Living My Utmost Potential 16: Low Salt Meals - Brussels Sprouts with 5 Spice Powder

Here is a slow cooked meat dish without added salt using brussels sprouts and beef ribs.

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Living My Utmost Potential 15: Making Chili with No Added Salt

I made chili without added salt and pushed myself to go beyond what my mind pattern is leading me to - in terms of creating dishes. I always add salt in dishes but this time I didn't.

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Self-forgiveness: 'Irritating' Tone of Voice When Speaking

I am doing self-forgiveness in this blog for the Mind Pattern I saw in the Blog below:

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What is Self-forgiveness? 

It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath. 


Writing Self-forgiveness Statements 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the sound of my voice in this speech - having judged it as 'below normal', having a high tone, believing that it is different from what I call a 'normal' voice - which I judged as having a low tone, instead of seeing and realizing that what I consider normal is what I associated to a superior or 'above normal' sound of voice defined within a perceived 'polished speaker persona' or a 'spiritual master persona' that I associated with men and women who i labeled as 'educated' or 'spiritual' when  realistically, what voice really is, is sound - essentially a part of the whole - that is life - equal and one. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my own judgment of the tone of my voice when I react to someone - to my mom's voice, believing that it is irritating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge sound as either superior or inferior which is my interpretation of sound rather than what sound really is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the tone of my voice when I react to someone - with my mom's tone of voice when she talks lengthily believing that both tones are irritating instead of seeing and realizing that sound is sound and is not good or bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to external stimulus in the environment in anger/irritation believing that my life is in danger in this world - where life is not guaranteed for all because of an unequal monetary system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use tone/pitch to express emotions and feelings when

I commit myself to bring myself back here and breathe through the energy or reactions when I hear myself reacting to the tone of my voice.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself associate the tone of my voice to the tone of my mom's voice, stop and breathe. I realize that I defined a low tone/pitch of voice within superiority coming from fear of having a high tone/pitch of voice which I associated to an irritating sound so I stabilize myself as breath when I speak as who I am.

I commit myself to accept and allow myself to develop an equal and one relationship to my voice - as sound - as who I am here.

I commit myself to assist in birthing a life that guarantees survival for all - starting with a living income guarantee.

Public Speaking: Giving an Impromptu Speech: Self Forgiveness for a Mind Pattern

I saw a mind pattern here  that I want to correct and share with others. I did not prepare for the talk yet said 'yes' when asked, so I was thinking of the possible subjects and structure  of the talk in my mind before the talk.

I Don't Know What To Talk About' Mind Pattern:
>I did not know I am going to talk
>I want to push myself to talk
>but I do not have the outline of the talk
>If I have the outline I can work from that
>but I don't
>this is scary
>why did I say yes
>Maybe I should not have said yes

What I saw In This Mind Pattern:
There's fear of not knowing what to talk about. I am pushing myself to talk - which is a form of manipulation  - acting out my fear. There's also fear that I do not have the outline of my talk and fear of speaking in the moment. There's a belief that I can only talk if I have an outline. There's a belief that I will be scared if I speak without an outline. There's self-blame for saying 'yes' to speak without an outline. There's doubt that I can pull it together.

Self-forgiveness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing what to talk about before my speech creating conflict within myself and in so doing put the body in a state of stress instead of realizing that I can allow myself to be uncomfortable, forgive myself for creating conflict within myself by figuring out in my mind whether 'I can or I can't'.   I commit myself  to after writing self-forgiveness, correct my living by physically giving the speech as I  communicate who I am and my story of change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to transcend my fear by acting out my fear - which is a way of manipulation, through giving a speech in a trembling voice and body instead of realizing I can stabilize myself by bringing myself here in physical reality, breathing in a stability and then giving the speech. I commit myself to identify the fear, forgive, correct and do the speech.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that not having an outline of my speech believing that through the outline, I can have a mental reference of what I will talk about so I can draw on that when I am speaking instead of realizing that  I do not need to go inside my mind when I am speaking. I commit myself to speak about what I see is the problem in this world and provide some solutions that worked for me aligned to what is mutually beneficial to all - humans, plants, animals etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking in the moment, believing that the structure of the speech should be known before I speak instead of realizing that this is what I learned from others and therefore this is information that was not tested by me. So, I commit myself to speak about something that I walked and tested where I give a message - my story of how I changed - that is aligned to what is mutually beneficial to all concerned.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that having an outline is better than having no outline - within an idea that a structured speech will be better understood by others rather than realize that understanding is based from knowing the nature and meaning of something within my own living - where they can observe how I live the words I speak and how i align it to what is best for all - which others can truly understand as inherent in my nature as a human lies the nature of other humans. So I commit myself to speak about the problems and the solutions I have applied in my life that worked for me in my speech.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will be scared if I speak without an outline - having heard others say this instead of realizing that a speech is me communicating my own story of change to others. So I commit myself to talk about what I have walked, what I saw and how I changed - realizing that since I walked this, I can draw on my experience whenever I decide to - as this is an integral part of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for saying 'yes' to speak - believing that because it is an impromptu speech, I can ran out of things to talk about, and when that happens, I will be shamed and will be disliked by the audience instead of realizing this is me projecting my own fear of being shamed and fear of being disliked to others. So, I commit myself to forgive and release these fears and when I see myself blaming myself within my mind for saying 'yes' to giving a speech - I stop, breathe and bring myself back here in physical reality, forgive and correct myself, then give a speech when I am stable and clear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt that I can pull an impromptu speech together believing that I am not good enough to deliver a speech in front of lawyers and educated people fearing that they will judge me as inferior instead of realizing that this is me projecting my own fears to others. So, I commit myself to forgive judging myself, correct and breathe through the perceived discomfort and push myself to give an impromptu speech.

Living My Utmost Potential 14: What Is A Craving?

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I was sharing my story of change to the audience here which is sharing what i found out about what a craving is. I did not have any prepared speech. I just stood there and talked about whatever comes up.

As his is also a moment to moment walking, I am sharing the points I saw in my talk here through looking at my mind or thought pattern - to assist others.

                                           'Why Is The Sound of My Voice Different'?  Mind Pattern

>there is something wrong with the sound of my voice 

>It has a higher pitch than normal
>my voice tonality  is not my normal pitch 
>I normally get into this pitch when I am reacting to what someone said? 
> the tone of my mom's voice when she talks a lot sounds like this
>I do not like it when she talks at that tone
>I found it irritating in my ears

Here in this mind pattern, there is fear that the sound of my voice is different - which i believed was having a higher pitch than normal. I associated  my definition of a normal voice pitch to a certain vocal tone (that of a polished speaker that I saw in the media - like presidents and leaders of community groups) that I defined as better than a high pitched voice which i did through association. I associated the high pitched vocal tone with the voice of my mom when she was talking lengthily which irritated me - which is a projection of my own judgment of the tone of my voice when I react to what was being said by another who I am in communication with .

Self-forgiveness  

Living My Utmost Potential 13: What is Health?

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I wanted to communicate here what I found out about the word 'Health'. I initially believed that 'Health' means 'absence of disease'. So, I tried to evolve myself in my mind as someone who is following a 'healthy diet', without realizing that my starting point was 'fear of disease' and in my 'eating healthy', I was not seeing 'health' as what it is. In my redefinition, 'Health' is the alignment of physical, mental and social well-being of man to what is mutually beneficial to all. I communicated this change in my redefinition and my story of how I changed to the audience. 

As this is a moment by moment walking, I saw a mind pattern here that I want to correct in the next coming blogs and share with others. I did not prepare for the talk yet said yes when asked, so I was thinking of the possible subjects to talk about in my mind before the talk.

I Don't Know What To Talk About' Mind Pattern:
>I did not know I am going to talk
>I want to push myself to talk
>but I do not have the outline of the talk
>If I have the outline I can work from that
>but I don't
>this is scary
>why did I say yes
>Maybe I should not have said yes

What I saw In This Mind Pattern:
There's fear of not knowing what to talk about. I am pushing myself to talk - which is a form of manipulation. Then, acting out my fear. There's also fear that I do not have the outline of my talk and fear of speaking in the moment. There's a belief that I can only talk if I have an outline. There's a belief that I will be scared if I speak without an outline. There's self-blame for saying yes to speak without an outline. There's doubt that I can pull it together.

Self-forgiveness and Self-Correction

The Accident 3 : How Will I Survive This?

                                 

                                    The Accident Part 1

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                                     The Accident Part 2

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                                                  Here is a mind pattern i spotted after our car accident last Dec. 17,                                                          2014.

                                                  How will I survive this? Mind Pattern

                                                    >my phone has no battery power
                                                    >how can we call someone?
                                                    >I better borrow a cell phone from someone
                                                    >so i can call a cab to bring us home
                                                    >but I am embarassed
                                                    >because I will be bothering them
                                                     >where is my purse?
                                                     >we are not going to be able to do what we need to do tonight
                                                    >what a waste of time
                                                    >we are not going to be able to drive home
                                                    >who will bring us home?
                                                    >I do not like accidents
                                                   
What I can see in this mind pattern:
Here, there is fear of being cut off from life - by not being able to communicate with someone using a cell phone/telephone. There's a fear that if i ask someone to lend me their cell phone, they will think that I will call long distance even if I wont -within doubt. There is also fear that my purse was lost - so fear that I will not be able to call a cab to go home and blame the accident for not being able to go where we need to go. Because of all these perceived difficulties going on in my mind, there is a general fear of having accidents. There also exist blame - believing that the accident stopped me from doing what I set ut to do. Here, I defined mself as a victim rather than someone who is self-directive so I will correct myself by first forgiving myself and then writing a commitment to correct myself in how I live my life.


                                                 What is Self-forgiveness? 
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self 
to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath. 

Writing Self-forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being cut off from life by not being able to communicate with someone during an accident where I cannot use my phone rather than see that I am here as breathe in every moment moving me and expressing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be embarassed to borrow a cell phone from the lady next to me in the hospital believing that she might think I will use her phone to call long distance even if I will not - within doubt, which is a projection of what I think (my doubting others) when strangers borrow my cell phone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my embarassment through the belief that I will be bothering her by borrowing her cell phone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when faced with an accident, blame my cell phone for the difficulties I am facing during an accident

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not seeing my purse after the accident, believing that if it's lost, I cannot have access to money  in my purse, therefore, I will not be able to buy food or pay for whatever I need (like a cab) to get home

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless, hopeless and useless in an accident and without a cell phone instead of realizing that I created these definitions in my mind - of 'cell phones' and 'accidents' based from fear so I can release these fears, redefine these words and commit to assist myself - and live the word 'stability', when faced with difficulty, change or pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the driver of the car, the car, and the the circumstance - the accident, for not being able to do what I set out to do that day the accident happened, instead of realizing that I have to embrace life and allow for changes in my daily schedule when external changes present itself in my world and realize that I create my 'within and without' - so instead of blaming others, take self-responsibility by  looking and releasing my mind's fears and desires including providing myself with physical necessities I need to live in a stable way using common sense.

Commitment To Correct Myself
Script

I commit myself to bring myself back here in the physical when I see myself creating fear of accidents in my mind where I interpret living as an individual separate from other individuals that needs to communicate or gossip to be connected instead of realizing that the cells are communicating with each other without cell phones/telephones which points to the reality that I need to develop an equal and one relationship to sound.

I commit myself to redefine the word 'accident'
From (Word Web)
Anything that happens suddenly or by chance without an apparent cause

To

Anything that happens suddenly which I defined as an external event presenting itself to be corrected so one can take self-responsibility and realize what one create one can un-create so one can live as 'stability' in ones world.

I commit myself to redefine the word 'telephone'

From (Word Web)

Electronic equipment that converts sound into electrical signals that can be transmitted over distances and then converts received signals back into sounds

To

Electronic equipment that converts sound into electrical signals that can be transmitted over distances and then converts received signals back into sounds which is used to transmit messages

that is aligned to what is best for all life.

I commit myself to redefine the word 'sound'

From (Word Web)

The particular auditory effect produced by a given cause

The subjective sensation of hearing something

To

The sensation of hearing something being/as part of the whole - that is life, where I am fully present as the breath, in every moment, hearing the auditory effect produced by a given physical body/cause that is a part of the whole - which I am a part of .