Guru Mathematics 2 Day 231 Surrender: Fear: Survival: Postponement

  

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SELF-FORGIVENESS

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The Mathematics of Life  

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Topic: Self-forgiving me and correcting me in an equal and one standing as the mind and stopping participation in the mind system within to birth me here as equal to/as all Life

Specific Point: My Mind Relationship with the Guru

 

Using Mathematics:

I am using mathematical symbols to illustrate how i gave mind values instead of giving  real values as the value of every form is/as equal to Life itself

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Self-forgiveness 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself 

to participate in the design of/as 

'fear of surviving - as knowledge and information'

fear not having enough information and knowledge like the guru
so surrendered to the 'guru'

believing he is superior

as he said he can see his devotees' thoughts, the devotees past, present and future

believing him

believing i am inferior

as i can only see my past and present

but cannot see  my future

so, gave up on myself and surrendered to the guru's

perceived 'power'

believing that because i am 'powerless' to

see the future

i have to have a 'guru' that sees the future

instead of realizing i am making

the past as the future in the present

when i time travel in compartments within my mind

never here

so cannot directly see what is here

as all that is here in this moment

as all the events in the history of this physical existence

so instead of stopping and birthing me here as the physical

and directly see the condition of all that is here in this physical existence

 in/as the 'holding moment' of every breath

i  instead surrendered to the 'guru'

not realizing that the guru can only see the future

because he is part of the grid

that is pre- programmed

like a seed
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to NOT ask myself these
 commonsensical questions to see my starting point in wanting to surrender to a guru:

 1. What fear is driving me to want/desire to surrender to a 'guru'?
2.Why am i asking the guru to take responsibility in my behalf  - why am i giving up on myself?
3. Why am i postponing my own standing as who i am as life?

and self-honestly see the answers to these questions:

1. Fear of taking self-responsibility for all parts of me as all life
2. The mind as me, within self-sabotage - as who i have become, as a program, as a system
3. Fear of facing the consequence of what i have done - believing it is difficult to take responsibility for all as me

*not seeing the common sense  that  i have to face the consequence

of what i have accepted and allowed and correct myself in my living

*not seeing the common sense that there is no other easy way out

*not seeing that the 'guru' himself was downloaded the genes of his parents

therefore he is also part of the system

*not seeing that he himself trapped himself within the past, present and future as time

*not seeing that because my starting point is fear - fear was driving me

not directing me here as self as who i am - lost in an alternate reality within my mind

within a mind awareness - not here as the real awareness

self-directing me as who i am

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Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values

Vs

Giving Values Equal to Life

I realized

 i gave a positive value to the guru

as i believed he can see the future

where

 the guru  was given a value more than life

guru = knows what will happen  in the future = superior = powerful

= positive energy experience

 = +10

where

a devotee/as myself cannot see the future

=  powerless to see the future

= negative energy experience 

= -10

not realizing that 

these mind values are NOT REAL

i made them up within my mind

based on my fear of not knowing the future

uncertain of who i will become

not realizing that

i can direct myself to stop 

stopping time travelling within different compartments in my mind

and birthing me here as who i am as life

realizing the body/physical/substance
is equal to the body/physical/substance of nature
is equal to the body/physical/substance of plants
is equal to the body/physical/substance of animals

as they all consist of atoms consisting of substance
of/as Life

and so, 
Redefining the word FUTURE
to 

F-reedom as U-se of physical struc-TURE 
standing for what is best for all
 leading to the sequence of events 
that births life here forevermore 

as I simply live  as who i am 

equal to all that is here

using words as equal to my expression 

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Commitment to Correct Myself 

I commit myself to when and as i see myself
fearing not having enough information and knowledge 
about the future 
or fear not seeing the future 

I stop

I breathe

I  assist myself to bring myself back to what is here

as the breathe

referencing the moment

as i move me

as i direct me here in every moment

I commit myself to assist myself to accept and allow me to see directly the

condition/state of all in this physical existence

in every 'holding moment'

and moving and changing with/as all that is here

in every in-breath and out-breath
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I commit myself to be with my physical heartbeat

feeling the pulse of the physical

until i become the pulse of life

living as a living example

and as i birth myself - birth life here

to stay here forevermore
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Stepping out Of The 'Tantric Yogi' Character : SC :Part 1 Day 124 : The Guru, Surrender and Miracles

Life Tools

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Self-forgiveness

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Redefining 'I Am That'  

 http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/08/redefining-statement-i-am-that-day-120.html

'I Am That' Connected To 'I Am Not That'

http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/08/i-am-that-connected-to-words-i-am-not.html

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Me As The 'Tantrik Yogi' Character

This Blog is A continuation of These Blogs: 

Who Am I? The 'Tantrik Yogi' Character 

Stepping out of The 'Tantrik Yogi' Character Part2

 

 Self-commitment Statements:

I commit myself to when and as i see myself 'fearing me' - as who i have become - 'desiring to know who i am' - i stop - i breathe. I realize that who i have become as the mind character -'driven by fear of looking at what i have accepted and allowed' - as the mind - and 'doubting who i am and becoming uncertain of who i am' - i 'fear me' - desiring to know who i am - and instead of looking at how i created this mind character within and as my mind - and birth me here as life - i 'searched for myself' outside of myself - and BELIEVED that 'there must be more than me, that there must be more than me as here' - searching for the 'moreness of me' and separating myself from/as who i am - as the flesh - as the blood - as the physical/substance - equal to all that exist. I bring me back here as the breath and see that- I am here - to only accept and allow that which is what is best for all life.

I commit myself to delete the 'i want to know who i am' character which shows up also as the 'i want to understand who i am' character - as the desire to 'want to know who i am' and as the   'wanting to understand who i am' - as pictures etc within and as myself - and let go of the separation within and as myself - as desire, as pictures within and as myself - and bring myself back here - standing with the physical as the breath in every moment.

i commit myself to when and as i see myself fearing not existing eternally - i  stop - i breathe. I realize that this 'fear' is created by me - within and as my mind - an alternate reality that is not real - i bring myself back here and see who i am as the breath in every moment - and realize that who i am is not what i defined myself as - and assist myself to see/realize and understand that when I stop my mind, I remain.

I commit myself to delete the 'i fear not existing eternally' character - stopping the desire as pictures within and as my mind - letting go of the separation as desires, as pictures etc. - within and as my mind - and bring myself back here - as who i am as - as the substance/physical - equal to all that exist. I remain.

I commit myself to when and as i see myself 'wanting to be perfect' - i stop - i breathe. I realize that i have to assist me to see that this  comes from the starting point of  fear , where i 'fear being imperfect' and within this fear - 'desire to be perfect '- so to have to look at who i have become - which i defined as imperfect - within and as my mind - and to look at how i created this character - and birth me here - using self-forgiveness and self-corrective application. i stomp my feet and say, 'I am here'.

I commit myself to delete the 'i want to be perfect' character - as the presence of character as memory, as pictures, as desires etc. within and as my mind - and to use self-forgiveness and self-corrective application for  separating myself from all life - to stand here - equal to all that exist as the physical/substance - as the breath in every moment.

I commit myself to when and as i see myself giving up - and not  taking self-responsibility for myself - i stop - i breathe. i realize that i have to assist me to be patient - and look at all points, all patterns that created me - as the mind character - by accepting and allowing fears, desires etc. to exist within and as myself - so to stop participating - and only accept and allow that which is best for all life. I let go of the separation within and as myself. I bring myself back here - as the breath in every moment.

I commit myself to when and as i see myself - 'surrendering to a guru' - because i believe 'i do not know who i am' - believing that the 'guru knows' - so 'surrendering my power to him' - 'giving up on myself' and 'giving my power to someone' who i defined as more than me -  i stop - i breathe. i realize that i created this within and as my mind - not realizing the guru is equal to who i am - equal to all that exist - as the guru came from the same substance i came from - as all came from - not wanting to look at who i have become as the mind character - my conscious thoughts, backchats and body movements directed by the mind - abdicating my self-responsibility - to instead use self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to birth me here as life - and love myself unconditionally - assist me to stand for who i am - as self-trust - self -directive and self-responsible . I bring myself back here. i stomp my feet . I am here.- as the breath in every moment..

I commit myself to when and as i see myself 'wanting a miracle' - i stop - i breathe. i realize that this 'desire' comes from 'fear of difficulty' so 'wanting the easy way out' - within a belief that guru as AM is beyond physical laws and consequence - not realizing that i am equal to the guru -as i am equal to all life- and assist myself to realize that within this equal and one standing as life - no one is special - nor beyond physical laws and consequence - and that specialness will mean acceptance and allowance of inequality - which is contrary to the principle of/as life. I bring myself back here - as the breath. 

I commit myself to when and as i see myself judging the guru as more than me - where i believe that 'i do not know everything about life' and the 'guru knows' - i stop - i breathe. i realize that this comes from the starting point of 'fear of taking self-responsibility for who i have become' - to instead of  judging the guru as more than me and me less than myself - i assist myself to see/realize and understand that i am equal to all that exist - equal to the guru - as all came from the same substance all are made of - and see that this came from comparing myself to the guru - and believing i am less than the guru - judging him as more than me because he talks about the 'supreme entity' that i do not know of -  perceiving myself separate from knowledge and information defined within 'knowing and not knowing' - not considering the fact that inequality is a point of self-forgiveness - and the 'fear of not knowing' defined within knowledge and information separate from who one is - is a point of self-forgiveness - for accepting and allowing mind participation in separation of/as life/ substance. I correct myself  - to  commit myself to correct myself breath by breath - moment by moment. I  bring myself back here.

To be continued in Part 2.