine soil = Life
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'Family Love and Divine Love'
I realized i had given a mind value to 'Divine Love'
'Guru's Love = divine love= +20
Family's Love = mundane Love = +10
Divine love
= love that endures after death as the guru liberates me from bondage of birth and death
=+20
Family's love
= limited to love in this physical existence therefore love that binds
= +10'
Blaming the physical/substance
for giving the guru more value
and giving my ex-husband and kids lesser value
not realizing it is me as the evil me
giving manifestations mind values
not realizing love as an emotion that is the polarity opposite of
fear is not real as fear and love are like 2 poles of a magnet
not realizing that
my guru's body/physical/substance
is equal to my ex-husband's body/physical/substance
is equal to my kid's body/physical/substance
is equal to my body/physical/substance
is equal to the body/physical/substance of nature
is equal to the body/physical/substance of animals
is equal to the body/physical/substance of plants
so for me to give all the real value that is equal to Life
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Commitment to Correction
I commit myself to when and as i see myself
fearing not being able to go to India and see the guru
or not being able to go anywhere which i believed is special
because of a personality which i believed is special
I stop
I breathe
I realise that i connected the guru to
being special
as he is able to see the future
believing he is able to give me eternal life
or liberate me from my samaskara or karma
so connected his specialness
to the place he was residing, India
not realizing that these connections i did within my mind
an alternate reality
where i am an alternate version of me
so i assist myself to release myself from these
connections
and redefine the word 'guru'
I commit myself to assist myself to through writing, self-forgiveness and
self-correction in my living application
birth me here as who i am
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Redefining the Word 'GURU'
( sounds like Go RU-sh, Go RU-n)
From
G-o to yo-U-r teache-R and U-rge him/her for a positive energy experience
To
G-o be yo-U-r own teache-R and U-sher a life based on equality
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Note: The other mind dimensions will follow
To Be Continued
