202: The Body Parts Judgments 1 Part 24 Day 65:

June Roca 

My Story

The Body Part 1

Timeline

http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/p/timeline.html

In my last blog, i wrote about shyness, i saw that i connected it to certain parts of my body. Then, i saw Lindsay's blog where a quote about the body was posted from an eqafe interview that says the most important point  to do self-forgiveness is with ones  physical body. So, in this blog, i will do self-forgiveness for points i have with my body.

 Self-forgiveness for separation

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my physical body

Self-forgiveness for judging the Thigh:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my left thigh as less than myself and my right thigh as more than myself based on a belief that when the thigh have a scar - it looks bad and when it does not have a scar it looks good.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the scarred skin where my right breast was taken after the cancer operation as less than myself based on a belief

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the right thigh as more than my left thigh based on a belief that when a thigh has no scar on it looks good - and when it has a scar- it looks bad

Self-forgiveness for Judging the Breast and other related points:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my left breast as more than myself and my right breast as less than myself based on a belief that when the breast is removed because of surgery it looks bad and when the breast has not been removed because of surgery it looks good -

 not realizing that the surgery was done because of what i have accepted and allowed
 as i abuse my body 
 I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress me and my expression as the physical body
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to  participate in comparison, judgment and jealousy - where i designed competition within my mind  etc. -desiring to be happy - and within that resource the physical and transform it to energy for the mind to exist

 instead of realizing that there is consequence for accepting and allowing mind participation
blaming substance/physical within spite 
 judging the breast - not realizing that the breast is made from substance - and so as i judge the breast - i judge substance- blaming it for expressing the way that it does - within spite
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress me and my expression
as the physical 
 believing that i have to do whatever the people who i defined as 'authority figures in my life' 
 say 
and within that take the consequential outflow of that suppression

Self-forgiveness for Judging the Skin:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my skin as less than myself and a young woman's skin as more than myself based on a belief that when the skin is elastic and young - it looks good and when it is wrinkly and old it looks bad.

Self-forgiveness for judging my Gluteus Maximus Muscles

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my gluteus maximus as less than myself and Leon's gluteus maximus  as more than myself - based on a belief that when a bum is firm and fleshy it looks good and when a bum is saggy and not fleshy it looks bad

Self-forgiveness for Judging my  Pelvis

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my pelvis as less than myself and Leon's pelvis as more than myself - based on a belief that when the pelvis is about 8- 10 inches more than the waist - it looks good and when the pelvis is 2-6 inches bigger than the waist or smaller than the waist it looks bad.

Self-forgiveness for Judging My abdominal Muscles

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my abdominal muscles as less than myself and Leon's abdominal muscles as more than myself based on a belief that when the abdominal muscles is firm and young it looks good and when the abdominal muscles is saggy, bulging and old it looks bad

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