2012 Self-realization : 'Am I The Ego or the Self ?' :The Split Part 9 Day 51

The Split - Ego or Self?

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I had beliefs about who i am when i was a yogi. I believed i split myself into 2 - and asked myself - am i the self or the ego?


I will bring them back here and direct them in this blog - using self-forgiveness and self-correction.


My Beliefs:

*' i believed that i am the self - belief based on knowledge and information i heard from the guru


*'I believed that i am the ego-personality - belief based on knowledge and information i heard from the guru


* I believed this split me into 2 - the self - which is infinite and the ego which is finite - Belief based on knowledge and information i heard from the guru


*I believed that i am limited as the ego - - belief based from knowledge and information i heard from the guru


*I believed that i cannot realize by myself  because i am limited- belief based from knowledge and information i heard from the guru


*I believed i need a guru to self-realize -  belief based from knowledge and information i heard from the guru


Doubts about who i am:

*I doubted myself -i became uncertain about who i am 


Anxiety:

*I had anxiety within believing that I DO NOT KNOW who i am as self 


Fear:

*I fear not being able to realize who i am as self 


Self-judgment

*I judged me as less than who i really am - as i identify as the ego 


Belief and judgment:


*I believed religious leaders are the best - because they can explain life - where i came from and what my purpose is - in life - and i can't  - not realizing that i am here in every moment - as who i am - i do not have to believe and judge

Self-forgiveness:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am the self- based on knowledge and information i heard from the guru - not realizing that i have to live it here - for it to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am the ego-personality - based on knowledge and information i heard from the guru

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am split into 2 - the self that is infinite and the ego which is finite - defining myself within the polarity of finite and infinite- based from knowledge and information separate from me - according to what i heard from the guru

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am the limited ego - based from knowledge and information separate from me - which i heard from the guru 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i cannot self-realize by myself  - because i am limited - based from knowledge and information separate from me - which i heard from the guru

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i need a guru to self-realize - based from knowledge and information separate from me - which i heard from the guru

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i need a guru to self-realize - based from knowledge and information - which i heard from the guru

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to doubt myself and become uncertain of who i am - because of knowledge and information separate from me - which i heard from the guru - defining me within self-realization and no self-realization.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have anxiety within believing that 'i do not know who i am' as self - not realizing i am here as self- i simply live as who i am - equal to all that exist

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear believing i am not able to realize who i am as self - not realizing that i am here as self- in every moment of breath- i only have to stop the mind using self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - to birth me here as who i am - and birth a world based on equality

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge me as less than who i really am - based on knowledge and information separate from me - which i heard from the guru

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define me based on knowledge and information i heard from the guru SSAM

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live a life of abuse of substance/physical for 29 years - as i exist in beliefs - not realizing that i am belief and no belief - that i am here as self - that i move me and express me here as self - that i do not need to believe - that i simply live as who i am - equal to all that exist.

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Self-commitment:

I commit myself to though writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective action - assist me to stop the belief that i am unable to assist me as self - and realize that i am here as self - self-directing me in every moment 

I commit myself  to see/realize and understand that life/substance is being abused in favor of energy when and as people  meditate - where the mind consumes and transforms substance/ physical in favor of feeling good/bliss.

I commit myself to stop and breathe - when and as i see myself existing in beliefs - based from knowledge and information separate from me - and see/realize and understand that this world is living the consequence of me participating in beliefs and that my acceptance and allowance in whatever i believe affects all

I commit myself to stop and breathe-  when and as i see myself defining me within polarity based on definitions i created separate from who i am - and redefine words - to live them - as equal to/as who i am

I commit myself to assist me to stop the mind - in every moment - and birth me here -until all are free and life is here forevermore.