The Breath 21 Days Breathing Part 6 Day 4 JTL Blog Day 145 SF SCS Thoughts: SLOOOOW Myself Down

The Links To 21 Days Breathing:

http://juneroca.com/my-process/the-21-days-breathing/

This is a Continuation of This Blog:

http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-breath-21-days-breathing-day-1-self.html

Self-forgiveness 

For Day 1 Thoughts 
Being In The Mind - Holding my Breath, When :

1. Looking at the oat groats while washing them

Eyes focused on the oat groats
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to entertain and become preoccupied with wanting to find out how the oat groats would turn out when i sprout them - manipulating my eyes to open wide directed by the mind - to in that time not be aware of what is here as this physical existence as this breath - as this moment in this moment - which is who i am - as the real character -in physical reality - the 99% - and instead be directed by that desire to within/as my mind - in an alternate reality - as an alternate version of me which is 1% - allowing me to separate me from here - so i commit myself to stop - breathe and bring me back here - slooooow myself down - take that breath in real awareness of who i am here.

2. Reading a Buddhist text in the internet
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate the body - widening my eyes as i read some parts of the Buddhist texts that i connected to 'important information' needed for me to debunk other people's beliefs -  where i entertain the desire to know- within /as my mind -  separating me from what is here - as the  physical  - so i commit myself to stop - breathe - and rather than be driven by desire when looking at information - to assist myself to go be here and decide using commonsense to find information in the internet to cross reference what i am going to say about the subject - walk out of the mind - sloooow myself down - bring myself back here - and use commonsense.

3.While reading Vajrayana document on the internet  - looking for some documents about Tantra while writing the 'Tantrik Yogi' character in my blog -
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to 'catch up' on what Tantra says about life- believing i do not know the tantrik texts - to within that separate myself from what is here- for a positive energy experience of knowing and be an authority about the subject - instead of being here as breath in this moment cross-referencing information  - so i commit myself to stop - breathe - and  rather than look and separate from what is here - assist myself to be here as the breath - as i look at the information - where instead of separating myself from information i read - slooow myself down - be here as breath and look at the commonsense of information- as words - symbols equal to every manifestation or expression that exist.

4.While choosing which gadget to add in my website
'which one?'
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what is here by desiring answers within/as my mind - regarding which gadget i will add in my website so that i can have the gadgets all of my friends have - separate from the gadget - separate from my friends - so i commit  myself to assist myself to when and as i desire to look for gadgets to add which my friends have to be equal to their expression - i stop - i breathe . I bring myself back here and choose a gadget to add without desire - so as i breathe- i look for gadgets - in awareness of what is here - slooooow myself down and be here as the breath in this moment.

5. Formatting the words in my blog
'why does this come out like this - some are small and some are big?
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what is here as the physical by thinking the thought 'why does this comes out like this - some are small and some are big'  - fearing the blog will be judged by those who will read-  in an alternate reality within/as my mind - as an alternate version of me - so i commit myself to when and as i see myself having this thought and reacting in fear  - i stop - i breathe - realising i am here in this breath in this body moving and functioning and following a thought is missing this moment where i can apply myself to stop participation in the mind - so assist myself to format the words in my blog - being here in this breath in this moment- sloooow myself down and see what is here.

to be continued in the coming blogs

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Artwork
by Cathy Kraft
 http://cathy4worldequality.wordpress.com/