Strict Piano Teacher: Postponement : Fear Dimension Day 186

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Postponement Character

My 'Strict' Piano Teacher 

Fear Dimension

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to as a child see, realise and understand the concept of time, of space and time, and practical, physical reality responsibility and consequence as i had primarily in my childhood years lived in the' happy - please me - i am your child' world, where i immediately satisfy my wants, needs and desires and preferences and then unexpectedly facing responsibility was something that i was interpreting as taking my want and desire away - believing that i will never get it or have it again completely locked into the idea/belief about time, not seeing, realising and understanding that it's not that i will not get it at all, it's just that responsibility comes first 

let's look at when my mom enrolled me in a piano lesson - where my teacher is very strict and has a small stick on her hand about to slap me on the hand when i make a mistake in my touching the piano keys - where i connected responsibility to doing something that will cause me pain and suffering - and something boring -fearing responsibility - and then live that as an adult within postponing to do my responsibilities and then blame the piano teacher and judge music as bad - when i could take responsibility rather than blame 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself with reactions of and the mind constructs of:

*Fear of learning something based on fear of suffering based from an experience of when i was a child learning piano - where i connected the stick of the teacher to suffering

-  imagining she will hit me with that stick 

-  guilty that i did not practice that music piece that was assigned to me 

- procrastinating in practicing piano 

- justifying that by thinking that i have to go to my cousins house to practice piano - as at that time we did not have a piano
within 'shyness' to stop taking self-responsibility - where i procrastinated to go to my cousins house to practice piano -  

- Believing that i am inferior to my cousins because we don't have a piano and they have one - within jealousy - designing competition - where i stopped myself from taking responsibility - which i acted out in my life - and within all this because of my 'too lateness' in my practicing piano - i created another character of 'i don't care'

*Regret that i have not taken self-responsibility to take time and take responsibility in practicing the piece of music that was assigned for me to practice - within fear that i will commit mistakes - and justify procrastinating through blaming my teacher and music - and instead of practicing playing the piano, i did what i desire to do - and get the positive energy experience out of talking and laughing with my relatives and friends and eating food with them - which is what i used the most to entertain me as the mind.

- having the consequential outflow of me not being able to play music as an adult

- Desires to learn music as an adult - but blames the teacher for not giving me the basics to music 

- when i can take self-responsibility to teach myself the basics of music by looking at music as equal to my expression - and redefining the word music


Without seeing , realising and understanding that i am in fact in this, angry and frustrated with myself for having postponed practicing the piece assigned to me, when i knew what i was doing as the 'postponement' character - but did not stop myself and did not take responsibility.

Self-commitment

To recreate me as Someone that can be Trusted to Stand For What Is Best for All 

 I commit myself to assist and support me to see, realise and understand how i can no more accept and allow me to in moments of responsibility want to satisfy my wants, needs and desires first before getting to the task or responsibility - because if i make my wants as priority - this means i cannot be trusted in my own life in relation to determining what is best for me in this world/reality in my hands and get things done in prioritizing me/my time in such a way that i get to do the responsibilities first that will assist me in my self-perfection process and then afford some time to do what i prefer to do - 

I commit myself to when and as i see myself fearing suffering, i stop - i breathe and  walk back and see what fear created this fear of suffering, - and seeing that it is my fear of not existing within fear of  death - of me - not realizing the 'me' that i believe is me is not real aware - and that it's awareness of me in separation of me as all life - and so assist myself to be AWARE of me as the physical/body/substance - the plant's body, the animal's body, the body of the earth etc. - as all life

I commit myself to instead of creating another personality when i am faced with the consequence of 'too lateness' as the 'i do not care' character - i stop - i breathe - and allocate the tasks within the day where i can do what's needed to be done - using commonsense that if i do not know what to do or how to do a task or not having the needed equipments to do the task - write down what is commonsensical to do at that moment to finish the task and when and how - specific to where i can finish and do it.

I commit myself to assist myself to redefine and use the words responsibility, assignment and music - as equal to my expression.

'What Do I do Next?' 'I Might Forget': ' Day 179: 'Postponement' Character

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    I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect me, my experience of me and my definition of me to a thought of seeing myself looking at the computer noticing that i had been working in the computer for a while - having a thought 'what do i do next?- where i am seeing myself bored and thinking that i do not have freedom and is controlled by being there for a long time - and in that accepting and allowing myself to become an energy-experience of boredom - and in that moment accept and allow the thought and experience of boredom - as this is what i have become in that moment
    
    
    I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how with that thought coming up in my conscious mind and me relating to the image resonating boredom - as the initial negative -- that if i accept and allow to connect to it, relate to it or participate in it - where i in any way believe that that thought is me - i will accordingly become it and experience it
    
    
    I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how i have accepted and allowed thoughts as memories and my experience towards it - to decide who i am in a moment -instead of me directing who i am in every moment of breath
    
    
    I commit myself to when and as i see myself connect me, my experience of me and my definition of me to the thought 'what do i do next?' - i stop - i breathe - i realise that who i am is not the negative energy experience of boredom and i realise that who i am is not the positive energy experience of wanting to see what should i do next - to make myself believe that i am finished and is going to finish another task - where in a way i am seeking the moreness of me within stopping what i am doing and starting another one - believing that i am doing more - where i am deceiving myself - where in fact i am participating in a thought - directed by the mind - so to assist myself to rather than be directed by an experience - to instead of an energy experience connection - which leads to postponement develop a self-aware seeing and form a self-agreement to establish directive will to not participate in the energy and actually move oneself to finish the task that one is doing - and take a breath when and as the thought arise and apply myself in completing the task that i have committed to finish - seeing and realising that if i do not apply myself it will more often than not lead me to consequence and compromise to my relationship to self, my life and others .
    
    
    I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in imagination of seeing that i can finish so many tasks at once - where i am seeking the 'moreness' of me - within a perceived positive energy experience - in a future time - and also seeing that i might forget to do that task in my mind - - within a perceived negative energy experience and then creating a perceived positive experience by getting up and doing the task while leaving the task i am doing at that moment - and within and as the imagination accepted and allowed myself to connect me, my awareness a, my definition and my experience of me into a reaction of excitement and anxiety respectively
    
    
    I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to 'visualize' the amount of time it will take me to finish the task - and within that 'visualise' the energy experience of excitement and anxiety respectively and seeing how excited i am going to feel when i finish the tasks i imagined and how much anxiety i will have if i will not remember the tasks i just thought about if i do not stand up and do it respectively - and within the anxiety - experience also regret that i did not do the task when i thought about it
    
    
    I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how i have taken reality and imagine an alternate version of it within/as my mind spending moments as breaths participating in the reaction of excitement , anxiety - and regret respectively - within the imagination - instead of me simply applying myself in that moment and moving me to complete the task.
    
    
    I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that to change my definition and experience within/as my mind does not in fact mean i have changed in fact. i have to move me and manifest me as an actual physical manifested solution within my finishing the task and doing it as per i have directed me to do.
    
    
    I commit myself to when and as i see myself imagining i can finish so many tasks at once and being excited about it - i stop - i breathe and clap my hands twice to bring me back here and slow myself down and finish the task - seeing realising and understanding that it is me seeking the 'moreness' of me as an alternate version of me within/as my mind - and that doing the task and finishing it as what i directed me to do is me as the real character - as flesh - here moving me in self-directive will.
    
    
    I commit myself to when and as i see myself imagining i might forget the task i imagined in my mind - to instead of stopping the task i am doing - to realise, see and understand that is is me as the alternate version of me manipulating me to live as the 'posponement' character - and to see, realise and understand that who i am is here - as flesh - moving me to do what i directed me to do within my schedule of tasks to do and so to assist myself to finish what i directed me to do.
    
    
    I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to speak to my own thoughts and imaginations within my mind as response to the imagination and energy experience within the words of 'what do i do next' this seems to be going okay - i got this under control, what else needs to be done? If i do not do this now, i will forget about this ' - where i have transformed words into thoughts, memories, images, fantasies within/as my mind within the context of the energy experiences as reactions of excitement, anxiety and regret respectively connected to it - where i have allowed the energy relationship and mind relationship to words to define me and move me in determining who i am - instead of me in self-awareness living words as the living flesh and so has become the 'postponement'  character in a dream world of the mind- instead of as the real character living in a physical world here
    
    I commit myself to when and as i see myself speak to my own thoughts and imaginations within my mind - i stop - i breathe. I realise that this is me as the alternate version of me within/as my mind as the 'posponement' character wanting to survive in an alternate reality within my mind - transforming words into thoughts, memories, images and fantasies within/as my mind within reactions of excitement, anxiety and regret respectively connected to the backchat - so to assist myself to instead of accepting and allowing an energy relationship and mind relationship to words to define me and move me - assist me to move me in self-awareness living words as the living flesh to birth me as the real character - moving in self-directive will to finish my task.
    
    
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Solution Blueprint: I Am A Copy of My Mom: Like Mother like Daughter Day 159 'Late' Character Sept 13, 14, 15, 16 ,17, 18 and 19

'Like Mother Like Daughter'

Here i am doing a Solution Blueprint for the 'Late' Character, where i started with a 'To Do List' and i am bringing you with/as me in this journey to life where i direct myself through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application for thoughts and backchats during the day. I am going to post the self-forgiveness and self-commitment statements for what i wrote here today - in the blogs to come . I am taking you to 'peep through' my breath by breath moment by moment  movement of myself - for 2 weeks - while i have a shower , eat, stretch my body etc. The x and / symbols correspond to tasks i have done (/) and not done (x). I am looking at who i have become as the 'Late' character and step out of the character - showing my breath by breath movement. 

This is in conjuction with the 21 Days Breathing where i also look at the thoughts and backchats within my mind and through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - direct them moment by moment.  

This is not meant to be 'right and wrong'  based on 'morality' - which is a polarity manifestation within the mind . Rather, i am directing me moment by moment here and correcting myself as i walk through the self-dishonesties that i accept and allow - that stop me from seeing who i really am - as self.

I started this solution blueprint when i saw that i have been late in my assignment:

http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-breath-21-days-breathing-part-7-day.html

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Self- Direction 

To Do Breath by Breath

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I did not do any ' To Do List' for these days
 Sept. 13, 14, 15, 16, 17 and 18

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I did a 'To Do list' again today, the 19th of September and directed me to:

*do each task one by one . 

I directed myself to put a check beside the task when i finished doing it - then i directed me to go to the next one - and do the same thing until i finish all the tasks.  
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I have seen that i am participating in the mind when: 

1.As i was looking at my email - i saw an email sent by my school mate about doing a study group - which i ended up answering. It was not really what i directed me to do.What i directed me to do was to send the corrected assignment by email to my buddy - so i stopped when i saw myself doing this and went back to email my assignment to my buddy. So, i was able to send the correction to my assignment the same day i received it. That was cool.

* What i saw happening is that i am procrastinating doing my assignment because i really did not understand how the arrows  are supposed to be arranged (there can be other points which i will investigate in the coming blogs) and it took me about 3 weeks or more emailing my buddy back and forth - when i can direct myself to get a clear picture of how this is done. There's a lot of points and dimensions within this 'arranging the arrows in my assignment' point. I will direct this in blogs to come.

*These are little things i do not see normally - and the main point here is self-dishonesty - where i did not ask myself, ' who  am i?- within what i do. 

2. Me directing me to do the JTL video - as i was supposed to do it Tuesday. As i was  was about to do it,i stood up to get something and as i pass the stove - i saw the okra (vegetable) that hasn't been cooked in the kitchen 'that will be wasted if not cooked' - and so then i asked my partner if he likes me to cook that - he said 'yes', and as i was about to cook it - i remembered that i directed me to upload the video. 

So, i finished the video and saved it and as i was going to upload the video in youtube, i saw that i have not post my other blog in Fb as i looked at the tabs - so i clicked on the Fb tab and as i was about to do it - i remembered i directed myself to do the JTL video  - so i stopped myself when and as i was about to - and so finished the video.

So, as i was saving the video, i looked at the mail inbox i saw another schoolmate posted in the school forum. He posted something about eating disorders -  i clicked it and read it . As i was about to upload the vlog to youtube the computer froze.
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*I have noticed i do other tasks in between tasks that i did not direct me to do. I do not focus on one task that needs to be done. This is me being a copy of my mom- as i saw her do this when i was young. I have a memory of her telling us she will go to the store for example at 10 AM and will arrive at about 7PM and when i asked she will tell me the whole story of where she went and all the stories of all these people she talked to and as i was being entertained hearing those stories - of when she went to a place , this other lady friend invited her to her place and then she saw another relative there and then this relative invited her to their place and so on and so forth. I accepted it as okay. I was participating in a positive energy experience as she told me the stories. I was laughing and asking her how  they are and what's happening to their lives. It is within that acceptance and allowance - i accepted and allowed myself to be a mind character copy of my mom.

*I will take this back to self and do self-forgiveness and correct myself.

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Sept 13, 2012

Shower
Self-massage
Stretches - 2 postures with breath
Bird *feed is still there
Pulled the grass and and put in the compost
/Rated
/JTL
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Creations
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3 Earth's Blogs
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/Food:
Raw pho soup with veggies and raw strawberry and mint cheesecake made from cashews

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Sept 14, 2012
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/Shower
/Stretch - 2 postures
xNo Massage
/Practiced driving around with my partner

/Bird *feed is still there
/Pulled the grass and and put in the compost
Swept little bit then hand it over to LP -  then come and gave him the broom
/Rated
/JTL
Heaven's
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
Creations
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/

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Food:
1/4 c raw thai coconut soup  *it was not how i would like it to taste - i changed it for the raw corn soup in the restaurant
4 raw raisin cinnamon cookie i made
Drank water
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Sept 15, 2012
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/Stretches - 2 postures plus twisting the body left and right *the body enjoys this
/Shower - did not see my backchat early enough
Self-massage - free style

/Bird *feed is still there
/Pulled the grass and and put in the compost
/Practiced driving around with my partner
/Rated
/JTL
Heaven's
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
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Food:

Baked potato with grits and 1 Tbspn butter salt and pepper  1 c steamed vegetables
Drank water
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Sept 16
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/Shower
/Stretch - 2 postures and twisting body left and right
xNo Massage * I forgot i was in hurry to do all the things i have to do
/Practiced driving around with my partner

/Bird *feed is still there
/Pulled the grass and and put in the compost
/Rated
/JTL
Heaven's
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
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Food
3 small raw enchilada with tomatillo sauce and tomato sauce
1/2 raw brownie
Drank water

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Sept 17 Monday
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/Did raw food preparation 
/Delivery today

/Shower
/Stretch - 2 postures
/Massage
/Driving Theory

/Bird *feed is still there
/Pulled the grass and and put in the compost
/Rated
xJTL
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Food:
Lunch :

pulled smoked pork 1/4 c
smoked potato 3/4 of the whole
1 marinated artichoke with stem
Dinner: smoked pork (1/2 c ) and sauerkraut (pickled cabbage)
Drank water
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/JTL  Heavens
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xEarth and Creations
Made Poster for vegetarian Class
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Sept 18 Tuesday
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/Did the correction to the poster - called the office and got it printed
/Stretches - 2 of one posture and 3 of another posture with variations.
*normally there's a number of times one do the postures according to the theories but i did it according to what the body enjoys- i varied the posture and added some stretches to it while in that postture
/Body Massage
/Nutrition Course Lectures
/Self-Massage
/Shower
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/Food:
carob covered unsweetened raisins - 1/2 cup for the day
1/2 c slice salmon smoked
1/4 c fresh mozarella cheese
corn chips (Tostito's Natural)- 15 pcs and 1/4 c guacamole
Drank water
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Distributed 147 leaflets in the area for vegetarian cooking class tomorrow
swept the floor and mopped the floor
cleaned toilet bowl
Put the grains in containers
Saw a movie in the moviehouse,  'Resident Evil'
Ate: popcorn - small with little butter and salt
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Sept. 19
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*Received Assignment feedback today and responded today with the assignment correction 

*I have directed myself to make sure that the first thing i work on every morning is my DIP assignment as it is assisting me in my process of self-perfection. 

/Stretches - 2 of one posture and 3 of another posture with variations in one posture

/Body Massage
/Responded to email by classmate on forming a study group
/Self-Massage
/Shower
/Rated
/JTL  Heavens -Read 3 Blogs, 

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/

Earth 1
http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-122-impatient-character.html

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/Food

/Stretches - 2 of one posture and 3 of another posture with variations.
*normally there's a number of times one do the postures according to the theories but i did it according to what the body enjoys- i varied the posture and added some stretches to it while in that posture. Will post a blog on this.
/Body Massage
/Self-Massage
/Shower

Lunch : okra stirfry with peppers and tomatoes plus marinated mushrooms, 3 breads and 2 Tablespoons rice
2 pili nuts 
Dinner: What my partner cooked in class as he is one of the participants cooking - vegetable stirfry with vegetable ground meat (not soy based)
http://redefiningvegetariancooking.wordpress.com/vegetarian-classes/
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/*Did a vegetarian cooking class today  
/Did update the website with some photos

2012 'What Does It Mean To Step Out of CHARACTER?' Part 3 Day 81

 My Story

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Part 1 Redefining Character

Part 2 - Redefining Character: Connections

I am  stepping out of character 
I am stopping participation within positive and negative experiences of happiness and sadness, love and hate, inferiority and superiority, beauty and ugliness, feeling good and feeling bad, success and failure etc.


The Basis of the Decision:


The character is directed by the mind - as ones positive and negative energetic experiences, beliefs, judgments etc. becomes the driving force behind everything one says, writes and do. The self is not here. The character is here, trapped within ones words - which one charged with a positive or negative value. Fear of losing ones accumulated positive experience, the character seeks out positive experiences in the environment  - to win, within an illusion that one is competing with everything and everyone and in the process support other characters who compete with each other and create a world based on competition - as consumerism etc. - which we have now.


The Change:
From: Character (Separation) awareness   
To:Real awareness of who i am - as all LIFE 


From: Creation of character (Separation)
To: Recreating who i am as the character - that stands for/as what is best for ALL LIFE

From: An accumulation of positive experience ( an illusion of what is HERE )        
To: What is HERE - as breath - as All Life

From: Defining Myself within words with positive or negative charge
To: Redefining my words to express me as who i am - as all life

The Self-direction:

To Birth Me Here as Life - as The Character that stands for what is best for all Life using self-forgiveness and self commitment to correct myself in every moment of breath - from a starting point of what is best for me - to a starting point of what is best for all - realizing the commonsense that what is best for all is essentially what is best for me..

2012 : Redefining Character: Connections: Part 2 Day 80 'I' as The Character as All The Characters In This World

My Story

Redefining the word 'Character'

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Part 1 Redefining Character

Part 3 - 'What Does It Mean To Step Out of Character'?

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In part 1, i redefined the word 'character'. In this blog i am doing self-forgiveness for separating myself from the word 'character' within my mind where i connected the word  to other words charging  it with a positive or negative charge -  which gave it a positive or negative value respectively - believing within my use of the word, i was evolving  to/as a character that is more than me - and enjoying that positive experience as the 'moreness of me' - fearing the negative experience - which i defined myself within/as - not realizing that that is an evolution of separation - which is an illusion. 

Thus, I am committing myself to correct myself - in my use of the word 'character' from a starting point of what is best for me to a starting point that is what is best fro all life.

Self-forgiveness:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word character with a negative value

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word character with a positive value.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word character by charging it with a positive value

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word character by charging it with a negative value.

Positive:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word perfect

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word perfect

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word handsome

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word handsome

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word beautiful

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word beautiful

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word intelligent

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word intelligent

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word 

rich

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character  within the word  rich

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word spiritual

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word spiritual

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word 

special

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word special

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word favorite

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word favorite

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word clean

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word clean

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word organized

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word 

sexy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word sexy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word slim

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word slim

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word reserved

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word reserved

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word  dignified

I forgive myself that  i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word dignified

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word integrity

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word integrity

Negative

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word dumb

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word dumb

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word imperfect

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word imperfect

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word ugly

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word ugly

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word fat

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word fat

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word talkative

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word talkative

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word disorganized

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word disorganized

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word  poor

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word poor

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word 

undignified

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word undignified

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word careless

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word careless

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word lazy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word lazy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word character to the word evil

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word character within the word evil

Self-commitment statements:

I commit myself to speak words that i can live as an expression of who i am - within deconstructing the word, seeing how i defined myself within the word - and reconstructing it to a word which is consistent to what is here  - as equal to all that exist 

I commit myself to ensure that when i speak the word character that i am understood by the ones receiving it - where it is being received  in a context that i said it as - as the definition i give it consistent to what is here - and correct myself until it is understood

I commit myself to when and as i see myself  charging the word character with a positive or negative charge i stop and breathe and correct myself  - as well as another as me - where i look at the dimensions of the word and breath and correct my starting point

 I commit myself to to stop the desire to play the winning and losing game within my use of the word character - where before i speak the word character- i  look at the dimensions of the word - i breathe and correct my starting point

I commit myself to through writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - i will assist myself to direct the words i speak - and stop giving a positive and negative value to the word character.

When and as i see myself wanting to experience an accumulation of positive energy experience - i stop and breathe and correct my starting point. 

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Guide To Redefining Words

http://juneroca.com/words/redefining-words/

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Quotes:

'I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and embrace the clear certainty that the Beginning was the Word and that the Word was God, implying and stating that i as a creation and Creator of words are in fact The God of Words'

From: Creation's Journey To life Day 5

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/04/day-5-in-beginning-was-god.html

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'What is clear about words that are defined within and as self as polarized words, are that they are reactive in nature. Meaning when carrying a negatively or positively charged word within and as self, this polarity charged word will ‘react’ within its environment  seeking out designs of ‘homeostasis’ or ‘winning’.  The consequential outflows of negatively and positively charged words are predetermined in that they follow a specific pre-programmed path.'

'It is thus common sense to realize that, what we place as definitions within and as ourselves is what we manifest within the expression of ourselves. This is why we redefine words; to find the living expression evident in each word from the principle of oneness and equality. As we look at a word we are moving ourselves through the word to see what it represents and what it stands for as a living expression. By assigning a definition to the word we are developing our vocabulary by placing within the definitions, living definitions that stand free from polarity which are able to stand as living expressions of the words that we have redefined.' ~ 

'I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through the acceptance and allowance of the polarity game experience the positive polarity charge as a winning experience as well as the negative polarity charge as a losing experience within and as myself in the different contexts within which they presented themselves as.'

From Earth's Journey to Life Blog Day 6 

http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/05/redefining-words-part-3-experience-of.html

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I commit myself to – through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application – assist and support me to purify my words from energy/experience of the negative, neutral and positive, and re-align my words into and as physical practical living; where the words no more exist within and as energy – furthering/evolving the Mind and influencing/affecting others within my world deliberately to evoke/initiate/instigate within them and/or me experiences of and as energy as the competition between the Minds within the weapons of words, used/abused in the interest and survival of and as the Mind of Energy only. But that the words I am exist as Living Substance/Living Flesh as the equal and one living of words visibly within and as me and my world, where the Words I speak stand absolute as who I am in and as my physical equality and oneness. To so also stop the separation existent within the very Words I use, where words I speak out loud – differ from the words I speak silently within; simply indicating the extent to which we exist in separation/two worlds of the Mind and the Physical, where we’re one personality of Mind within ourselves and another in the without of Ourselves.
From Heaven Journey To Life 65

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/femininity-and-masculinity-day-65.html

2012: Redefining Character Part 1 Day 79 The ' I ' as The Character as All Characters In This World'

 Related Blogs:

Part 2 - Redefining Character: Connections

Part 3 'What Does it Mean To Step Out of Character'?

Guide To Redefining Words

http://juneroca.com/words/redefining-words/http://juneroca.com/words/redefining-words/

This is the First Part of my series of blogs which is about me stepping out of character to birth me here as LIFE. I realized that the ' I ' as the character is supporting all characters in this world to remain as the characters that we all are -making this world the way it is .

Redefining Character:

According to the Dictionary  Character is,

the aggregate of features and traits that form the individual nature of some person or thing.


This definition is coming from the character defined by its experiences- using words which it separated itself from - charged by positive or negative value  - within positive, neutral or negative experiences -   . The limited definition is directing the character as per the relationship it formed with the word.  


I am directing me here by redefining the word and giving it meaning that i can live as equal to who i am - as all life .


Redefining Character

(Cycles of be-H-aviors 'I'  p-A-rticipate in, R-ealizing that the 'A-ll' is the 'i' as E-nergy of the cha-R-acters i am living) 


The aggregate of features and traits that form the individual nature of some person or thing - perceived separate from all that is here - using words which it separated itself from - charged by a positive or negative value - within positive, neutral or negative experiences - defined by movement, friction and balance -as one participates in thoughts, feelings, emotions etc. In ones creation of ones character as the creator and created - in separation within ones mind, one creates an illusion of an evolution of oneself - in the evolution of separation. The character is evolving throughout time looking for more of itself/ as more of  here - missing oneself - as who one is as what is here as all life . 


One wakes up to ones existence in this world based on inequality where - one seeks for the 'moreness of oneself ' as the more of money - as ones character - supports the characters within ones family - looking for the 'moreness of themselves', the characters within the society - looking for the 'moreness of themselves' within the pursuit of happiness though money.


As one looks at the commonsense of  'who i am' as  who 'I am here' - as breath in every moment - through ones process of self-perfection - stops the mind, steps out of  ones limited character and births oneself as a character that stands for what is best for all life - changes oneself within that is expressed as the words one speaks  and ones actions that is directed by and as self - self-forgiving oneself as the character and deleting the memory of that character - to recreate oneself. One commits to correcting oneself in every moment of breath - to speak words, write words and act as who one is - as the physical character - as ones physical body - as the blood, as the bones, as the muscles etc. - eternal - one who has an individual purpose for being in this world -ones allocation as part of the whole -being or using ones talents and skills -   for what is best for all life - where ones individual nature is expressed for what is best for all.


Realizing that one mirrors what is within to what is without and what is without to what is within - aligns ones expression of oneself by assisting in establishing a world that truly honors life - based on equality - where humans, animals, plants etc. live as equals.

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Quotes:

This ‘character-creation’ of ourselves originated from and of the moment we as substance separated ourselves into and as an innumerable amounts of manifested-singularities, where substance took on the character of “There Must be MORE than ME, there must be MORE than ME as HERE”.  And so within the creation/manifestation of that character from and of itself – Substance accordingly manifested/created the embodiments/manifestations of that character from, within and as itself that manifested as the MORE of itself as all the manifested/accumulated manifested-singularities into and as which it separated itself creating/manifesting the Illusion of MORE. And so separated itself from HERE into and as the accumulation of and as Energies from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive the MORE it separated itself from itself as HERE.

Thus, this Illusion of MORENESS manifested the MORE it separated itself from Itself and HERE. And so, substance as ourselves created/manifested our/its first Character embodiments/manifestations

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/first-creation-of-character-day-79.html
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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the character I build, is the Character I play in the Story of my Life, looking for an Audience to Love my character so that my character can be Validated by someone else, because then I can also Believe that my character is Real: as it must be Real if someone else can see my character and Love it - but if you dare to Not Accept my character, I will hate you, because you do not Love what I love – my character – as the character of me I created as my Memory, which creates me as a Character, and so I am in the Circle of my Life as My character, as my Memory, recreating myself as the character with Everything that defines me as character – over and over again, having the exact same experience as this character until I decide to create a New Character which will follow the exact same pattern, ending with me as the Character in my Memory, where the memory creates Me. Thus, if my Memory creates me, is my Memory God?
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I commit myself to be the One that takes on the Character of Each One Here as their Ego, and to destroy the Memory that created the Character so that the Real One may step forth and See the Real Mess being Created so we can sort out the Mess on Earth we have created together, while lost as characters in our own Illusion of Memory.

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-79-stepping-out-of-character.html

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All of us are walking around like zombies – following the thoughts in our minds and putting on the suites of the characters as our minds guide us to the next suite to wear and the next and the next. Yet all this time we are trapped within and as our mind were we are trying to live out the thoughts as characters that come up within and as ourselves. We fight for the survival of our characters as ‘it is mine’, ‘it is who I know myself as’ and ‘nothing you can say or do will change that’ is the backchat that arises when the suite as characters are challenged within and as self.

We have moments of opportunities to dent our characters to allow ourselves and another as ourselves to stop living as characters and to allow ourselves to take a breathand be here within and as the moment that is here. 

http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-44-character-game.html?utm_source=BP_recent