'Like Mother Like Daughter'
Here i am doing a Solution Blueprint for the 'Late' Character, where i started with a 'To Do List' and i am bringing you with/as me in this journey to life where i direct myself through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application for thoughts and backchats during the day. I am going to post the self-forgiveness and self-commitment statements for what i wrote here today - in the blogs to come . I am taking you to 'peep through' my breath by breath moment by moment movement of myself - for 2 weeks - while i have a shower , eat, stretch my body etc. The x and / symbols correspond to tasks i have done (/) and not done (x). I am looking at who i have become as the 'Late' character and step out of the character - showing my breath by breath movement.
This is in conjuction with the 21 Days Breathing where i also look at the thoughts and backchats within my mind and through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - direct them moment by moment.
This is not meant to be 'right and wrong' based on 'morality' - which is a polarity manifestation within the mind . Rather, i am directing me moment by moment here and correcting myself as i walk through the self-dishonesties that i accept and allow - that stop me from seeing who i really am - as self.
I started this solution blueprint when i saw that i have been late in my assignment:
SOLUTION BLUEPRINT
'Late' Character
'Late' Character Blogs I Have Done :
21 Days Breathing Blogs
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Self- Direction
To Do Breath by Breath
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I did not do any ' To Do List' for these daysSept. 13, 14, 15, 16, 17 and 18
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I did a 'To Do list' again today, the 19th of September and directed me to:
*do each task one by one .
I directed myself to put a check beside the task when i finished doing it - then i directed me to go to the next one - and do the same thing until i finish all the tasks.
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I have seen that i am participating in the mind when:
1.As i was looking at my email - i saw an email sent by my school mate about doing a study group - which i ended up answering. It was not really what i directed me to do.What i directed me to do was to send the corrected assignment by email to my buddy - so i stopped when i saw myself doing this and went back to email my assignment to my buddy. So, i was able to send the correction to my assignment the same day i received it. That was cool.
* What i saw happening is that i am procrastinating doing my assignment because i really did not understand how the arrows are supposed to be arranged (there can be other points which i will investigate in the coming blogs) and it took me about 3 weeks or more emailing my buddy back and forth - when i can direct myself to get a clear picture of how this is done. There's a lot of points and dimensions within this 'arranging the arrows in my assignment' point. I will direct this in blogs to come.
*These are little things i do not see normally - and the main point here is self-dishonesty - where i did not ask myself, ' who am i?- within what i do.
2. Me directing me to do the JTL video - as i was supposed to do it Tuesday. As i was was about to do it,i stood up to get something and as i pass the stove - i saw the okra (vegetable) that hasn't been cooked in the kitchen 'that will be wasted if not cooked' - and so then i asked my partner if he likes me to cook that - he said 'yes', and as i was about to cook it - i remembered that i directed me to upload the video.
So, i finished the video and saved it and as i was going to upload the video in youtube, i saw that i have not post my other blog in Fb as i looked at the tabs - so i clicked on the Fb tab and as i was about to do it - i remembered i directed myself to do the JTL video - so i stopped myself when and as i was about to - and so finished the video.
So, as i was saving the video, i looked at the mail inbox i saw another schoolmate posted in the school forum. He posted something about eating disorders - i clicked it and read it . As i was about to upload the vlog to youtube the computer froze.
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*I have noticed i do other tasks in between tasks that i did not direct me to do. I do not focus on one task that needs to be done. This is me being a copy of my mom- as i saw her do this when i was young. I have a memory of her telling us she will go to the store for example at 10 AM and will arrive at about 7PM and when i asked she will tell me the whole story of where she went and all the stories of all these people she talked to and as i was being entertained hearing those stories - of when she went to a place , this other lady friend invited her to her place and then she saw another relative there and then this relative invited her to their place and so on and so forth. I accepted it as okay. I was participating in a positive energy experience as she told me the stories. I was laughing and asking her how they are and what's happening to their lives. It is within that acceptance and allowance - i accepted and allowed myself to be a mind character copy of my mom.
*I will take this back to self and do self-forgiveness and correct myself.
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The self-forgiveness and self-commitment for these points will be at the coming blogs
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Sept 13, 2012
Shower
Self-massage
Stretches - 2 postures with breath
Bird *feed is still there
Pulled the grass and and put in the compost
/Rated
/JTL
Heaven's
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
Creations
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
3 Earth's Blogs
http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
/Food:
Raw pho soup with veggies and raw strawberry and mint cheesecake made from cashews
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Sept 14, 2012
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/Shower
/Stretch - 2 postures
xNo Massage
/Practiced driving around with my partner
/Bird *feed is still there
/Pulled the grass and and put in the compost
Swept little bit then hand it over to LP - then come and gave him the broom
/Rated
/JTL
Heaven's
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
Creations
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
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Food:
1/4 c raw thai coconut soup *it was not how i would like it to taste - i changed it for the raw corn soup in the restaurant
4 raw raisin cinnamon cookie i made
Drank water
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Sept 15, 2012
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/Stretches - 2 postures plus twisting the body left and right *the body enjoys this
/Shower - did not see my backchat early enough
Self-massage - free style
/Bird *feed is still there
/Pulled the grass and and put in the compost
/Practiced driving around with my partner
/Rated
/JTL
Heaven's
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
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Food:
Baked potato with grits and 1 Tbspn butter salt and pepper 1 c steamed vegetables
Drank water
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Sept 16
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/Shower
/Stretch - 2 postures and twisting body left and right
xNo Massage * I forgot i was in hurry to do all the things i have to do
/Practiced driving around with my partner
/Bird *feed is still there
/Pulled the grass and and put in the compost
/Rated
/JTL
Heaven's
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
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Food
3 small raw enchilada with tomatillo sauce and tomato sauce
1/2 raw brownie
Drank water
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Sept 17 Monday
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/Did raw food preparation
/Delivery today
/Shower
/Stretch - 2 postures
/Massage
/Driving Theory
/Bird *feed is still there
/Pulled the grass and and put in the compost
/Rated
xJTL
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Food:
Lunch :
pulled smoked pork 1/4 c
smoked potato 3/4 of the whole
1 marinated artichoke with stem
Dinner: smoked pork (1/2 c ) and sauerkraut (pickled cabbage)
Drank water
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/JTL Heavens
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
xEarth and Creations
Made Poster for vegetarian Class
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Sept 18 Tuesday
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/Did the correction to the poster - called the office and got it printed
/Stretches - 2 of one posture and 3 of another posture with variations.
*normally there's a number of times one do the postures according to the theories but i did it according to what the body enjoys- i varied the posture and added some stretches to it while in that postture
/Body Massage
/Nutrition Course Lectures
/Self-Massage
/Shower
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/Food:
carob covered unsweetened raisins - 1/2 cup for the day
1/2 c slice salmon smoked
1/4 c fresh mozarella cheese
corn chips (Tostito's Natural)- 15 pcs and 1/4 c guacamole
Drank water
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Distributed 147 leaflets in the area for vegetarian cooking class tomorrow
swept the floor and mopped the floor
cleaned toilet bowl
Put the grains in containers
Saw a movie in the moviehouse, 'Resident Evil'
Ate: popcorn - small with little butter and salt
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Sept. 19
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*Received Assignment feedback today and responded today with the assignment correction
*I have directed myself to make sure that the first thing i work on every morning is my DIP assignment as it is assisting me in my process of self-perfection.
/Stretches - 2 of one posture and 3 of another posture with variations in one posture
/Body Massage
/Responded to email by classmate on forming a study group
/Self-Massage
/Shower
/Rated
/JTL Heavens -Read 3 Blogs,
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
Earth 1
http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-122-impatient-character.html
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/Food
/Stretches - 2 of one posture and 3 of another posture with variations.
*normally there's a number of times one do the postures according to the theories but i did it according to what the body enjoys- i varied the posture and added some stretches to it while in that posture. Will post a blog on this.
/Body Massage
/Self-Massage
/Shower
Lunch : okra stirfry with peppers and tomatoes plus marinated mushrooms, 3 breads and 2 Tablespoons rice
2 pili nuts
Dinner: What my partner cooked in class as he is one of the participants cooking - vegetable stirfry with vegetable ground meat (not soy based)
http://redefiningvegetariancooking.wordpress.com/vegetarian-classes/
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/Blog
/*Did a vegetarian cooking class today
/Did update the website with some photos
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