SF Beliefs, Believing The One Etc. Part 2

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself - as a member, to be entertained by the portal and the assistance it can give me - that i forget that I can assist myself without it and within that deify the Heirarchy, The One - that i become a blind follower - putting me in a position where i cannot question The One - without realizing i am - as we all 'sugar-coated' it - yet we believe otherwise - because it is now part of our  'belief system'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to - as The One, The Heirarchy - to define myself within my 'gifts of access' -talk about my access to what others have no access - as my focus, forgetting that life is here - and that i myself have not finished my process so i have no access myself - within self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself - as the Heirarchy, as The One, to create beingness drawings that entertains me - as member - within fear of survival as money & fear of not knowing who i am as a being  - giving me as member, a belief of who I am in picture form - as a form of assistance - in separation - forgetting that I am doing things in opposition to the process of us finding out who we have become and birthing as who we really are - which is not based on belief but a real physical process. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself -as The One, as Heirarchy - to have a belief about finishing process and so lead everyone to adopt that belief - when i myself have not finished my process so everything i have about that is either an idea or a belief - until i finish my process - within this, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself - as member - to within that belief/idea judge other members accordingly.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe there is a dimension i have to access to birth myself here as life - rather than who i am here as part of life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to - as a member, form a belief system about information others tell me in the 'elite group' of which i am a member of.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to  - as a member, want to talk to other dimensional beings wanting to know how they can solve my problem and health issues - within a superiority/inferiority construct that is part of believing/being impulsed by videos coming from The One, as Heirarchy - a nice dress, animated smile and mind gestures etc. which forms my idea/belief of the gifts of having 'elite access to the dimensions' as part of the bonus on being part of the 'elite group'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself - as Heirarchy, as The One - decide on matters i have not walked myself in the physical relying on what I see in the dimensions - not seeing and realizing I am not in the dimensions but physically living here in the physical - then justify it by saying 'change of plans' - within self - dishonesty, while in fact i commited a mis-take because i really have not walked a physical process on what i am deciding on within the group which causes a consequence outflow that i am unaware of because i am focused on the dimensions.