2012 Raw Food: I Don't Want Compliments: Day 9

I was talking to CB, a client - when he complimented my raw food preparation. After the call, i sensed a reaction when i said to my partner, "I don't want compliments".


I said what i said - because i was guilty. I forgot to bring some stuff for the dish - like the raw bread  - so i was feeling guilty - and judged myself as less than myself - so want to be right by - having aversion for compliments -within self- manipulation - when i can do self-forgiveness and correct myself - without having to manipulate myself by speaking my aversion for compliments - where words are being used - separate from who i really am. I will direct this in this blog using self-forgiveness and self correction.

Self-forgiveness:
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty that i forgot to bring the bread and 2 more condiments that compliments the dish i brought - defining myself within right and wrong - and within that judge myself as less than myself - which i believed can be corrected by having aversion for compliments - within self-manipulation - as i use words separate from who i really am - as i identify as the ego-personality.

Self-correction Script:
When and as i see myself feeling guilty when i forgot something - defining myself within right and wrong -and within that have aversion for compliments - i stop - i breathe. I realise that the reason why i feel guilty is because i judged myself as less than myself when i forgot to bring the bread etc.- and so - want to be right - which i believed can happen if i have aversion for compliments - within self-manipulation - as i use words separate from who i really am. I stop participating because this is not what is best for me and not what is best for all - because i am supporting personality systems in this world that is based on guilt, judgment, self-manipulation and abuse of words.
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Part of My Self-Corrective Application:

I communicated with CB that i plan to bring the bread the next day and asked him if it is okay - he said that's fine. Since he is not always home, we agreed to just drop it outside the door, then text him to let him know. The next day i brought the raw bread - he did not have a problem with that.

The guilt was created in my mind.