This is a Continuation of This Blog
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/05/solution-to-unhappy-sex-life-day-294_21.html
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In this blog i will be working with the Backchat Dimension
(highlighted with the brown color)
In the next blogs, i will be working on the rest of the dimensions of my mind
Brief Outline:
Fear: the base platform of the mind
Fear of not having a good sex life
The Conscious Mind:
Design of the Conscious Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5mMguKZT8VY
Thought: picture of having sex with DMC
Imagination: 'not enjoying having sex with someone i am not attracted to physically, and assuring myself that this suffering will end.'
The Subconscious Mind:
Design of the Subconscious Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_AoGjglQ94A
Backchat
2.'I do not like the moles in his back'
Reaction:
faking it, feeling of loss
The Unconscious Mind:
Design of the Unconscious Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pc4h8SQxsLI
Body Movement:
withdrawing touch, smiles halfway
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Introducing:
The QuantumMind
The Quantum Physical
The Real Physical
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What is self-forgiveness?
http://juneroca.com/home/my-process/self-forgiveness/
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Self-forgiveness Statements
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in the design of 'fear of survival - as form - as energy'
have internal conversations within my mind
about DMC's moles in the back
as in 'I do not like the moles in his back'
separating from his physical form
giving moles a value less than life
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
give moles a value less than life
giving form without moles a value more than life
connecting this experience to a negative energy experience of
when i was young seeing my grandmother
having moles and freckles on her face
connecting her moles to ugliness
connecting moles to dirt
connecting moles and discoloration on the skin
to being less than - being inferior
connecting skin without moles or clear skin
to beauty
giving it a value more than life
believing i am inferior because i have freckles on my face
believing it is just like dirt on the skin
believing that my mom's skin being white
is superior
and my skin on my face is inferior
connecting it to ugliness
or being imperfect
having conversation in my mind of how i feel
when i saw my grandmother's mole
and when i saw the freckles on my face
experiencing a negative energy experience
taking pictures from the distant past
comparing that to my recent past energy experience
seeing the moles in DMC's back
and having a negative energy experience
out of looking at it
fearing being inferior
fearing being criticized
fearing being laughed at
fearing being ridiculed
reliving athe experience i had with my mom
of when i was young
her telling me i am careless - in the kitchen
when i dropped something on the floor
in front of everyone on the table
getting angry
but suppressing my anger
suppressing the irritation within me that i experiences
blaming her for me feeling inferior
projecting my fear of being inferior
to DMC
instead of realizing that i have to face my fear
take responsibility
forgive myself
commit to correct myself
and write a script
so i can live
the corrections
realizing that my desire to leave the relationship
is fulled by my fear of being inferior
within this, not realizing that
the body is being resourced for the mind to exist
and that, participating in internal conversations within my mind
is like a socket on the wall connected to a computer
the electricity running through the computer
and giving it power
compromising the body
taking from it
abusing it
through mind participation
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Commitment to Correction
Script
I commit myself to
when and as i see myself
having internal conversation within my mind
about not liking moles or freckles in ones body
fearing being inferior
and projecting that to someone else
desiring to be superior by moving away
from the perceived source of inferiority
I stop
I breathe through the desire
I realize that this is me as the mind
taking pictures from the distant past
comparing that to my recent past experience
of seeing DMC's mole on his back
connecting that to a negative energy experience
justifying my excuse that i have to leave the relationship
because that is the way i can be whole
within balance in polarity
disliking something/someone that gives me a negative energy experience
then going somewhere out there to find the man
that will give me a positive energy experience
not seeing and realizing that
real wholeness
does not need separation from the source
realizing that
i am part of the whole - as all life
realizing that moles are a part of me - life
realizing that my body and DMC's body
comes from the same substance
the dust of the earth
I commit myself to stabilize me as breath
develop an equal and one relationship with the body
and be here in every moment
as who i am, what i am and how i am
realizing the body is here to express itself
supporting the being to express self here
