The Accident 2: 'There's Something Wrong with My Body' Mind Pattern

   

                                               We had an accident last Dec. 17, 2014. Here is a mind pattern that I                                                spotted when it happened.

                                               The Accident Part 1

                                         http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/12/the-accident-and-breath.html

                                                
                                                The Accident Part 2
                                                There's something wrong with my body' Mind Pattern
                                                >I better get out of the car because this car might turn into flames                                                           (fear)
                                                >I am a little bit dizzy
                                                >and I am walking in an unstable way
                                                >my chest is painful and different parts of my body feel sore
                                                >my neck is a little bit stiff
                                                >I better get a medical check - up in the nearest hospital (fear)
                                                >so I will know if there's any part of my body that is damaged (fear)
                                                >I don't want to be alone in this hospital (fear)
                                                >plus the medical expense will be too much (fear)
                                                >I will just go home and put cold compress to the sore body parts
                                                >then i will see a chiropractor, that is cheaper (survival)
                                                >have an x-ray and get him to give me a bone/skeleton adjustment

What is Self-forgiveness? 

It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self 

to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, 

positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or 

someone that leads to stability as breath. 

Writing Self-forgiveness Statements 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear damaging my body in an accident
believing that it will be painful - fearing pain and so desires comfort and within that, desire to be healthy believing that if I am healthy, I will be free from bodily harm and disease which translates to the need to support our business to earn money - within fear of survival .

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear high hospital bills and project this into the future, believing it is unnecessary to pay high hospital bills - as we can give our body support through adjustments and massage.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having a body and identity believing that I do not have a memory of me without a body - so not knowing how to express myself as such

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a memory of who I have become as a personality that I defined myself within  - where I  experience myself in my mind reacting to my internal and external environment that I perceived separate from me seeking a positive experience from a perceived negative or fear of lack - which is where the positive is created, rather than be here as breath in every moment expressing myself as such.

I commit myself to assist in establishing a world that gives everyone equal access to what is given to all of us equally by the earth - a world where all are given the basic necessities to survive to live in dignity and where survival is not being negotiated or worked for - but is assured - realizing that the value of all that is here is equal to life.

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I commit myself to develop an equal and one relationship with my body.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself fearing not having a body, I stop and breath. I bring myself back here and put my palm on top of my heart - listening to my heart beat and realize it is the heart beat of the physical existence which remains and which I am a part of - as Life.

 I commit myself to redefine the word body

From
Word Web
The entire structure of an organism (an animal, plant, or human being)

To
The entire structure of an organism (an animal, plant or human being) which extends to or includes the internal and external structure that consist of parts of this one life - as all that is here in this physical existence living or non-living.

Living My Utmost Potential 12: Speaking In Public 1: Nervousness: Who am I?

I pushed myself to talk about who I am as a part of the whole and why that is important. I shared my story of change in front of people  for the first time. I am posting this as part of my Living my Utmost Potential Series. 

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As this is a moment by moment process, I am also going to look at some points (nervousness) about speaking in public. When I was giving this speech, I was nervous. I would like to look at my mind pattern here.

'I am Nervous' Mind Pattern

>I am speaking before a new audience 

>they expect me to deliver a perfect speech 

>but I am not going to say what they want to hear 

>so I am sure they will not like my speech

Here, I have an idea of what the audience wants me to speak in a perfect manner

I believed that they were expecting me to talk about something

they like, which is not real. I was really projecting my own fear of speaking in public to them and then doubting myself in in my ability to entertain them.

What is Self-forgiveness? 

It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self 

to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath. 

Writing Self-forgiveness Statements 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea that the audience expect me to deliver my talk in a perfect way instead of  realizing this is me 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that they are expecting me to say something they like to hear

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of what other people like to hear, believing that what I am going to talk about will not interest them therefore, judging what I would say before I am able to say it, which is me projecting my own fear of being disliked to them.

I forgive myself to doubt my ability to communicate myself with others - using words used to entertain others rather than an expression of my story of change through  speaking

in stability communicating about what is best for all life - humans, animals, plants etc.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself fearing being disliked when speaking in public, I stop and breathe and bring myself back here realizing that I can live confidence - as who I am - and instead of thinking about entertaining the public,  speak in confidence about my story of how I change from being an individual driven by self-interest to someone who is standing for what is best for all. as I speak.

The Accident Part 1: The Breath

The Accident Part 2

                            http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/12/the-accident-theres-something-wrong.html

The Accident Part 3

                                http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/12/the-accident-3-how-will-i-survive-this.html

 We had an accident last December 17 2014. It was raining and  Leon was driving. A car showed up from the intersection and there was not enough time to stop according to Leon, who was the one driving - so the accident. I am writing what went on in my mind during that incident as a mind pattern. I will focus on breathing in this blog. I had difficulty breathing after the accident so I am forgiving and correcting myself here.

                                                       'I can't Breathe' Mind Pattern
                                                      >That's Leon shouting
                                                      >what just happened?
                                                      >There was an accident!
                                                      >I can't breathe even if I try to
                                                      >let me try again
                                                      >I still can't breathe
                                                      >what is going on?
                                                      >calm down and be here
                                                      >do not try to force it
                                                      >Oh, I can breathe now

Here, I was forcing myself to breathe which is me separating myself from the breath.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

Writing Self-forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enslave myself to the memory of how to breathe and so force myself to get into that experience i have in my mind, rather than move myself in that moment and work with what is here - as who I am as the breathe in this body.

 I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be unaware of me as breath

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself to breathe to survive rather than be here as breath in every moment.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself unaware of physical reality as I go inside my mind when an accident happen, I bring myself here as who i am as breath

I commit myself to accept and allow me to develop a equal and one relationship with/as the breath.

I commit myself to redefine the word 'breath':

From a mind definition
The process of taking in and expelling air during breathing

To
the process of inhaling and exhaling as an expression of myself in this body in every moment

'I Want To Eat Small Portions' Mind Pattern

'I Want To Eat Small Portions' Eating Mind Pattern
>I want to eat a lot of the food I like
>but I will get fat
>so I better eat smaller portions
>I will make small cakes

Here, there is desire to eat larger portions of the food i like, a belief  that i will get fat when i do that, an idea that I should eat smaller portions, and me manipulating my way into getting slim through making smaller cakes.

The desires, beliefs, ideas that I have and how i manipulate myself to get what i desire - which is becoming slim, is based from fear of being fat. This is not a self-directive way of eating based from my own observations of what i eat and its relationship with my blood sugar levels. I am relying from information coming from others that i cannot trust because our body has different DNA make-ups.

What is Self-forgiveness?

It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative - as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath. 

Writing Self-forgiveness Statements:

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to eat a lot of the food I like believing that food is here for entertainment purposes
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i will get fat when i eat a lot of the food that i like believing that it has a lot of sugar.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the idea that if i eat smaller portions of the food I like, I will not get fat as per information i heard from others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate the amount of food I eat so that i will be slim believing that i am beautiful when i am slim and ugly when I am fat instead of realizing that I am going in my mind and having a subjective view of reality - a judgment based on a fear (fear of being ugly) which is not what is really going on in physical reality considering that my body has a different DNA make-up. It can present itself in a certain shape, with a certain fat content etc. and can present itself as having a certain weight.

I commit myself to bring myself back here, stop, and breathe when and as I see myself going into this mind pattern and correct myself by looking at how my body's blood sugar is responding to the portion of food i eat, be aware of what I eat and decide the amount of that food I can eat that will not cause a danger situation in my body's functioning based on practical methods and as per what is available to me in terms of gadgets

I commit myself to accept and allow me to see my body as what it is - a vessel for me as the breath to express myself as a part of the whole - that is life, and so use it as that.

Living My Utmost Potential 11 Creation of Small 3 Ingredient Almond Muffins Sweetened with Unrefined Coconut Nectar

I realized that the creation of muffins, cakes and breads is normally  done to please or entertain family and friends. It is also a commercial endeavor because bakeries, restaurants, catering businesses and grocery stores etc. sell these for money and profit -so the muffins I normally see are big and loaded with lots of sugar. I embarked on a kitchen journey to create a small and simple muffin that can be eaten with any meal that has some carbohydrates that started from my self-intimate relationship with my body. I am pleased to present to my body this recipe:

Recipe

Ingredients

1 T unrefined coconut nectar

4 egg whites

1 c almond meal

Procedure

Beat the egg whites with the coconut nectar until soft peaks

Fold the almond meal

Pre - heat the oven to 300 degrees F 

Put the almond-egg mixture inside the small muffin silicon pans

Bake for 30 minutes

Serve warm 

Serving Options

1. with meat-based meals and vegetable sides plus fruits

2. with almond butter spread and/or all-fruit no added sugar jam

Tip

Eat the portion your body needs

Make a hollandaise sauce with the egg yolks 

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muffins, mini, almond, butter, low sugar, low salt, healthy, eating, health, sugar, diabetes, food, preparation, sickness, heart disease, hypertension, june roca, health coach, integrative nutrition

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Living My Utmost Potential 10: Creating Low Salt and Low Sugar Meals and Recipes

Video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xmi902Lpzwg&list=UUkj-HMqXAqj8vrp8s4pmbMQ

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Taste had been the driving force when I eat since I was young - eating all kinds of food items. It was also true when I became a vegetarian, a raw vegan and a fruitarian. I found out that the reason for this is because I use food to cover-up the perceived 'lack' in my life. 

This can be lack of a relationship partner, lack of friends, lack of something to do etc. which I attached to being incomplete. These are really my fears that I am trying to run away from and me running after the food I desire the taste of - to complete my 'experience of myself' in life.

The taste of food gives me a certain feeling of fullness and satisfaction which I interpreted as me feeling complete and happy. 

 I also prepare food that others will like so that they will feel satisfied and happy. 

The meaning of food was missed in the process of preparing food.

Food is a substance that nourish the body

I would like to look at this food preparation mind pattern here which is about preparing 'tasty food' used to please others:

>I want to cook tasty food 

>I know they would enjoy some exotic dishes

>so let me prepare exotic tasting meals

>something that they have not tasted yet

>that will make them happy and content

>then they will come and visit again

>if I do not make the food tasty 

>they will not come

Here, there is a desire that I am trying to satisfy through preparing tasty food for others. I always make sure I season the food well so that It will satisfy others and make them happy.

 This is true when I prepare food for guests. It is about me having a feeling that I have done something great which is not really what food is about. So, having realized this, i can forgive myself and correct this pattern.

The  video above was taken when I gave a cooking class where I decided to not add salt in the food that I was preparing. I ate it and really enjoyed it. The guests also enjoyed it. I realized it was just my fear of the food i prepared being disliked that stops me from serving low salt and low sugar food (bland food). In the video you will see that most of the students attending did not like to add salt to the food.

I realized from the class that there is a potential that can usher a new way of preparing food and this can be done in the food industry also. 

Instead of food being served in restaurants from the starting point of taste, we can decide to prepare food from the starting point of nutrition. It is about us changing the way we see food and prepare food. Change starts from us. We created these 'positive and negative judgments' within our minds so we can also un-create it. The world system is a reflection of ourselves.

 Animal meat, vegetables and fruits have their own subtle tastes. 

Vegetables, nuts, fruits and animal meat have their own sodium content,

Spinach = 24 mg

http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/vegetables-and-vegetable-products/2626/2

Pork =  1283 mg

http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/pork-products/10300/2

Kiwi = 5 mg

http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/fruits-and-fruit-juices/1934/2

Cashews = 3 mg

http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/nut-and-seed-products/3095/2

Sodium

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sodium

'We can indeed choose to prepare food in a way that we can experience its real taste.'

June Roca

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The Ground Beef, Onion Pizza, Stetching the Dough, Flour and Raw and Cooked Foods

Video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qm67W5oHi08

I enjoyed making this pizza.

I am so sorry that I have judged the flour when I was a raw foodist - as bad. I missed the opportunity to interact with the flour because I was in my mind trying to judge, compare etc. based on ideas about it in my mind which came from information given by others.

I want to bring the mind pattern here and look at it:

>raw food is good 

>because I can make pizza with veggies

>flour is bad for you

>It has lots of carbs

> and the gluten is heavy

>raw food makes me feel good and look good

>so raw pizza must be better than cooked pizza

I realized here that I judged the flour as bad. I forgot that the wheat plant where the flour came from is also part of the whole - that is life. In my desire to look good, feel good and have a long life, I forgot that it was because I was trying to run away from my fear of disease and death that I was running after raw food - believing it is superior than cooked food. I had the desire to have a long life and I saw the raw pizza as something that can give me that. So, it was fear based. It was fear of disease and death that is the starting point for desiring raw pizza. Rather than release these judgments and interact with it as what it really is - food that nourish the body that I can enjoy and interact with when I prepare food - i chose to resist it.

Essentially, raw food and cooked food are expressions of life. They both have nutrition. It is not necessary to compare them and judge them nor resist one and desire the other. It's simply about choosing the food that will nourish the body then cooking and preparing it. Then, looking at the portion that I need. A small slice of cooked pizza  is what I need - that's all.