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SELF-FORGIVENESS
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This is a continuation of these Blogs:
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The Creations Journey To Life
Narrative And true Activism
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The MIND CHARACTER
The 'Observing the Breath' Character
The MIND CHARACTER'S NARRATIVE with Self-forgiveness
under another square thin cushion that is slightly bigger than the round one - defining myself within the 'zabuton mat - observing breath' character
normally done kneeling down bum supported by the cushion - but i just crossed my legs instead because i was doing tantrik am meditation for a long time with legs crossed defining myself within the ' feet crossed-observing breath' character
- acknowledging any thought coming in and letting it go of it - where i used this memory and modified it to fit my desired goal for this particular purpose - believing that when i do this it will shorten my process - defining myself within the 'i want it short and fast - observing breath' character -so i observed my breath and see if i will not have thoughts for 2 minutes - finding it was difficult for even 1 minute to do it without thoughts coming in - defining myself within the 'this is difficult - observing breath' character - so decided to make a startegy to make it easy by first doing it for 2 seconds and then increasing as i go - defining myself within the 'easy to do first - observing breath' character and then increase that to 3 minutes and increasing the number of minutes every day - defining myself within the 'evolving through increasing number - observing breath' character - where i did not allow thoughts to come in and when thoughts would come in - i started all over again - first sitting alone - defining myself within the 'sitting alone- observing breath' character - and then watching the television as i watch my breath - defining myself within the 'watching tv - observing breath' character - and then posing a challenge to every member of my network to do the 'thought - free challenge' - defining myself within the 'thought-free challenge - observing breath' character- until one day i was able to do 10 hrs thought - free - where i feel empowered - defining myself within the 'watching breath 10 hrs- empowered- observing breath' character not realizing that this is the mind trying to get a result - a perceived evolution of oneself from a point of having mind chatter to having none - defining myself within the 'evolving through breath awareness - observing breath' character - because i believed this is the right thing to do - defining myself within the 'righteous- observing breath' character - believing that by doing this, i will evolve as an enlightened being and will contribute to the evolution of this world - not realizing that the self is here - i am here as breath in every moment. It is the mind that i have to sop. It is about walking out of the noise within/as my mind - to birth me here as the eternal substance - as the physical - to hear what is here - it is not about me desiring the 'moreness of me' - as the ego/mind character feeling diminished by not being that self-realized evolved self - as the ego - defining myself within the 'inferior me as ego watching breath' character - desiring to realize self by watching the breath - an evolution - as the alternate version of me in an alternate reality that is the mind - perceiving myself evolving - believing it is real awareness - not realizing it is separation awareness - i am not here - i am trapped as the mind character defining myself within the 'self-realized -watching breath' character - within self-interest .
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STOPPING PARTICIPATION In the MIND CHARACTER'S NARRATIVE
Self-Correction Script
I commit myself to when and as i define myself within the 'i am observing my breath' character - i stop - i breath. I realise that the narrative that this character follows and participates in as above is not what is best for all life - and is done from the starting point of self-interest - separating me from the breathwithin/as my mind - believing that observing the breath will give me and enlightened existence - free from thoughts - based on a belief - a belief which i just heard and read which i did not really fully test in all dimensions - i pushed my body - the feet crossed, the eyes looking at the tip of my nose etc. to express desire based from fear of noise in the mind - which i equated to suffering - fearing suffering - which i believed is the right thing to do - believing that by doing this i will stop my mind and be free from suffering - within self-interest for an energy experience that i have given a positive value - believing that i will evolve from a point that is less than myself to a point that is more than myself - which i created in an alternate reality within/as my mind - so to assist myself to walk out of the noise within/as my mind - as the mind energy creates a perception and experience of being separate from existence - and to assist myself to hear what is here as the physical existence - as the eternal substance - as the eternal sound of silence - self giving self to self - through writing, self-forgiveness and self-correction. I am here as the breath. I slow myself down and see what thoughts, backchats, internal conversations etc. comes up - and at that moment - stop myself - stabilize me as breath and say, 'i am here'.
I commit myself to delete the memories as pictures as desires etc. within/as myself and let go of the separation within and as myself standing with the physical- breath by breath moment by moment
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