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Monday, December 31, 2012

Pork Roast : Gravy or No Gravy Part 3: Day 232 Fear : Survival: Postponement





  


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This Blog is a continuation of this blog
http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/pork-roast-gravy-or-no-gravy-day-230.html

Event: X-mas gathering with my partner's family

My Decision: Make a gravy out of pan drippings and serve it with the pork roast 
My partner's decision: Leave the pan drippings as it is - do not make a gravy


I will use self-forgiveness in this blog for fears i saw and continue from Part 2.


I highlighted the Fears i will do self-forgiveness for in this blog - below

I am doing self-commitment in blogs to come and live the correction in my breath by breath movement to birth me here as life.


Fears behind the decision to make a gravy: 


Fear of the texture of the gravy (using pan drippings as gravy) not being 'right' as per the culinary standards/rules

Fear of  being a bad chef

Fear of not being popular

Fear of not being liked by my partner's family when i bring a pork roast with a thin, runny gravy

Fear of being alone

 
Fear of being bored by being just by myself

Fear of going crazy

Fear of being in a mental institution

Fear of not being in control

Fear of being bad

 Fear of hurting/killing others

Fear of being in prison

Fear of not having the freedom to live life and not do what I like

Fear of being sad

Fear of wasting my time on Earth
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Fear of REGRETTING the way i lived my life

Fear that I did not use the time that I had to live life fully

Fear of blaming myself that I did not live life fully

Fear of feeling guilty
Fear of re-doing what i postponed to do

Fear of starting from the beginning again/reincarnating

Fear of being in a loop and not getting the whole point of what life is about

Fear of not knowing who, what, where, when, how I am

Fear of not doing what is needed of me to be who I am as life

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Fear of REGRETTING living my life the way i did
 
Fear of not being someone who is happy all the time
 
Fear of going through a longer process

Fear of not enjoying the fruits of life fully while lived
 

Fear of eternal pain/suffering

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Self-forgiveness Statements

What is Self-forgiveness?
http://juneroca.com/my-process/self-forgiveness/

Fear that I did not use the time that I had to live life fully

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of/as 'fear of surviving - as space and time'

fear regretting that i did not use the time i had on earth to live fully after i die - defined within the past, present and future - instead of  realizing that i am here in every moment of breath moving me - directing me.

Fear of blaming myself that I did not live life fully


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself  'as fear of not surviving - as emotion' regretting not having lived fully  and blame myself 
perceiving a life fully lived as experiencing a happy life - not realizing that i am projecting my fears in the future


Fear of feeling guilty
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate inthe design of/as ' fear of surviving  - as guilt' be guilty 
for not living life fully - after death -believing life has to be spent in bliss and happiness here on earth - not realizing that i am here as breath in every moment and so live life in /as every moment

Fear of re-doing what i postponed to do
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of/as' fear of surviving -as doingness - as postponement' fear re - doing what i postponed to do believing that it will cause suffering, pain and difficulty to re-do something, believing that i have to know who i am now so i can do what needs to be done to live life fully.

Fear of starting from the beginning again/reincarnating
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of/as ' fear of surviving - as space and time - as positive energy'  fear starting from the beginning again or reincarnating again believing that i have wasted so much time by then as i did not do what i need to do  because i postponed doing a lot of things- believing that i deserve to rest and enjoy myself in a peaceful blissful place after my struggles on earth as a human - desiring a positive energy experience - not realizing that desire for peace, bliss and happiness started/originated from fear of sadness, difficulty and pain - not realizing i have to face my fears of sadness, difficulty, pain etc. 

Fear of being in a loop and not getting the whole point of what life is about
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myselfto participate in the design of/as ' fear of surviving - as information and knowledge' fear being in a loop and not getting the whole point of what life is about believing that i should know all the details of what life is about first before i can live life fully - as information and knowledge separate from who i am - not realizing that i am here as breath in every moment - and  that i can stop my mind and directly see the state/condition of all that is here as this physical existence - yet because i am participating in my mind i cannot directly see 

Fear of not knowing who, what, where, when, how I am
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of/as ' fear of surviving -as an individual' fear not knowing who, what, where, when and how i am -believing that i have to know so i will know how to navigate and live life - not realizing that who i am is here as breath in every moment, and to realise that what i am is a human in a body in/as breath, where i am is HERE, and that 'when i am' is here referencing the moment in this physical existence, and that 'how i am' is the same in every moment moving me here as breath

Fear of not doing what is needed of me to be who I am as all life
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself 'as fear of not surviving - as all Life'
 to fear not doing what is needed of me to be who i am as all Life - believing that i am inferior and can only survive as an individual and take care of the family and groups that i belong to

- believing that to birth me here, as all life is very difficult and is almost impossible 
- believing that to survive as an individual is difficult enough and to survive as one and equal as all life is almost impossible 

-not realizing that who i am is HERE as the breath in every moment able to see the state and condition of all that is HERE in this physical existence in every 'holding moment' of breath and change and move in the in-breath and the out-breath moment by moment

- not realizing that  to stop mind participation in an alternate reality, being with the physical as who i am, standing for what is best for all life, moving me and expressing me as who i am,  birthing me here within my process of self-perfection and assisting in establishing a world that truly honors life - is a commonsensical thing to do

Continued

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