2012 Family Blog: Mother's Journey of Birthing A Child Self-forgiveness Part 4 Day 17

When i got married and gave birth to a child, i did not really understand what it entails to be a mother - nor did i question who i am within that. I am using self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to direct the points that i saw where my starting point was based on self-interest - rather than what is best for all. 

In this blog, i will direct these points using self-forgiveness and self-corrective application so i can stop these patterns - to stand for what is best for all life.

Self-forgiveness  for/as All Mothers:

I  forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to bring into this world another being -  who i downloaded my genes to - as identify as the ego-personality  - and in the process - mold this child as my copy - and within that, enslave my child with/as my mind - as i participate in thoughts, feelings and emotions - instead of birthing me here as life by stopping the mind through self-forgiveness and self-correction and standing for what is best for all life.
I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that a child is not here to entertain the mother and give her love when she feels unloved - but is here to be  supported as one and equal as the mother - to birth oneself as life - standing for what is best for all life.
I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that giving birth to a child is a responsibility that is one and equal as self-responsibility - and as i birth me here as life - i assist the child as me to birth herself here as life.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that "loving a child in my heart" - is enough - not realizing that within that statement i am abdicating my responsibility to/as the physical - as i created that love in my mind - which is not real - and turned my back to what is here as the physical.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the family is the parents kingdom - where mothers and fathers reign - as kings and queens - and having children mean that mothers and fathers will have a ready "following" - as their kids will be there to make them feel they are always needed and loved and cared for - not realizing that this is how we enslave our kids - to behave as the ego-personality we have become - needy adults dependent on mind energetics - intead of birthing oneself here as life - and assisting the children to birth themselves as life standing for what is best for all.

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I commit to when and as i see myself wanting to bring a child into this word - i stop - i breathe - and realise that wanting to birth a child into a world that does not support all life equally is - supporting this current system of inequality within abuse - so, within this i commit to assist in establishing a new system based on equality. 

I commit myself to when and as i see myself wanting love in return from my kids - i stop and breathe - and correct my starting point from/as  the personality defined by giving to receive love - to a starting point of standing for what is best for all life - where limited love is redefined to Love as Life.