The Story of Nature, Rice, Banana Leaf, The Elephant, Jesus, Mahjong and Me :Part 6 SF2 Day 158 Happiness Character '

Me, The Elephant, Nature Rice, Banana Leaf, Jesus and Mahjong Part 2 

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This is a Continuation of This Blog:

Me, The Elephant, Nature Rice, Banana Leaf, Jesus and Mahjong Part 1 

http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-story-of-nature-rice-banana-leaf.html

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In my previous blog, i was doing self-forgiveness for a point - when the mind character's narrative unfolded - specifically the 'happiness' character - within connecting nature with 'picnics and vacations' - where i interpreted nature within my mind according to how i 'experience' it - believing nature is giving me a 'positive energy experience' - believing that nature gives me 'happiness' - not realizing i connected nature with the word picnic and vacations - which i have given a positive value to - where i did not see the real value of nature which is LIFE as instead of seeing that, i gave it a positive value -not realizing this is coming from 'fear of having a difficult life' - so the 'positive experience came from the negative' - which comes from friction/conflict ( within a positive and a negative polarity ) - as fear of a 'difficult life and desire for picnics and vacations' - so my 'desire for happiness' within going and having a picnic in nature - came from FEAR.

The different dimensions and the different characters i am playing out within this narrative unfolded as i was writing. I realised I CREATED A 'HAPPINESS CHARACTER' SYSTEM within my mind - and so i would like to do self-forgiveness for defining myself within each character here and in the coming blogs write a commitment statement to correct myself- as a first step - as a way of taking self-responsibility to step out of this 'happiness' character which has a life of its own within my mind - which i myself has given life to - having a relationship and internal conversation with other mind characters i created - in an alternate reality within my mind - with me as the main character - an alternate version of me - in a movie i created within my mind which i believed is real - not realising it was only real in as much as i manifested the 'fear and the happiness' in my physical body - manipulating my physical body to act out these mind characters - manifesting a belief - as who i believed i am these mind characters - not realizing that this is my awareness in separation from who i really am - created within my mind.

The real character that is me - is here - as breath in every moment -as who i am - as flesh - as blood - made from the same substance all are made of - equal to all that exist.

In later blogs i will investigate and open the point again and see how i created me as a mind character and all the characters i play in the 'happiness' program that i created which became a 'happiness character system' in my 'within' - which also shows how i created 'my without' as this world system - the' food industry', multi-level marketing, the 'gaming industry' etc. - and go deeper - looking at each character and stop.

The 'Happiness' Character

The Mind Character System

Forgiving Self for Defining self within a Mind Character Part 2

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Self-forgiveness for Belief:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that desiring to win to be happy is good and losing and being sad is bad - not realizing that winning and losing are polarity opposites where one cannot exist without the other

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Self-forgiveness for Self-definitions:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the'desire to have money - competition - gambling - happiness' character

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire to win - gambling - happiness' character

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'i am winning -  everyone loves me - gambling - happiness' character


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'i won - i am popular - happiness' character

 I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire to win again -  all time winner - gambling - happiness' character

i forgive myself thati have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the  'giving money to family because i won and you lost - i need you to validate my existence - otherwise i will not exist - gambling - happiness' character

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'money was made from  a plant  - consuming earth's resources - consuming substance - reaping the earth - gambling - happiness' character


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'fear of losing money in gambling - instead of gambling - decides to eat tasty food in the food court - gambling - happiness' character

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'gambling is bad - not gambling is good - i don't gamble - i eat good food - desiring happiness' character 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the  'eating for pleasure -to forget my fears - gambling - happiness' character

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'i hate it but they do it - got to do it - if you can't beat them join them - i am still popular even if i don't gamble  - gambling - happiness' character

 

 I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within 'fear of not being liked - family and friends - what they do is okay even if i do not like it and what i do they okay - gambling - happiness' character

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'eating food in casinos - gambling - money and profit - happiness' character 

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'desire for eternally existing as the alternate version of me- happiness' character

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the ''fear of not being liked - desiring to be liked - happiness' character

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'fear not being supported by family - desire to be supported by family - happiness' character

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'fear not existing - desire for limitness existence as the mind  - positive energy experience - happiness' character