Mind Pattern:
>the banana has high carbohydrate content
>It will raise my blood sugar levels
>I better not eat any banana
What are the beliefs?
Who is to 'blame'?
What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.
Forgiving Myself In Writing:
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to dislike eating the banana fearing that it will raise my blood sugar level and desiring to eat meat which lowers blood sugar where i blame the banana for expressing the way it does, and projecting my belief in the future, believing that i can control the body's way of handling sugar - connecting this to a memory of my dad telling us not to go out during the day and to just stay at home and study - where I suppressed my desire to play outside and enjoy my expression as a child so i can be his favorite daughter believing that if i do that he will validate me and I will remain his favorite daughter - where within that, is me also fearing being punished, having seen my brother being whipped with a belt when he broke the rules and went out and play instead of remaining in the house - which I did to please him so I can feel safe as a way of stabilizing my environment through controlling it instead of stabilizing myself as breath here as a way to stabilize myself as who i am here, realizing that the reality is, that I am the breath in a body and not someone residing in my mind controlling or manipulating my behavior because of fear of being punished - so desiring or hoping to be safe. I realized I can release my fear of being punished instead of running away from it through self-forgiveness and correcting myself so that I will not fuel the desire to be safe - to rather stop living the past in the present and free myself from defining me within limitation which is in fact me controlling me - not my dad controlling me and realize I do not have to blame my dad but take self-responsibility because I am the creator and the created - in 'my within' - as the mind and in 'my without' - as the family system.
I commit myself to when and as I see myself desiring to control the body's functions - I stop and breathe and instead of controlling it, work with it, develop an equal and one relationship with it, get feedback from it, and use the body to assist me in expressing myself here as who I really am in physical reality - as the breath, realizing I do not have to fear in my mind but rather remain here as the physical breath and live life standing for what is best for all - where I do not create a consequence outflow in 'my within and without' but rather create a 'solution outflow' for the food industry and the different systems existing in this world - also, to redefine the word 'control' and 'punishment' as equal to my story of how I change from controlling what I eat, as in - creating resistance to eat the banana, believing it has high amount of carbohydrates and creating resistance to be able to control my blood sugar reading - to logging my daily food and eating in awareness of how much of the banana I will eat to support the body realizing that there's nutrition in the banana that can also assist the body in getting the nutrition that it needs like potassium and use the banana as what it is - food that can assist the body to get nourishment,
Expanding the definition of the word 'food'
Word Web
Food
Any solid substance (as opposed to liquid) that is used as a source of nourishment
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Link:
Expanding the Word 'Punishment'
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