The Story of Nature, Rice, Banana Leaf, The Elephant, Jesus, Mahjong and Me Part 2 : SF1 Day 157 Happiness Charcter '

Me, The Elephant, Nature Rice, Banana Leaf, Jesus and Mahjong Part 2 

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This is a Continuation of This Blog:

Me, The Elephant, Nature Rice, Banana Leaf, Jesus and Mahjong Part 1 

http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-story-of-nature-rice-banana-leaf.html

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In my previous blog, i was doing self-forgiveness for a point - when the mind character's narrative unfolded - specifically the 'happiness' character - within connecting nature with 'picnics and vacations' - where i interpreted nature within my mind according to how i 'experience' it - believing nature is giving me a 'positive energy experience' - believing that nature gives me 'happiness' - not realizing i connected nature with the word picnic and vacations - which i have given a positive value to - where i did not see the real value of nature which is LIFE as instead of seeing that, i gave it a positive value -not realizing this is coming from 'fear of having a difficult life' - so the 'positive experience came from the negative' - which comes from friction/conflict ( within a positive and a negative polarity ) - as fear of a 'difficult life and desire for picnics and vacations' - so my 'desire for happiness' within going and having a picnic in nature - came from FEAR.

The different dimensions and the different characters i am playing out within this narrative unfolded as i was writing. I realised I CREATED A 'HAPPINESS CHARACTER' SYSTEM within my mind - and so i would like to do self-forgiveness for defining myself within each character here and in the coming blogs write a commitment statement to correct myself- as a first step - as a way of taking self-responsibility to step out of this 'happiness' character which has a life of its own within my mind - which i myself has given life to - having a relationship and internal conversation with other mind characters i created - in an alternate reality within my mind - with me as the main character - an alternate version of me - in a movie i created within my mind which i believed is real - not realising it was only real in as much as i manifested the 'fear and the happiness' in my physical body - manipulating my physical body to act out these mind characters - manifesting a belief - as who i believed i am these mind characters - not realizing that this is my awareness in separation from who i really am - created within my mind.

The real character that is me - is here - as breath in every moment -as who i am - as flesh - as blood - made from the same substance all are made of - equal to all that exist.

In later blogs i will investigate and open the point again and see how i created me as a mind character and all the characters i play in the 'happiness' program that i created which became a 'happiness character system' in my 'within' - which also shows how i created 'my without' as this world system - the' food industry', multi-level marketing, the 'gaming industry' etc. - and go deeper - looking at each character and stop.

The 'Happiness' Character

The Character System

Forgiving Self for Defining self within a character 

Self-forgiveness for self-definitions:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'fear of difficult life - sad - desiring happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'fear of being poor- no picnics - sad - desiring happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'fear of having no money to buy food - for picnics  - sad - desiring happiness' character
I forgive myself that i  have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'fear of not having fun with family and friends- sad - desiring happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'happy-go-lucky - desiring happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'working for money for picnics - desiring happiness' character

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I forgive myself that i  have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'food eating with hands - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'food on banana leaf - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'rice cooked in banana leaf - desire for food- happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire for grilled rellenong bangus- food - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire for daing na bangus- food - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire for picnics - food - happiness' character
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'laughter and jokes - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'playing mahjong with family - happiness' character
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'ivory - mahjong set - elephant cruelty - happiness' character

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'I own me - i have a right to be happy - individual- self-interest' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire to make my family happy by giving money or taking money from them - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire to be special and popular - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'i am normal - inferior - sad - character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'i fear not existing as the character within an alternate reality  defined by positive experiences' character

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desiring to win - won - help - by giving others free money - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desiring to win - lost - help - please give me money - i feel like i won - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'food for all wanting easy money - food as happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'food when playing mahjong - happiness with family' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire to please family I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'cooking food - family happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desiring to slaughter animals for food and profit' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'mining the earth by killing plants for food and profit' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desiring to stay as the mind character - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire to buy food - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire to cook food - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'me in relationship with other character supporting the world system - happiness' character
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'i created the food industry - as i eat - desiring happiness' character
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 To be continued in the coming blogs